“Shame?” I asked, keeping my gaze on Zay.
“Mmm?”
“Am I dating royalty?”
“You tell me.”
I smiled. “King Jones. Doesn’t sound very royal.”
That got a chuckle out of him. “He’s a beauty, though, isn’t he? Especially when he’s working. Can make a mountain bow down to the sea.”
I sat back to enjoy this. Maybe I’d get a good look at a part of Mr. Private I hadn’t seen before.
Zay finally made it over to Hayden. I was right. Hayden was about six inches taller than Zay, and twice as broad at the shoulders. He made Zay look tiny, towering over him like that. Hayden would make a hell of a Viking, swinging a battle-ax or carrying a cannon over one shoulder as he stormed the castle gates.
He shook Zay’s hand, then wrapped him in a huge bear hug, slapping him on the back so loud, I winced as it echoed through the room.
“Good to see you, boy!” Hayden’s voice carried over the rest of the conversations filling the place. “Looks like you’re about to be put through your paces! Think you’re up for it?”
Zay stepped back and answered, but his response was so quiet, I couldn’t pick it up, not even with Hound ears.
Still, Hayden laughed. “That’s what I like to hear. Got some new kind of fire burning in him, doesn’t he, Maeve? What you been doing to this boy while I’ve been gone?”
“Excuse me,” said a man behind Shame and me. “Are you Daniel Beckstrom’s daughter?”
Danger. That was all I knew. Shame tensed from head to foot, both hands off the table now. The cheese knife was missing.
I inhaled, taking in the stranger’s scents-the plastic of too much hair gel, and a deeper note of something faintly metallic. He was not familiar to me. I turned.
He was maybe midthirties, shorter than me, looked like he knew his way around a gym, and gave off that professional broker, banker, doctor vibe. Wore a Nike T-shirt under a Windbreaker, and jeans with tennis shoes. Clean haircut. Clean-shaven. Small, close-set brown eyes. I’d never seen him before in my life.
“Your father was a good man. I’m very sorry for your loss.”
If he thought my father was a good man, my opinion of him just took a dive. Still, I had manners. “Thank you. And you are?”
“Mike Barham.” He held out his hand. I didn’t take it.
“Nice to meet you,” I said. “If you’ll excuse us, I don’t want to miss out on the main event.”
He glanced at Shamus and gave a halfhearted attempt to look surprised. “Shamus Flynn,” he said. He didn’t sound angry, but hate radiated off the man. “I didn’t know you were in town. Still living with your mother?”
Shame didn’t turn. Didn’t twitch, didn’t look at him.
Mike’s smile slipped. He walked around to stand next to Shame, which did not seem like a very smart thing to do. “You still mad at me about the position up north?” he asked. “You know the best man won. Plus, you’d never make it out there without your dear mother to protect you. It’s dangerous out in the real world.”
Something inside Shame coiled and burned, ready to leap. One more word out of Barham, and I was pretty sure Barham would have a cheese knife stabbed in his throat.
“Blow me, Barham,” Shame said.
Barham shook his head. “You are a spoiled little boy, Flynn. Your father used to tell me you were his biggest disappointment. He used to tell me he had wanted a son, not a fag.”
Shame rolled his head back and smiled up at him. “Tell me more about my father, Mike. Please do.”
I’d never heard that tone out of Shame. It was sweet, nice. And scared the hell out of me.
“You,” I said to Mike Barham with enough Influence to stun a rhino, “move away. Now.”
He jerked, and glared at me. He opened his mouth.
“Go,” I said.
He did as I said, because he couldn’t not do it. Under my Influence, he turned and walked away. He ended up across the room, where he sat at another table, and threw me angry looks.
Whatever. I was not going to just sit there and listen to him insult my friend.
It took Shame a full five minutes to finally let go of the cheese knife under the table, and place it back on the table. He didn’t look at me. He didn’t say anything. Just rolled his head down and stared off on some middle distance.
“So, he’s a prick,” I said. “Want to talk?”
He shook his head imperceptibly. I didn’t push him on it. I’d always thought Shame was straight. Not that it mattered. If Mike had wanted to make Shame angry, he’d done a bang-up job of it.
I glanced around the room, looking for Zayvion. He was absorbed in a quiet, intense conversation with another man I’d never met. The man with Zay was slender and tall, wore black slacks and a black turtleneck, and held himself with an elegance that made me think of historical movies with sword fights and aristocrats. His hair was so blond, it was white, and long enough it fell between his shoulder blades, pulled back and banded. He and Zayvion were both turned half toward us, talking quietly, but also with hand gestures, as if they had a lot to say, and not enough time to cover it with words alone.
Hoping to change the mood, I nudged Shame.
“So who’s Zay with now?”
Shame blinked and seemed to come back from a long, long distance. He inhaled, and looked in the direction of my gaze.
“Terric,” he breathed.
It wasn’t the sound of a man who hated another man. No. In that one word, in that one name, was longing, need, the sound of something precious lost.
I didn’t realize they had been intimate. Or maybe they hadn’t. Maybe the draw between Soul Complements wasn’t about the sex. Maybe it was just about magic. Using it, having it, letting it use you, immersed and joined by it in ways unimaginable. Power.
Whatever it was, Shame’s body language was that of a starving man using all his strength not to yield to the poisoned feast before him.
I thought about putting my hand on his arm to console him, and decided against it. Shame was keyed up and I didn’t want to get a cheese knife in the throat.
“Zay and him friends?” I asked instead, trying to draw Shame down.
“We all were once.” Saying that seemed to help. He closed his eyes a moment. Maybe he realized he was sitting on the edge of his seat. He relaxed in stages back into his normal slouch and rubbed his gloved hand over his eyes.
“Balls,” he said. “It’s gonna be a long night.”
“Were you and Terric lovers?”
“No.” He sighed behind his gloves. “I’m not gay. But that man. .” He pulled his hand away from his eyes. “Soul Complements. It’s. .” He just shook his head. “Him and me. . and magic? No. It doesn’t-can’t-work.”
“Did you refuse to be tested to see if you and he were Soul Complements because you were afraid you might want sex with him?” Yes, I am tactful that way. And also stupid.
He stared at me for a moment. “It’s good you and I are friends, Beckstrom,” he finally said. “Because I’m willing to ignore that ridiculous nonsense that just fell out of your mouth. It doesn’t have a damn thing to do with sex, okay? There were other reasons, other. . bad things.”
“Like?”
“Like I’m done talking about it. And like I wish Mum had ponied up a bottle or two of wine right about now.”
“I can see why she wouldn’t want to serve alcohol to a roomful of trigger-happy magic users,” I said.
“She doesn’t have to feed it to the magic users. She could just feed it to me.”