“You sound like Thorpe.”
“No. I’m not like Thorpe. I’ve designed buildings—redesigned them—for people like Thorpe. But not this place. Not this hospital. Not this time around. Not anymore.”
Stepping onto the roof meant everything to her. She could still smell it on Mullich, imagine its air trapped in the creases of his lab coat. Visitors approached the waiting area, then veered away when they neared Mendenhall and Mullich.
“What are your conditions?”
Mullich held up his card key. “Every time this is used, it’s recorded. Yours, too. Thorpe’s as well, and any like it. Anyone can see. That’s how it is. That’s how it must be. Transparent action.” She shrugged.
“No,” he said. “You don’t understand. You have to enter your key, too. Even though it won’t open the doors. It will be recorded.
Anyone, including Thorpe, gets to see where you go, where you tried to go.”
“Thorpe won’t play that way.”
“I don’t care. And I’m not playing.”
13.
The roof door rejected her key. A tiny red light above the slot blinked twice. Mullich inserted his key, the light went green, a beep sounded, and the door opened, bypassing containment.
“Who gets to push the button?” Mendenhall asked. “The one that suddenly changes all the doors? Thorpe? You?”
“There is a chain of agreement. Thorpe is one link. My office just does the resetting because we know how. There is no single button.”
Mullich led her up the short flight of stairs and out to the roof.
They headed to the telescope relic.
She paused to eye the stars. “Are you comfortable with all that? That chain of agreement? With policy, with Men Who Know Best? Containing things to keep the public calm.”
“It might be the best first course of action.”
She shook her head, continued to skim the stars. “First course of action becomes the only course of action. With policy and its makers and enforcers. Our nerves are built for power. They feed on it.”
One step short of the low wall, Mendenhall closed her eyes and drew a full breath of night air. Cool and damp, it opened her lungs.
She took the final step blind. She opened her eyes in exhalation, her look aimed toward the dark running trails below.
“Still,” she said, “it all comes down to someone pressing enter. No?”
“You watch too much television.”
They stood side by side, she tracing the trail run she craved, he aiming his scope over the parking lot.
“What will Thorpe think?” she asked. “If he notices I tried to come out here with you?”
Mullich was aiming his scope at a white truck blocking the parking-lot gate. “That I’m out here explaining things to you. I’ve already brought him out here. I told him I would bring other doctors involved.”
She followed his aim as he glided it to other targets. The red dot spotted three more white trucks that she hadn’t noticed: one parked in the center of the lot, one at the ambulance-only turn, another far down the hill road. The last truck was just a pale smudge in the darkness. The dot of his aim made a tiny red star.
“What is that thing?”
“A range finder.” He continued measuring targets.
“How accurate is it?”
“Inside, at those distances, within two millimeters. Out here, within centimeters.”
She pointed to the moon, a gray crescent. “Can you hit that?”
He took the scope from his eyes, which was all she wanted him to do. “Theoretically. But you would have to account for the refraction in the atmosphere, the bend of gravity from both moon and Earth, the time, and the scatter.”
“The scatter?”
“Of light. By the time this reaches the moon, assuming we calculate all those factors, the light would dissipate into a large field several hundred meters wide.”
“Circle or square?” Her thoughts were dissipating, what she had hoped for on this roof.
“A kind of X, actually,” he replied. “Not quite axes, not quite perpendicular.” He was making entries on his tablet, its blue illuminating his face, paling the angles.
“What did you see out there?”
“On the moon?” he asked. “Or here?”
“Here. Where I want to be. Not the moon—where I should want to be.”
“Containment is increasing,” he said.
She quit looking at the moon, the lot, the dark trails, and turned to Mullich. She parted her lips to speak but remained silent.
“It’s to be expected,” he told her. “When they brought me here, design for containment was a priority. This made sense. They showed me their patterns, and I showed them the patterns of my research from other hospitals around the world. The evolution of infections outpaces the hospital. That’s no secret. Even something as common as staph trumps the Mayo. MRSA becomes VRSA. The infection grows increasingly resistant to control, though it remains the same contagion.”
“You’ve spent too much time with Thorpe,” she said.
“You deny those facts?”
She shook her head. “But another fact is that Thorpe fantasizes a world where everyone is contagious. The whole world his ID ward.”
“As opposed to one big ER?”
“Yes,” she replied. “Which is what it really is.”
She rubbed her nose with the back of her hand, looked to the trails below. “I’m not going to Peterson with you. I don’t care about Peterson. She’s dead. She was dead when she got to me. She’s Thorpe’s specimen. Claiborne and I can approximate her time of collapse using Thorpe’s requests.”
Mullich raised a brow.
“It’s simple,” she explained. “His questions for the others will show what he knows about Peterson.”
“But there is something, then,” he said. “Something you want me to get. For you. Without letting Thorpe know.”
“Just ask one question for me. When you’re in there with your key. Ask that witness how many times she looked at Verdasco. How many times she looked before his eyes turned to glass. Beautiful glass.”
Mullich made no reply, just stared at her.
“You can tell Thorpe exactly what you tell me. Tell him how many times she looked at Verdasco before she noticed something wrong. Would that satisfy you? Is that transparent enough?”
“If you’ll come to one more place with me.”
He took her to a file room on the first floor. It was the room she had gone to after her very first shift in the ER. She had gone there to cry. She had gone there to hide. Her mentor had found her right away, two stale coffees in hand. The room’s window faced east.
Beyond the delivery trucks one could see blurry mountains rising from the city haze.
Mullich did not switch on the light and stopped her from doing so. The room was filled with the orange glow of the delivery bay outside, some pale reflections off the shipping trucks, too.
Styrofoam cups littered the tops of the steel file cabinets. The room smelled of ashes, burned filters, and rancid coffee.
At first she was frightened; of what, she wasn’t sure. Mullich, yes, but of what he could predict or of what he intended? Then, from the way he surveyed the room, she could see that it was his first time here. He went to the window, and she followed.
“Why here?” she asked. It was an ER question, one that suggested understanding, opened to possibilities.
“I want to help you decide. Blood or paper. I want to make sure you see.”
With a very small flashlight, a key-chain thing, he illuminated the window. The light was icy, almost blue. It turned the window opaque. On the glass near the edge he focused on a cluster of smudges, angling the light.
“Someone tried to slide it open,” she said. “So?”