This blunt statement made Blum smile. “You are more like your sister than you know.”
“Am I?” Mercy said dubiously. “My life has been very different from hers, apparently.”
“I know some of what you went through with Desiree.”
“I dreamed of killing her a thousand times.”
“I’m sure you have.”
“I came here to kill her.”
“Yes, Agent Pine assumed that.”
“Agent Pine, huh? FBI and everything? Didn’t know they had many gals doing that.”
“She’s an excellent agent, one of the very best.” Blum pulled out of the parking lot and headed toward the street.
“Good for her,” said Mercy, but the voiced compliment rang hollow. “And you’ve been looking for me for a while now?”
“Yes. It’s been quite the journey, with a lot of twists and turns.”
“Yeah, I bet.”
Blum glanced at her.
“What have you been doing all this time, Mercy?”
“Just surviving. Like everybody else.”
“It will be difficult for you to see Desiree, won’t it?”
“It may be more difficult for her than me.”
Blum said sharply. “You didn’t escape from that awful woman just so she could put you back in prison, did you?”
“I feel like I have every right to kill her.”
“But if you do, she wins. And I know you’re smart enough to know that. But if you can’t promise me you won’t attack her, then we’re not going to see Desiree.”
“She may be the only lead to find your boss.”
“And your sister. So unless you’re prepared to hold back your natural anger, we’re not going to be able to find Agent Pine, which means she’ll probably die.”
“I should have more feelings for her,” said Mercy, perhaps with a degree of honesty that startled even her. “But it’s been a long time. And a lot of shit happened in between. And she got to stay home. I lost the rhyme. I got pitched into the nightmare.”
Blum pursed her lips. “Ito Vincenzo, the man who kidnapped you, also cracked your sister’s skull that night. She lay there all night with her brain bleeding. It was only a miracle that she lived after a long time in the hospital. That night destroyed your family. Your sister later thought Tim killed himself, but your mother lied about that. Then she left to join Tim, as I said, leaving your sister all alone. It seems that Vincenzo apparently thought he was taking you to a good situation, where you would be taken care of. He knew nothing about Desiree. So I think, at least in his mind, that you were the winner of the rhyme and your sister was the loser.”
Blum looked over at Mercy to find her glowering at her.
“I wasn’t a winner in any way, shape, or form.”
Blum said hastily, “Of course you weren’t. I’m only saying that Vincenzo meant to kill your sister, not you.”
Mercy settled back in her seat and glanced out the window.
Blum said, “And, unlike you, Agent Pine has very firm memories of you. She’s lived with that loss for the last thirty years.”
Mercy said in a far calmer tone, “Desiree managed to beat those memories out of me. I remember snatches here and there. The name Lee. The fact that somebody else was there, you know?”
“Yes, I can understand that.”
“But it’s not the same as having memories. It’s just shit in your head you can’t make sense of. Like somebody gave you a book to read but first smeared all the words so badly that you can only make a couple out. It’s... a hard thing to live with, knowing it’s there somewhere, but never being able to find it.” She looked over at Blum. “Sorry if how I talk doesn’t measure up. You said your boss went to college and everything. I may sound dumb, but I’m mostly not. I read a lot. Books got me through a bunch’a shit.”
“You sound just fine to me. And I think given what happened to you, it’s a miracle you’re even alive.”
“I don’t give up. I never have. You hurt me, I just try harder.”
“That is exactly who your sister is.”
Mercy nodded but didn’t comment.
“And Desiree?” asked Blum nervously.
Mercy didn’t answer right away. “I won’t lay a hand on her.”
“And why is that?”
“Because you’re right. I don’t want to lose, especially to that bitch.” A moment of quiet passed and then she added, “And maybe I’d like a shot at meeting my sister. Alive.”
Chapter 49
Mercy followed Blum, who was trailing Deputy Tate Callum down the hall toward the cell holding Desiree Atkins. And she was sweating. For two reasons. First, she was in a jail surrounded by cops; that was bad enough. She’d been in jail on the other side of the bars, and this was bringing back all those memories. Second, she was about to see the woman who had tortured and then very nearly killed her a long time ago. She knew which was worse: the flesh-and-blood woman easily won over the steel bars.
Callum glanced at Blum. “And where is Agent Pine today?”
“Tied up. She just wanted me to follow up on a few questions. Agent Cain here is assisting us.”
They had come up with that story on the way over.
Callum eyed Mercy. “So, you work undercover, Agent Cain?”
Mercy smiled, ran a hand over her scalp, and touched her stained sweatshirt. “What was your first clue? Other than the fact that I don’t have my badge with me?”
He laughed. “Right. Boy, they grow the ladies tall at the Bureau, don’t they?”
They reached the cell door and Callum opened it and ushered them through. “Just let the jailer know when you’re done.” He closed the door behind them and headed back down the hall.
Desiree turned and saw Mercy. “Holy shit!”
Mercy said nothing. She just stared down at the woman.
Desiree backed up against the wall. “Don’t you dare come near me.” She glared at Blum. “What the hell do you think you’re doing bringing this psycho here?”
“I thought it was high time you two were finally reunited.” Blum failed to hide a smile.
Mercy looked around and then sat down on the lower bunk. “Nice, clean digs, Desiree. You should be able to make do in a place like this for, what, the rest of your shitty life?”
“They’ve got nothing on me. You just wait until I get myself a lawyer.”
“Heard you pulled the same crap with another girl like you did with me. Sounds like she got away from you a lot faster than I did. You must be losing your touch.”
“Shut up!”
“It’s a wonder I was ever scared of you. I mean, you look like a plump little mouse ready to be eaten. And I can eat a lot.”
“I scared you well enough back then.”
“Not that hard to do with a six-year-old. A lot harder to do with a sixteen-year-old. And damn impossible to do right now.”
Desiree shook her head. “You’re full of it! You had no idea who you were dealing with.”
“The harder you tried to hurt me, the farther inside my head I went. Then your little fantasy fell apart and you left me alone. So guess who won the head game?”
“You think I care about any of this?”
Mercy smiled broadly. “I’ll testify at your trial. I can be exhibits A to Z on your being a sadistic bitch.” She looked over at Blum. “And now this lady wants to ask you some questions.”
“Go to hell.”
“That’s not very nice,” said Mercy.
Blum interjected, “If you help us, Desiree, maybe we can help you.”
“How?”
“The police know you were running a drug operation. They want to know who you were working with. If you can tell them that, they can work a deal on your sentencing.”