Sixty-six, sixty-eight, seventy, seventy-two...
Of course Hermione might be missing something. He spent days away during which she had no idea what he did. There could be countless things he was doing that she had no knowledge of.
There was something she was overlooking. A detail she felt she knew subconsciously but couldn't place. Something… something. Like a puzzle she was piecing together, built from all the contradictory information she had been accumulating in her mind.
One hundred and thirty-two. One hundred and thirty-four. One hundred and thirty-six.
She felt something in the back of her mind crack and a page of a well-worn notebook filled with her handwriting swam before her eyes.
“The fanfare is in the light but the execution is in the dark, the purpose being always to mislead. Intention is revealed to divert the attention of the adversary, then it is changed to gain the end by what was unexpected. But insight is wise, wary, and waits behind its armor. Sensing always the opposite of what it was to sense and recognizing at once the real purpose of the trick, it allows every first hint to pass, lies in wait for a second, and even a third. The simulation of truth now mounts higher by glossing the deception and tries, through truth itself to falsify. It changed the play in order to change the trick and makes the reason appear the phantom by founding the greatest fraud upon the greatest candor. But wariness is on watch seeing clearly what is intended, covering the darkness that was clothed in light, and recognizing that design most artful which looks most artless. In such fashion, the wiliness of Python is matched against the simplicity of Apollo's penetrating rays.”
Hermione paused wondering where the words had come from. It wasn't a book she could recall. She had memorized the words. As soon as she saw them in memory she recalled memorizing them.
The fanfare is in the light but the execution is in the dark.
She repeated the words to herself several times.
Then she started counting by three as she proceeded on her way through the hedge maze in the direction that Malfoy had claimed the garden shed was.
The day passed pointlessly, filled with counting. There was nothing useful she could find during her final exploration of the Malfoy estate.
The garden shed Malfoy directed her to was locked.
She did discover that Malfoy kept a stable of winged horses; enormous Abraxans, Granians, and Aethonens. All of which stared down at her through barred stable doors and stomped their hooves when she got close.
A dainty Granian was the only one who didn't step back when Hermione approached. It fluttered its smokey wings and shoved its nose through the bars, nickering and tossing its head at Hermione.
Hermione lightly stroked its velvety muzzle and felt the warmth of its huffing breath against her palm. If Hermione's mind hadn't been smothered she might have cried at the realization that a horse was the first warm and gentle thing to touch her in years.
She stood for several minutes petting the horse's forehead and lightly scratching its chin while it nuzzled her robes in the hope of finding an apple or carrot. When it realised Hermione had nothing to offer it pulled its narrow head back through the bars and ignored her.
Hermione lingered there for longer than she should have.
Hermione took to the paths and found the entrance of Malfoy Manor. Large iron wrought gates stood closed and would not open for her. Hermione wasn't sure what she would have done if they had.
She wandered across as much of the estate as she could.
Hermione found the family cemetery. Countless headstones and mausoleums buried under snow. The Malfoy Family was ancient.
Only one mausoleum was carefully cleared of snow. On each side of the door there were enchanted daffodils, blooming. Hermione studied the words carved into the marble.
Narcissa Black Malfoy. Beloved wife and mother. Astra inclinant, sed non obligant.
A large headstone for Bellatrix Lestrange stood nearby. The Black Family crest adorning the marble. Toujours Pur.
Hermione left the cemetery and continued exploring the estate. It felt endless. Isolated. Uninterrupted snowy hills stretching out as far as she could see, blindingly white under the clear blue sky. When night fell Hermione continued wandering, staring up at the constellations until she felt the potion's effects begin fading away.
She felt so ill the next morning she thought she was dying. She vomited off the side of the bed and it took her hours before she could drag herself into the bathroom. She didn't know if she could become immune to the potion but she didn't think it was possible to continue surviving it to find out. Even if Malfoy sent it she doubted she'd be able to handle dosing herself again.
She was sick for two days, pressed against the window as she shivered and sweated the potion from her system. Mulling over Malfoy and the drawing room in the South Wing again and again when she wasn't too feverish to even think coherently. On the second night she dreamt of Ginny.
Ginny was huddled next to a bed and quietly sobbing. She turned sharply when Hermione entered the room. Ginny's expression as she turned and caught sight of Hermione was anguished, her chest was stuttering sharply and ragged breaths were being gasped rapidly through her open mouth. Even her red hair was wet with tears.
As Hermione approached Ginny's hair slipped back and exposed a long, cruel scar twisting down the side of her face from her forehead down to the jaw.
“Ginny,” Hermione said. “Ginny, what's wrong? What happened?”
“I don't know—“ Ginny forced the words out and then started crying harder.
Hermione knelt down next to her friend and hugged her.
“Oh god, Hermione—,” Ginny gasped. “I don't know how—“
Ginny broke off as she struggled to breathe. Choked hiccoughing sounds emerged from deep in her throat as she struggled against her spasming lungs.
“It's alright. Breathe. You need to breathe. Then tell me what's wrong and I'll help you,” Hermione promised as she ran her hands up and down Ginny's shoulders. “Just breathe. In to a count of four. Hold it. And then out through your nose for a count of six. We'll build up to that. I'll breathe with you. Alright? Come on, breathe with me. I've got you.”
Ginny just cried harder.
“It's alright,” Hermione kept saying as she started taking deep demonstrative breaths for Ginny to follow. She held Ginny tight in her arms so that the younger girl would feel Hermione's chest expanding and contracting slowly as a subconscious cue.
Ginny kept crying for several more minutes before her sobs slowed and her breathing slowly began mirroring Hermione's.
“Do you want to tell me what's wrong or would you rather I go get someone else?” Hermione asked when she was sure Ginny was not going to keep hyperventilating.
“No — you can't—,” Ginny said immediately. “Oh god! I don't—“
Ginny started sobbing into Hermione's shoulder again.
She was still crying when Hermione woke from the dream.
Hermione replayed the memory in her mind.
Ginny had rarely cried. When Percy died she had cried for days but as the war wore on her tears had dried up along with everyone else's. Ginny had barely cried when Arthur was cursed or when George nearly died.
Hermione couldn't remember Ginny ever crying so much.
Hermione kept turning the memory over and over in her mind, trying to make sense of it.