She briefly stuck out her tongue. “What about Nimira?”
“What about her?”
“She and Erris were going to look for Erris’s real body in the fairy kingdom. What if she tries to come after us now? Celestina-if she’s all right-she… she’ll be worried about me too. I know she will. She’s sort of a mother hen sometimes.”
“I don’t know.” Ifra ran his fingers through his hair. So many personalities to keep track of, and how was he supposed to anticipate what they all would do? “How would she even make it through the fairy gate? We didn’t have any trouble, but that’s because of me. Would Nimira be able to pass as a trader?”
“I don’t know, but I think she’s pretty clever.”
“Maybe we can send her a letter,” he said. “Tell her what our plans are, so she’ll hopefully wait it out. I think she’d only be disruptive at the moment.”
“Yes.”
Violet trailed off. A man with a flute and a girl with a fiddle had walked in the door, playing as they went, which prompted the reappearance of several drums and rattles that had been set aside earlier in favor of eating. Conversation turned impossible, unless they wanted to scream directly into each other’s ears. Everyone joined in the old songs about the Green Hoods, songs about heroes hanging, revenge, rebellion.
Ifra felt vaguely nervous, comparing this raucous gathering to the stately hall of Telmirra-they seemed worlds apart. Belin didn’t even seem to know how discontented the border folk were, or maybe he simply didn’t care.
Please, please don’t send me to crush these people. Ifra couldn’t even mention these fears to Violet. It was too awful to contemplate.
Violet leaned close enough to shout into his ear. “This is so exciting! Think what they’d say if they knew I was here!” Before he could respond, she added, “Don’t worry! I won’t.” She sat back, hands clapping.
A young man approached her, his cheeks flushed. “Care to dance, miss?”
She glanced at Ifra.
“Go ahead,” he said, too fast, seized by an impulse to push her away, to show himself he didn’t care. She gave him a slightly impish look and then took the proffered hand. The young man whirled her into the heart of the crowd, packed in the once-open space in the middle of the floor between tables.
The fairy men dressed quite a bit differently from the humans of Cernan. They didn’t shy from color. Dark blue and forest green coats whirled and bobbed in the firelight, while other men had stripped to shirtsleeves and embroidered vests. Violet’s clothes still looked out of place-too drab and too fussy in the wrong sort of way-buttons and puffs and flounces. But her heart belonged here, Ifra could tell. She looked far away from her concerns, smiling, hair flying, cheeks full of high color.
Ifra finished his cider and stood. He started clapping with the rest. When Violet saw him, she beamed and took her leave from the young man, slipping between two other couples and offering her hand to Ifra. Her best smile seemed to be for him alone.
Ifra took her hand, pulling her against him-you couldn’t move in the room unless you were close, but he wanted her there, in any case. They fell into step, feet stumbling because neither really knew how to dance. Of course, Ifra had never heard music like this before, but it reminded him of the dances he’d seen at the bazaar. Drums needed no language.
When the song was done, Violet grabbed his collar and dropped a kiss on his lips. She laughed and went back to her own unfinished cider. Someone had taken their chairs during the song. A new song began with all the wobble of a newborn animal, and then someone came in with an accordion and threw everything off. The musicians were arguing about what to do next.
Violet looked at him over the rim of her cup. Her chest was heaving from the exertion of the dance, although she was trying to play coy.
He slipped an arm around her waist. She put down the cup. He kissed her this time, and hard. She pulled him to her-much more boldly than he expected a girl to move.
“What kind of books have you been reading all these years?” he said.
She clung to him, spoke into his ear. “I just-I’ve been sick forever, and once I got better, I thought then I’d die, because I wanted to experience everything so much. I wanted the whole world. And when I saw you…”
She sat atop the table, drew him closer and kept kissing. No one even seemed to notice them. The music had finally found its way again. A faint haze of tobacco hovered in the room.
It was only later, much later, after they had danced again and kissed again, had danced some more, after he had carried a half-drunk and entirely exhausted Violet to bed, that he realized he too had moved far away from his concerns. That night, he had not been a jinn, with all the responsibilities it entailed.
He had been, simply, Ifra.
And a very, very happy Ifra, at that.
Chapter 21
Every day, I waited to hear the sound of the train whistle on the winter air. Annalie managed to communicate with Karstor through spirit channels and was told he was sending a doctor as soon as possible. Mostly, I heard nothing but branches cracking from the ice, or the wind moaning at the windows. February storms kept the train from running, and even on pleasant days I imagined that Cernan, the last stop on the route, was hardly a priority for the men clearing the tracks.
Celestina grew better by inches. She still couldn’t move much or get out of bed without help, but she could sit propped up on pillows without too much pain, making it easier for her to read. Whenever I came to bring her food, however, I usually found her sleeping or simply staring at the ceiling.
I tried to cheer her up, but I couldn’t seem to summon the strength for it when I badly needed cheering up myself.
How I missed Erris and his jokes. Sometimes it had irritated me, but now I realized how much I loved him for it too. When he had been trapped at a piano, only able to communicate with our system for matching letters to the piano keys, he had still tried to make light of the situation and cheer me up. I wouldn’t be able to do that. I was sure. I couldn’t even imagine what sort of bottomless despair would come over me in those conditions. There was something so wonderfully normal about a joke, so that even though our relationship had been almost entirely unconventional, I could forget about clockwork gears and fairy royalty, and see him only as himself.
But he was gone, and the only thing to do, really, was work. Annalie did nearly all the caretaking for Celestina, but she wasn’t a good cook, so I managed that. Annalie brought Celestina trays of food and cups of tea, dumped her chamber pot, made poultices for the swelling and bruising, helped her change clothes.
I baked bread, chopped vegetables and stirred stews, and washed endless dishes. Neither Annalie nor I had ever known a life entirely devoid of servants. We could manage the simple things easily enough, but we certainly didn’t know how to wash clothes, and at some point it had to be done. I took notes from Celestina’s instructions.
First we gathered snow to melt, and then we had to heat the water. I didn’t realize how much I could sweat in the dead of winter until it came time to stir the clothes, standing over the hot water. Annalie and I took turns pounding and moving the stick around in the tub, then pulling the clothes out.
We’d hardly gotten anywhere, and we were both panting and aching. Celestina always did the hardest work in the house, even little things like grating potatoes for potato pancakes or kneading bread. She did it so automatically that I’d never thought about it before.
Celestina’s bell rang from upstairs. She needed something.
Annalie started to laugh, in a spent way. “Ohhh, not now. How do poor women ever manage, with so many things to do and babies?”