He looked up the aisle at clothes he could not by any stretch of the imagination see himself wearing, stuffed his hands in his pockets. The lining on the right one was twice resewn. “You wear that silver stuff into Lucy’s crawlspaces, will you? You fit yourselves out for work, Reilly.”
“There’s dockside and there’s work. Find something you like, hear me?”
He studied the aisle, nothing on racks, no searching this stuff for burn-holes and bad seams. One asked, and they hunted it out of computerized inventory. “So I get myself the likes of yours,” he muttered, thinking he would never carry it well. “That satisfy you?”
“Good enough. What kind of entertainment system does she carry?”
“Deck of cards,” he muttered. “We can buy a fresh one.”
She swore. “You have to have a tape rig.”
“Mariner-built Delta system.”
“Lord, a converter, then. We’ll bring our own tapes and buy some new.”
“I can’t afford-”
“Basic amenities. I’m telling you, you want class crew, you have to rig out. What about bedding?”
“Got plenty of that. Going to have to stock up on lifesupport goods and some filters and detergents and swabs—before we get to extravagances. I’d like to put a backup on some switches and systems that aren’t carrying any right now.”
A roll of Allison’s dark eyes in his direction, stark dismay.
‘Two of them on the main board,” he added, the plain truth.
“Make a list. This place can get them.”
“Will. Going to be nice, isn’t it, knowing there’s a failsafe?”
He walked down the aisle alone, looking at the clothes. And all about him, over the tops of the counters, were other displays… personal goods, bedding, dishes, tapes and games, utility goods, cabinets, ship’s furnishings, interior hardware, recycling goods, tools, bins, medical supplies, computer softwares. Music whispered through his senses. He turned about him and stared, lost in the glitter of the displays he had never given more than a passing glance to—had never come in a place like this, where his kind of finances could get a man accused of theft.
A kind of madness afflicted him suddenly, like nerving himself for a bad jump. “Help you?” a clerk asked down his nose.
“Got to get some clothes,” he said. And yielding to the recklessness of the moment: “Like to have it match, jacket and the rest. Some dockside boots. Maybe a few work clothes.” Allison was out of sight: that panicked him in more than one sense. She was probably off buying something. And the clerk was giving him that look that bartenders gave him. He pulled his new card from his pocket. “Stevens,” he said, and clerkly eyes brightened.
“You’re the one that came in yesterday.”
“Yes, sir.” Lord, was it only yesterday? His shoulders ached with the thought. “Got in with nothing but my account money and I need a lot of things.”
The eyes brightened further. “Be happy to help you, Captain Stevens.”
Flash coveralls. A 75 credit pair of boots; a jacket; a stack of underwear. He looked at himself in the fitting room, haggard and wanting a shave, and took off the fine clothes and ordered it all done in packages.
And he found Allison Reilly at the commodities counter, perched on a stool and going through the catalogue. “Ordered anything?” he asked with a sinking feeling.
“Making a list.” She tapped the screen in front of her, a display of first line meals with real meat and frozen fruits and boxed pastries.
“Chocolates,” he added in a sense of fantasy. He had had chocolate once.
“Chocolate,” she said. “There we go.”
“Cancel that. It’s too expensive.”
“Chocolate and coffee. Real stuff. Leave it to me.”
“Allison—do you—get this stuff usually?”
He would have cut his throat rather than ask an hour ago. He looked into her face and suspected something as childish as his chocolates.
“For special days,” she admitted. “I got some staple stuff too.”
“I have 75 standard frozens. You can wipe that off.”
“Good enough.” She wiped the stylus over part of the order. “What about those hardware items we need?”
We, it was. He took up the seat next to her and keyed up the catalogue. “I can get better prices,” he muttered.
“There’s a discount system. Do your whole rig here and you get some off.”
“Better.” After the moment’s euphoria, his stomach was upset. He ticked through the things they really needed. He felt conspicuous sitting here, at the counter in this place, dressed as he was. The list went on growing, more and more expensive, because systems were, more than crew luxuries.
“That do it?” Allison asked finally.
He punched for the total. 5576.2 came up on the screen. He shook his head in shock. “Can’t go that.”
“Five of us, remember? And the hardware. That’s not out of line. Put the card in, there.”
He shoved it into the slot. It registered. THANK YOU, the screen said. He stared at it like some oncoming mass.
Took his card back.
She patted his shoulder. “Haircut for us both,” she said. “And clean up. We’re meeting someone for dinner.”
“Who?”
“The rest of us, who else? And why don’t you get yourself a proper patch, while we’re at it? I looked in the directory. There’s this place does them to order, all computer set up. Anything you like, on the spot. It’s really amazing how it works.”
“Lord, Reilly—does it matter?”
“I’d think it would.” She touched the misembroidered nymph on his sleeve. “You could do yourself a class job. Or they’ve got the over-the-counter stuff. If you really want.”
That was low. He scowled and she never flinched. “Mind your business,” he said. “If I like the tatty thing it’s my business.”
“You’re really going to go blank like that. They’ll think you’re a pirate for sure.”
“I’ll just get me a handful of the tatty ones. Thanks.”
Lips pursed. So she knew how far she had pushed.
“The name’s not Stevens,” she said.
That’s what you’re asking, is it?”
“Maybe.”
That’s my business.” And after a moment: “I’ll get some blamed patch. I don’t care what. But no shamrock. I’ll promise you that.”
“Didn’t think so.”
He nodded, gathered up his packages, all of them but the stuff they had ordered on catalogue, that would see ship delivery when they made the loading schedule.
When.
Chapter IX
He had his doubts—had them following Allison to the patcher; and getting trimmed and shaved and lotioned at the barber—his first time, for a haircut that gave him a sleek, blond look of affluence. Doubts again in sleepover, spoiling the hour he snatched for sleep: his privacy, he kept thinking; the life that he had—It was a miserable life, but he controlled it; there was comp, with its peculiarities; and the sealed rooms that these Dubliners would demand to open. There were things they would hear and see that were worse than public nakedness to him; that undercut his pride, and rifled through his memories.
But it had to be, he reasoned with himself. He had never had such a chance. Never could dream of such a chance. He looked at Allison looking at him in the minor—and the warmth of that drove the chill away. “You look good,” she said, to the silver-suited image of him, and he faced about toward her with a surge of confidence that sent some feeling back into his hands and feet “Reckon so?” he asked.