"Easy to say, hard to know." CinCin spoke up now. "How can you be so sure it's a message from Lord Jack? The pigs might be behind it, Mary. When you go there tomorrow, you could be walking into a trap."
"I don't want to hear it!" Mary said. "I've got my baby now, and I'm taking him to Jack! Everything's going to be cool!"
Akitta bent his dead face toward her, his eyes as white as river stones. "You'd better watch your back, sister. You don't know for sure who sent that message. You sure as hell better watch your back."
"Yeah." Janette walked across the room to straighten a crooked picture on the wall. She left a dark trail on the brown carpet. "Pigs might be watching you right now, Mary. They might be setting up shop for you. Do you think you'd like prison?"
"No."
"Me neither. I'd rather be dead than in the slammer." She got the picture how she wanted it; Janette had always been tidy. "What are you going to do about the baby?"
"I'm going to give him to Jack."
"No, no," CinCin said. "What are you going to do about the baby if the pigs are waiting for you?"
"They won't be."
"Ah." CinCin gave a ghastly smile. "But let's say they will be, Mary. Let's say you fucked up somewhere, and the pigs squeak out of the woodwork tomorrow. You're going in loaded, aren't you?"
"Yes." She would be armed with the purse-size Magnum.
"So if the pigs are there waiting for you, and there's no way out, what are you going to do?"
"I… don't know… what -"
"Sure you do," Akitta said. "You're not going to let the pigs take you alive, are you? They'd throw you in a deep hole, Mary. They'd take the baby from you and give him to some piece of shit who doesn't deserve a child. You know her name: Laura."
"Yes. Laura." Mary nodded. She'd seen the newscasts and read about it in the paper. A picture of the woman had been in Time last week, next to an old snapshot of herself taken on a day the Storm Fronters played Frisbee at Berkeley.
"Drummer's your baby now," Janette said. "You're not going to give him up, are you?"
"No."
"So what are you going to do if the pigs are there?" CinCin repeated. "And there's no way out?"
"I'm… going to -"
"Shoot the baby first," CinCin told her. "Then take as many pigs with you as you can. Does that sound reasonable?"
"Yes," Mary agreed. "Reasonable."
"They've got all sorts of new weapons and shit now," Akitta said. "You'll have to kill the baby quick. No hesitation."
"No hesitation," Mary echoed.
"Then you can come join us." When Janette grinned, her dried-up husk of a face cracked at the jaw hinges. "We get high and party."
"I've got to find Jack." Mary could see her words in the air, they floated away from her, outlined in pale blue, like whorls of smoke. "Got to find Jack and give him our baby."
"We'll be with you," CinCin promised. "Brothers and sisters in spirit, like always."
"Like always," Mary said.
CinCin, Akitta, and Janette began to break apart. It was a silent breaking, a coming apart of the glue that held their bones together. Mary watched them fall to pieces with the same interest with which she might watch a mildly entertaining TV program. Out of their dissolving bodies came a gray mist shot through with streaks of blue, and this mist roiled toward Mary Terror. She felt it, cold on her lips and nostrils like San Francisco fog. It entered her through her nose and mouth, and froze her throat on its way down. She smelled a commingling of odors: strawberry incense, gravemold, and gunsmoke.
The television screen had healed itself. Another movie was on, this one a black-and-white film. Plan Nine from Outer Space, Tor and Vampira. Mary Terror closed her eyes and saw the weeping lady in her mind, torch uplifted over the dirty harbor. The lady had been weeping for a long time, her feet trapped in the concrete of the Mindfuck State, but she had never shown her tears before. The Storm Front had planned to show her tears to the world on that July Fourth in 1972. They had planned to kidnap five executives from Manhattan-based corporations and hold the weeping lady by force until the pigs could arrange television cameras for a live hookup, a million dollars in cash, and a jet plane to take them to Canada. It had never happened. The first of July had happened, but not the Fourth.
It was the eighteenth by now, Mary realized. Lord Jack would be waiting for her at two o'clock in the afternoon.
But if he wasn't there, what was she going to do?
Mary smiled grimly in her purple haze. That was CinCin talking.
But what if the pigs are there?
Shoot the baby first. Then take as many pigs with you as you can.
Reasonable.
Mary opened her eyes and stood up on mile-long legs. She was a walking heartbeat, the roar of blood through her veins like the noise of the freight-hauling trucks. She went into the room where Drummer was sleeping, and she sat on the bed and looked at him. She watched a frown pass over his face: a storm in babyland. Drummer sucked busily on the pacifier, and peace came to his face again. Lately he'd been waking up at three or four in the morning wanting to be fed. Mary was getting efficient at feeding him and changing his diapers. Motherhood suited her, she'd decided.
She could kill him if she had to. She knew she could. And then she would keep shooting until the pigs cut her down and she would join Drummer and her brothers and sisters in a place where the love generation had never died.
Mary lay down on the bed beside Drummer, close enough to feel his heat. She loved him more than anything in the world, because he was hers.
If they had to leave this world together, so be it.
Karma. That was the way things worked.
Mary drifted off to sleep, the acid slowing her pulse. Her last thought was of Lord Jack, bright with beauty in the winter sun, as he accepted the gift she had brought him.
6: A Real Popular Lady
Ten hours before Mary Terror's converstation with the dead, Laura rang the doorbell of a red brick house four miles west of Ann Arbor, Michigan. It was a sunny day, huge white clouds moving slowly across the sky, but the air was bitterly cold. Mark had his hands buried in his fleece-lined jacket, and puffs of breath plumed from his mouth. Laura and Mark had left Chattanooga on Friday morning, had driven to Dayton, Ohio, and spent Friday night there before continuing the rest of the way. They had driven through the sprawling University of Michigan, once a hotbed of student dissent in the late sixties and early seventies, and now better known for its Wolverines.
The door opened. An elderly man with a pleasant, leathery face and sun freckles on his scalp peered out. "Yes?"
"Hello." Laura offered a tight smile. "We're trying to find Diane Daniells. Do you know where she might be?"
He took a long look at her, another long look at Mark, and then he squinted toward the other side of the road, up at the stone cottage surrounded by oaks and elms at the end of a long dirt driveway. "Diane's not at home," he told her.
"We know. We were wondering if you had any idea where she is." This house and the one belonging to Diane Daniells – once known as Bedelia Morse – were the only ones on this stretch of road.
"Gone on a trip," he said. "Not sure where."
"When did she leave?" Mark asked.
"Oh, Thursday afternoon, I suppose it was. Said she was goin' north, if that's any help."
Laura had a knot in her throat, and she had to struggle to clear it. Being so close to where Bedelia Morse lived and being unable to find her was pure torture. "Did she say when she might be back?"
"Weekend trip, she said. You folks friends of Diane's?"
"I'm an old friend," Mark answered.
"Well, I'm sorry you missed her. If it's any help to you, I think she's gone birdin'."
"Birding?" Laura asked.