Hi Sterlings!
Hope some or all of you will be in town again soon so I can buy you lunch. Meanwhile maybe you should treat yourselves to an answering machine – I've been trying to call you for a few days. Ellen, if you've got any ideas for the Boy Who Caught The Snow-flakes promo, could you let me have whatever you want me to see? Ben, if you can tell me what your next book will be about I'll make an offer for the next two. We don't want you getting away from Ember just when you're about to be mega!
Kiss the kids for me and tell them lots of stories.
Love,
Kerys.
"Phew," Ellen said. She prepared dinner, feeling rather dazed, straying back now and then to the desk to reread the letters, and then she made herself sit down and write an encouraging response to Melanie Tilliger before she set about sketching ideas to send Kerys. An hour later the ideas were breeding, and she hadn't had time to sketch them all when she had to dash out to collect the children from school.
Johnny was even more impressed by her receiving fan mail than by the books themselves, and Margaret asked if she could write her own letter to the girl. "Do something sensible while I finish off some work," Ellen told them.
They tried, bless them. Johnny watched television with the sound turned low while Margaret wrote to Melanie Tilliger. When he tired of cartoons in which the characters lacked the energy to move their faces and their bodies simultaneously, Johnny read for a while and then wandered into the kitchen, wanting to draw. Soon Ellen had to sort out a squabble over pencils, after which the children began to accuse each other of increasingly heinous peccadilloes. She was ordering a few minutes' peace as Ben came home.
He seemed oddly amused by the uproar. "Shush, now," he said to the children, and "Well" to each of the letters. When he left it at that she demanded "Are you going to let me into the secret?"
"Tell you when you're older," he said, and gave her a kiss in case she thumped him. "When the rest of us are in bed," he added for only Ellen to hear.
She hustled him into the front room as soon as the children were tucked up. "So?"
"I was thinking that we'll have so many rooms we might want to use a few more of them."
"Go on."
"Well, if we lived here and used my aunt's house for an office we'd have all the peace we needed for working."
"That's silly and moreover it's wasteful."
"I suppose it is when we've another house that's the size of them both put together. We could sell this one or my aunt's and let the other in case we wanted to come back."
"You've been thinking this over."
"Do you blame me?"
"Of course not. I'm glad you feel that way. I wasn't sure how going home had affected you."
"It isn't only me. The children were asking me again this morning if we could."
"I wonder if they realise how much change would be involved, leaving their school and all their friends."
"They insist they don't mind. They seem to think it would be an adventure."
"What sort of job could you find up there? I didn't notice many opportunities on offer."
"I was wondering if it isn't time for us to take the chance we've been working for."
"Write and paint full-time, you mean."
"That's still what you want, isn't it? Otherwise you won't hear another word from me about anything I've said. It's been a few years since that anniversary when we raised our glasses to the day when we could devote our lives to being the people we really are."
She knew how much it meant to him – even more than it meant to her. His proposal semed to solve so many problems that she was instinctively suspicious of it. "Give me time to consider," she said, and was touched by the way he immediately went to the desk to work on their next book: he reminded her of a child finding himself a task to distract himself from some almost uncontainable eagerness. After an hour or so he reappeared. "I'm just going out to get some night air."
He closed the front door gently behind him, letting in a cold wind which rustled papers on the desk. She listened to his footsteps being carried away by the wind, and felt as if her indecision was making him restless. When he returned, his eyes glittering with chill, she told him "I want to go up to Stargrave first for another look."
SEVENTEEN
Two days later Ellen drove to Stargrave, out of a dawn like a great fire of Norwich. Whenever she reached a clear stretch of motorway she found herself composing responses to Sid Peacock. Dear Mr Peacock, While I appreciate your invitation to be aggressive I think you might prefer me not to be… Dear Sidney, Given your skilful choice of words I don't think you really need my assistance… Dear Sid, Thank you for making it clear in your letter that you're as gallant as ever… Dear Peacock, Up your tail… She mustn't start thinking as though everything was resolved, she told herself. She was going to Stargrave to see what needed to be done to the house.
Once she was past the villages beyond Leeds she tried not to enjoy the landscape too much. As the road soared up through a multitude of clumps of moist bright grass under a piebald sky, the car started a moorhen out of the heather. The flight of the bird drew her gaze to the first crags, dark masses of gnarled stone which neither the weather nor the vegetation could overcome and which made her feel as if the landscape was baring its soul to her. She drove for half an hour without meeting another vehicle, and was quite glad when she saw the railway bridge ahead. Feeling solitary was fine, except that she had the family to think of.
"Having a rest from the family?" the receptionist at the Station Hotel said, and showed Ellen to a small room at the front of the building. The lift was still out of order. "Better than a three-mile hike, this place," the receptionist panted as she unlocked Ellen's room.
Ellen freshened up after the drive and headed for the estate agent's, where Henry Tovey exhibited his scrubbed smile for her. "Still no offers?" she said.
"Some folk from out of town said they'd be letting us know.
You'll have noticed that in general our local homeowners prefer more compact properties. But I'll guarantee that Elgin's can make it more attractive."
She and Ben had asked him to recommend a builder, and now he took her to the yard. It was diagonally opposite the school, between the two loops, Church Road and The Crescent. As Tovey opened the wicket in the wooden gate, a woman surrounded by children imploring "Mrs Venable" gave Ellen a smile as she crossed Church Road to the schoolyard, where she all but vanished in a crowd of children. Of course, she and her husband had been the only other diners at the hotel when the Sterlings had stayed there. "She's the headmistress," Tovey said as he let Ellen through the gate.
A bulky man in overalls and a black wool cap slammed the bonnet of the only van in the cobbled yard and came to greet them, wiping his hands on a rag which he stuffed in his pocket. His wide ruddy face and swaying gait made her think of a sailor who'd lost the sea. "Stan Elgin," he said and shook her hand fastidiously, using one large finger and thumb. "I'll look after her, Henry. I've put a sheet in the van."