“FEMA can’t even figure out what to do with the money Congress gave them. It’s so radically fucked up that Congress is now asking for money back. Anyway, I got an email from one of my Inner Circle people at Guerdon — a sweet guy.” He riffled some papers on the table, then quoted. “ ‘I have come into deep waters, and the flood sweeps over me. I am weary of my crying…rescue me from the mire, and do not let me sink.’ I mean, sentimental bibleshit, right? So, I’m just gonna do my thing — with a little help from my friends. I think any other way would be arrogant. My thing. People will have their ‘fuck that rich asshole’ moment — they’ve been having it! ‘He’s only honoring 2 people!’ The public won’t be allowed to stroll around and drop their trash…poor babies. No iPod commentaries! No gift shop! They’ll just have to sweat it out. Jerk off to the Iraqi civil war or the latest Amber Alert. Or see a Korean horror film instead. Cause all anyone wants is a gore fix. I sound like Howard Beale, huh? Great movie, Network. So get your tragedy fix, but not from me. I ain’t no dealer! I’m not a healer either. But why isn’t Lew Freiberg helping to build new levees? Because Ted Turner will take care of it. Leave it to the Three Stooges: Carter, Clinton, and funk-breathed HW! Leave it to Halliburton! You know what? My foundation sends money, but I funnel it to Humane Society International. They’re the folks — a lot are Buddhists, by the way, like Esther was — who deal with animals. You know, animals saved a mess of people in the tsunami and wound up shit’s creek, literally. People can help each other but animals can’t. Animals are ‘sentient beings’ too, right? That’s the big Buddhist phrase. My sister-in-law was a pretty serious practitioner of Zen-whatever. We had our moments, but Esther was all right. Helped stabilize my brother. So that’s where I choose to send my money. To HSI! And if folks’re gonna cry, fuck em. People will cry, that’s what they do. That’s what they’re good at. But at the end of the day we got 400 acres. You’ve seen it, Joan. At the end of the day, long after we’re dead and gone, there’ll still be 400 acres and ‘the ruined church.’ What I’m calling the Ruined Church. And it’s going to be a sacred space. Esther loved that phrase. ‘Sacred space.’ And that sacred space will speak volumes for all the suffering of people and animals. You know what else disgusts me?”
“Tell me, Lew.”
“Newsvultures standing on some tsunami beach — those Big Wave anniversary reports are just nice excuses get some Phuket R & R — saying—intoning—‘No one can explain why some areas have received bounty and others have slipped through the net.’ Right. Right. Well, that’s just the way it is. Same as it ever was. Always was, always will be. That’s ‘duality.’ Buddhism 101. No one can fucking explain. Or splain, as Ricky Ricardo used to say. And guess what? No one should even try.”
He stood.
“Here’s what I think.”
“Tell me what you think,” she said, girlishly.
“Let’s get this party started.”
XXII.Ray
RAY left a message with the cop who sent the note, inviting him to drop by if he was ever in the neighborhood. 3 hours later, the detective knocked at his door.
He was in his early 50s, sandy-haired and red-faced. Funny, he reminded Ray of Robert Redford in that Twilight Zone, thicker and older of course, in a sport jacket instead of a uniform. Ghulpa seemed suspect of his visit and Staniel Lake (“My granddad was Daniel and my father was Stan, and yes, the kids called me ‘cocker staniel’ in school”) picked up on it. He made it clear right at the beginning that he wasn’t there as a representative of the department and whatever legal course Ray decided to take meant nothing to him. He said he was here for strictly personal reasons: though he didn’t want to “talk it to death,” he felt bad about what happened, plain and simple. BG made tea and offered to heat up prawns in grated coconut. The detective politely declined, indicating that he didn’t want “to add to the paunch.” He didn’t really have much of a stomach, but his manner charmed them both.
Detective Lake kept it light.
Ray was again touched to hear he’d come to the hospital, and apologized for not being awake. “That was plain rude,” he said.
Staniel laughed. “I was happy to see you get your rest.”
He said that his father, a retired police officer, died about 2 years ago from emphysema in that very same place. Ray had a few choice words for the night shift’s bedside manner and the detective mordantly chuckled. The assumption he already knew that his host was partial to the shield hung in the air; a tough old bird who wasn’t litigation-happy. Nowadays, that was practically a miracle. Ray started to feel like a retired cop himself — one of the boys.
Staniel asked after the dog. The old man said he’d been to visit the Friar, who was on the mend and would probably be home in a couple of weeks. The guest was genuinely happy to hear it. “The night was a royal fuckup,” he said, violating his own informal rule, once Ghulpa was out of earshot. (He dipped his voice so she wouldn’t hear the vulgarity.) Ray thought that gutsy because anything the detective said might technically be used against him and his department. Not that Ray would ever break confidence, not in a million years, and Staniel Lake seemed to know it.
To be conversational, Ray said he used to live in Mar Vista, and how he once owned a miniature golf course; a magic shop; then a bigger place on Sepulveda called Ray Rausch’s Game Emporium. How he’d lost everything in the slot-car craze of the late 60s after buying a miniature racetrack — Racer Ray’s Indy 100. How he’d gambled away whatever savings he had. How he got divorced in ’73 and lost contact with his kids. The grim years before going back to work at a hobby “hatch” in Montebello. (The old man covered a lot of ground. Even Ghulpa learned a few things she didn’t know.) The owner of the place “up and died,” leaving Ray the entire inventory, which he sold just in time: mostly trains and model planes. Kids were collecting different kinds of things now, computer-related. He couldn’t pretend to even understand the gaming market anymore. But he’d done all right, he said.
By the time the detective got paged and had to run, Ray had been beating his gums for almost an hour. Later, he realized how lonesome he’d been for intelligent male companionship.
THAT night the old man had crazy dreams triggered by his pell-mell reminiscence. His bedroom got mixed up with the CCU, and the clinic Nip/Tuck was at. Joanie and Chester peered out from weird foliage, frozen at the ages when he left—3 and 7—and Ray began whimpering in his sleep. He awakened with a jolt when a lion sprang on his chest, and Ghulpa comforted him, fetching a cool, damp rag. He shook his head in dismay. With a sardonic smile, he told BG he had her to thank; she always regaled him with tales of man-eaters from the Gir Forest that she’d seen as a child at the zoo in Calcutta. She loved telling him the stories her parents recounted of lions that crept up on pilgrims who lay sleeping in camps, leaving only bloody saris behind. They’d walk right into houses and silently carry out children by the napes of their necks in the dead of night. Whenever there was something in the news about a little boy or girl who’d been stolen from her room, in California or Florida or wherever, then found murdered down the road or in a creek, Ghulpa’s face darkened. She could never see the human hand.