I opened my eyes to find that the green affliction had passed. The day was bright, and Anotine's face was more beautiful than ever. She leaned forward and kissed me.
"There's an odd custom I don't think I will adopt," said Bris-den as he helped me to my feet.
"Can you stand on your own, Cley?" asked the Doctor.
"I'm quite all right," I said.
"What did you see?" asked Nunnly. "What frightened you?"
"It was just the weirdness of it all," I said. "A rush of information. The place is brimming with knowledge."
"Will you be able to take the stuff again when we get inside the Panopticon?" he asked.
"I'll be able to do it. I know what to expect," I said.
"What did you learn about us?" asked the Doctor.
"Nothing. I didn't have a chance to really focus on any of you," I said. When it was evident from the quizzical look he gave me that my answer was hardly sufficient, I spoke quickly before he could question me further. "The weapons," I said. "We have to prepare for the Delicate. Nunnly, do you understand what I'm looking for?"
The engineer nodded. "I think so."
"Brisden," I said, "I want you to go to the edge of the island and check the rate of disintegration."
He bowed as low as his stomach would allow and set off, surprisingly, without a word.
"I'll get the remaining shell for the signal gun," said the Doctor.
"Meet at Anotine's as soon as possible," I called.
Brisden waved without looking back, and the other gentleman turned away to their tasks. I was left alone then with Anotine.
"I thought I was going to lose you," she said.
"Nonsense," I told her. "I'm not leaving here without you. No matter what happens, I will find a way for us to be together."
She smiled and put her arms around me. I pulled her close and could feel every inch of her body against mine. Putting my lips to her ear, I meant to whisper, "I love you," but instead the words came as, "I believe in you."
19
Back in Anotine's bedroom, I had only to tell her my idea of using the technology of the metallic chair as some sort of weapon, and she immediately came up with a way it might be put to use.
"The seat and back are the only pieces that carry the charge," she told me. "We remove the arms and legs, and then lay the effective parts in the entrance, so that when the Delicate tries to come in we can use the black box from a distance to disable him. Once he is weakened, we can finish the job with one of the cruder weapons that Nunnly comes up with."
"Perhaps we should then fire the signal gun at him," I said.
She shook her head. "From what you said before, the signal gun should be held for emergencies. If you destroy his face with it like you did the Fetch's, we may not be able to use him to gain access to the Panopticon."
"You're right," I said, impressed with the speed and clarity of her thought. I could see now that she had shrugged off her fear and was attacking the situation as if it were a research problem.
I followed her down the hall to the laboratory, and stood back as she moved quickly from table to table collecting an armful of implements. The way she launched into the project of cannibalizing the chair showed me why my conjecture as to her being the leader of the group was correct. Although Nunnly was the engineer, Anotine herself was a wizard with tools. She was altogether focused and graceful in her work, and when she needed my assistance, gave orders with an authoritative voice that told me I had better pay attention.
As we set the makeshift trap up in the entrance to her bedroom, I asked her how the black box was able to affect the chair parts from a distance.
"I haven't the slightest idea," she said, kneeling to check our placement of the device. "The apparatus was here when I arrived long ago. I can tell you, my discovery of how it worked was rather interesting. I had always thought that the chair, being made of a metallic alloy, must have some importance beyond being another piece of furniture, but I just couldn't find the key to its significance. One day, after long hours of research on trying to study the instant between a candlewick's being lit and my extinguishing of it, I sat down in the chair. Back in those days, I believed my stay on the island would have a limit, and I wanted to make the most of it. Instead of simply resting, I thought it would be a good time to take another look at a certain black box with buttons I had also found here in the lab."
I laughed. "Happy accident," I said.
"A shocking discovery," she said. "I think it proves something that Brisden always says: with enough time and the right degree of curiosity, all secrets will be revealed."
"Maybe," I said, thinking of my own problems in locating the antidote.
"The time has come for another discovery, Cley," she said, standing up from where she had been adjusting the sections of the chair. From the manner in which she dipped her head and arched her eyebrows, I realized she wasn't speaking hypothetically.
"What would that be?" I asked.
She paused for a moment before speaking. "It came to me before by the fountain of the pelican. You said you believed in me. Why would you have to say that? None of this is real, is it? Nunnly, Brisden, the Doctor, myself, we're all merely the afterthoughts of some other greater place, aren't we?"
I walked over and took her hand. "Listen/7 I said. "I'm from another place, and there is no one there who doesn't wonder the same thing. We may have the curiosity, but there will never be enough time to answer that question. Live your life, Anotine. Be real for me, and 111 be real for you."
Her look softened, and then she smiled. "Agreed," she said, and shook my hand.
I was going to put my arms around her, but Brisden came in then, overheated and babbling at an alarming rate. He walked directly between the two of us, pushing apart our hands, and took up a seat at the table near the back of the room. I had never witnessed the weighty philosopher practice his verbal profluence. The words came in torrents, strung together by a frayed ribbon of exotic grammar.
"…and the ineluctable presence of the not-there is evident in a materially vanquished nuance of equal parts matter without regard to structure and spiritual gravity in the falling off of the centeredness beyond the point of diminishing …"
"Brisden," Anotine said.
He continued to spew.
She stepped over to him and smacked him across his meaty face. His head turned with the blow, and perspiration flew off. He went silent, and his lips turned down at the corners. It seemed as if he suddenly came awake, looking up at us with a dazed expression.
"What is it?" I asked.
"Tell us so we can understand," said Anotine.
"Pass out the wings," he said.
"The disintegration has increased yet more?" she asked.
"I almost went over the side," he said, smiling. "I was standing about midway through the wood, and the edge was now there. It moved so rapidly, I was amazed and could not help but gape. Before I knew it, I looked down and saw the ground beneath my feet disappearing. I just managed to dig my heels in and throw myself back onto my rear end at the last possible second. Nunnly would have been beside himself had he seen me scrabbling to my feet and running—I actually ran."
"Well?" said Anotine.
"It's going to keep increasing in speed. I'd say we have two days at the most, taking everything into consideration."
"Hardly enough time for me to perfect my swan dive," said a voice from behind us.
I turned around to find the engineer standing at the entrance upon the back of the broken-down chair, holding three five-foot-long pointed shafts made of polished steel.
"How about these, Cley?" he asked, and came forward to hand me one.
"Not bad," I said.
"They're partially hollow inside, making them light enough to handle, but I ground down the ends to a wicked sharpness."
"IT1 take one," said Anotine, and he handed one over.
"Bris?" asked Nunnly.
Brisden waved his hand, begging off. "Maybe later," he said.