Liz took another sip of wine and then set her glass to the side.
“I can’t afford any more of this, either,” she said. “I’ve got too much going on this afternoon.” She sighed.
“Do you like this work?” Alan asked.
“I do…” she said. It sounded like the beginning to a longer sentence, but she didn’t complete the thought.
“It’s a far cry from what you were doing in Virginia.”
Liz grunted and took another bite of her lasagna. She turned away from Alan as she chewed. He saw her hand. After she lifted the fork to her mouth, her hand paused at the corner of her eye.
“Liz, you don’t have to do this if you don’t like it. You can find other work. We’ll figure out a way to get by. I can get a job, or I can try to get a real book deal of my own.”
She didn’t answer. She looked down at her plate and used her fork to push aside the big noodles. She abandoned her fork and used her fingers to pick a roasted red pepper from the pasta.
“Liz,” Alan said.
She took a deep breath.
“No,” she said. “I like it. It’s a stepping stone. I’ll just keep stepping.”
“You don’t have to be miserable for the benefit of me or Joe or anyone. We should share the burden.”
“This was my decision, Alan. You warned me. This all just came sooner than I expected. I built up so much potential energy but I wanted to convert more of it to kinetic energy. Don’t worry, I’ll get over it. This is just a nine to five.”
A tear finally escaped her eye and rolled down her cheek. She dabbed at her face with the cuff of her shirt. Alan rested his plate on his legs and waited. He was just as passionate about his job as she was with hers, but his was a solo effort. He went where his camera took him, and was lucky enough to take the photos that people wanted to buy. Even on assignment, he was a free agent. Alan never negotiated office politics. He never had to curry favor.
“These people are different,” she said. “I took initiative last week and I had a lunch with the president of Maple View Realty and his lawyer. Just a lunch. You know what my boss said?”
“What?”
“He said, ‘We don’t do that here.’ Like I overstepped. I had Jason Lunder there at the lunch—he’s their lawyer. Like I would really try to steal their business with their lawyer right there.”
“So what was he talking about?”
“Who, my boss? I have no idea. It’s like he was accusing me of trying to pull a fast one. Big city cut-throat techniques don’t play up here in rural Maine, you know?”
“Maybe he thought you were trying to jump ship?”
“No, it’s this fucked up sense of propriety they have up here. It’s mixed with a weird self-loathing. They’re so afraid that the locals will think of them of sharks that they’re afraid to go out and seek business. I’m not trying to be an ambulance chaser, but it’s okay to let prospective clients know that you’ll offer them better service than they’re currently getting.”
“And that’s what you were doing with Maple View Realty?”
“No, that’s the stupid thing,” she said. “I was just networking. You know how real estate works.”
“Not really,” Alan slipped in.
Liz kept going. “They do a lot of boilerplate stuff. There are billable hours there that require almost no work and expect almost no expertise. The only thing that gets you in the door is just knowing the right people. You want to be the card they hand to the other party at the table. Then you just come in and collect a small fee for almost zero work. Minh would do most of it—it’s just photocopying and putting little signature stickers in the right spot. We already do a lot of it. I just don’t see any of those hours because I don’t know anyone. I try to go out and make one connection and my boss wants to shut me down. It’s unreasonable.”
“There has to be an acceptable way to network,” Alan said.
“They just know each other because they all went to the same shitty law schools.”
“Did you save room for dessert?”
“Yes. A quick one though. I have to write up some stuff for this afternoon.”
“Fair enough,” Alan said. He took her plate and stacked it with his own. He put both in a plastic bag and then pulled out fresh plates for the pie. She smiled as he handed her a small slice of apple pie.
“Homemade?”
“With the apples we picked,” Alan said.
“The ones Joe picked, I hope.”
Alan laughed.
“This was so nice,” she said. “I can’t wait to see what you bring me tomorrow.”
“Back to twigs and sand tomorrow, I’m afraid. I can’t have you ballooning up. I need my breadwinner to be easy on the eye.”
“I’d fit in better if I put on about forty pounds on my ass, don’t you think?”
“You’re used to looking at these downtown butts, darling,” Alan said. “There are some fine, toned rumps amongst the moms. The parent-teacher conferences are like MILF conventions.”
“You really know how to make your lady feel special, you know that?” Liz asked.
“I do my best.”
The process was exhausting. Alan went up to the attic, wrestled the window open, set aside the screened vent, and dropped a rope to the ground. Back on the ground, he tied a bale of insulation to the rope. Up in the attic, he raised the bale and pulled it through the window. He was going to have to repeat the process five more times to get all the insulation upstairs.
Alan pulled the rocking chair away from the other window and sat down. The caned seat was busted out in the center, but the sides supported his weight. Alan used his tape to measure the seat—he had a piece of plywood that would serve as a temporary seat for the chair.
Alan rocked. Despite the seat, the chair was comfortable.
After a few minutes, he got back to work.
At one point in the house’s history, the ventilation in the attic would have made perfect sense. You wanted to keep the underside of a shingled roof as cold as the top side, so the snow wouldn’t melt and form ice dams at the eaves. Now that the house had a metal roof, there really wasn’t much point. Alan could insulate and heat the space without concern for ice.
Once he’d hoisted all the insulation up to the space, it was clear he hadn’t bought enough. It didn’t matter. As long as he started the project, he could muscle through Liz’s objections and bring up more insulation later. He cut the plastic from one of the bales and pulled on rubber gloves before handing the itchy pink stuff. It was fun helping Bob work on his house, but there was nothing more satisfying to Alan than improving his own house. He could barely wait for the relatives to come and go so he could enjoy more latitude with his projects.
Each compressed length of insulation was about eight feet long and built to fit in the space between rafters. Alan bought the wide stuff. He held one of the batts up to the gap and exhaled.
“Shit,” he said. The insulation was a few inches wider than the space. He moved down to the next space and discovered that it was even smaller. With his tape, he confirmed his fear. The big hand-cut rafters of the ancient building were spaced unevenly.
“You’ve got to be kidding me,” he said, looking at his tape. “I’m going to have to custom-fit each piece.”
Alan backed up and lowered himself towards the rocker. He landed with his ass on the attic floor.
“What the hell?” he asked the attic.
Alan looked around. The chair was back near the window.
“Joe?” Alan called. He pulled out his phone to check the time. Joe wouldn’t be home for another twenty minutes. Alan set down his measuring tape and walked over to the chair. He picked it up and set it down firmly in the center of the attic. He couldn’t remember putting it back at the window, but he figured he must have moved it when he was unbundling the insulation.