Abbas licked the bottom of the bowl. Mergan took the empty bowl and the leftover bread. Abrau rose to set out his bedding. Mergan and Molla Aman also set out their beds and lowered the wick of the lamp. Eventually, everyone was lying down but Mergan, who was still sitting. Her brother was leaning his head against the wall and smoking a cigarette. As soon as he was finished smoking, he went to sleep. Abrau began snoring.
And Abbas? Abbas was somewhere between sleep and consciousness. He was lying down quietly. He could have either been asleep or awake. Like every night, he was lying with his eyes fixed at the ceiling. Actually, he hardly slept at night. Near dawn, he’d finally fall asleep, until his hunger would wake him in the morning. When the sunlight poured onto his hands and feet, he would wake up and limp awkwardly out the door to wash up. Then he’d come back and sit in his place quietly as he always did, just in the corner of the room. Hajer or Mergan would bring him a piece of bread and a cup of tea, which he would eat without moving. He would, on occasion, leave the room and go out to the old clay oven in the yard — to the same spot that Soluch used to occupy. He would sit there, hugging his knees. He would rarely speak. If he did say a word or two, he’d do so listlessly, dispassionately. His voice had a strange quality, like a dog’s yelp, as if his vocal cords had been stripped apart. His face had also changed, and it was now marked with a peculiar effeminacy. One couldn’t imagine his being able to grow a beard now. It seemed as if the soft hairs once on his face had been burned off. In short, Abbas had been completely transformed.
Mergan remained seated in her place. Her eyes were dry in her gaunt face. Her head was full of voices, and her heart was uneasy. She was anxious. Her limbs and body felt out of her control, and without even realizing it, her eyes were fixed on the door. Her lips were moving, perhaps in prayer, perhaps as part of a dialogue with herself. Whatever the reason, she was not about to fall asleep. She couldn’t even keep her head on her pillow.
How can you think of sleeping with an easy heart? You’ve just sent your daughter to her nuptial bed.
Shrieks filled the air, like a spear that penetrated the heart of the night. Hajer’s terrified voice echoed in the alleys of Zaminej.
* * *
“Mama … Mama, no … Help me!”
Mergan dashed into the alley. Hajer was gripping onto her pants as she rushed down the alley, like a field mouse escaping from a hawk. Ali Genav was running after her. He was running as he tied the waistband of his pants. Hajer hid in her mother’s arms, losing herself in her mother’s embrace. It was as if Mergan were holding onto the wind. Tears, crying; her broken sobs were cut through with a deep sense of fear. Intermittent cries sounded out by the girl’s thin voice. She was shirtless, with her bare feet and her uncovered head. Ali Genav arrived. Mergan pulled her daughter to the edge of the wall. Genav entered the house. As quick as a shooting star, he’d woken up Molla Aman and Abrau. Molla Aman left the house shoeless and without a head covering. Abrau stood in the doorway. Hajer tore herself from her mother and dashed into the house and into the pantry. No one spoke; no one could speak. Ali Genav was frothing at the mouth. Molla Aman went over to him. Mergan entered the room, as Abrau asked, “What’s happened?” Mergan knew what had happened. Abbas was sitting in his place. Mergan went into the pantry, and Hajer began to scream.
“Mama, I’m scared! I’m so scared! I’m going to die! Who did you marry me to? Who is this? Why did you give me to him? Why? Mama, I’m scared!”
Mergan held her daughter’s head against her chest. She had to say something. She had to console her. But what could she say? What was there to say? Was she supposed to say something like, “I’ll die for you, my love!” But Mergan couldn’t find it in her to say anything. At times, the mind simply freezes.
Molla Aman pulled back the curtain to the pantry.
“Come on out, girl. Come and go back to your husband’s house.”
Ali Genav waited no longer. He stepped around Molla Aman’s broken shoulders and into the pantry. He took ahold of Hajer’s wrist and began pulling her out. Hajer held onto her mother and would not let go. Mergan also held to her, and she was pulled out from the pantry with her. Hajer dragged one heel on the ground shouting, “I don’t want to, by God! I don’t want to! I don’t want to marry … Oh, God!”
She began to lose her breath. Her face was darkening from screaming. Ali Genav didn’t want to let the scandal continue. He began to pull Hajer harder and he dragged Mergan along with her daughter. At the door, Abrau leapt onto Ali Genav’s arm.
“Hold on! What do you think you’re doing? Is she your prisoner?”
Molla Aman pulled his nephew off Ali Genav and pushed him to one side.
“Don’t interfere, you! He’s taking his wife to his home!”
Abrau pulled himself up in front of his uncle.
“What are you talking about? She’s my sister!”
Molla Aman responded to Abrau by hitting Hajer’s neck with his closed fist.
“C’mon, get ahold of yourself and go back to your house, you troublemaking girl! C’mon!”
Somehow, he peeled Hajer off of Mergan, grabbed her under his arm, and tossed her out of the house. Hajer dashed toward the clay oven and then made a quick dash toward the wall. She was about to pull herself up onto the roof when Ali Genav reached her and grabbed her from behind. Hajer began to shriek again, kicking and bucking. Ali Genav covered the girl’s mouth with the palm of one broad, rough hand and set his path toward the alley.
“I’ve had enough of playing! You want to cause a scene? Shut up and be quiet, you!”
Hajer’s voice was muffled by Ali Genav’s palm. But she continued to kick and squirm. Molla Aman peeked over the wall and saw something that looked like a one-winged bird being dragged in the dirt alongside Ali Genav. Hajer was now silenced. Raghiyeh arrived, looking lost while navigating on her crutch. Molla Aman returned into the house. Mergan, who had been left holding her daughter’s twisted pants, ran outside with them stuffed under one arm. She reached Ali Genav and put a hand on his shoulder.
“Ali, my dear! Ali, let me bring her to you myself. I’ll bring her, Ali dear! But let her breathe! Don’t smother her, Ali!”
Ali Genav didn’t pause a moment. He kept dragging Hajer along, like a lion that has taken a lamb from its mother. Mergan had no choice but to return. But how could she? Helpless, she walked behind him, begging.
“Ali dear … Ali dear … I’d sacrifice myself for you … Just have mercy on my daughter … Have mercy … Ali dear!”
He didn’t bother to respond to Mergan. He entered his house and shut the door behind himself. Mergan waited at the door. She was still holding the pants. She sat down, and Raghiyeh approached her. She also waited, and then sat down facing Mergan. She leaned against a wall and stretched out her broken leg. Mergan took her head into her hands and her body began shaking by itself in a gentle motion, moving from one side to another.
“Oh, my Lord. Oh, my Lord!”
Then a sudden scream. Not simply a scream, an electric bolt of a shriek. A cry that was extinguished. Hajer must be unconscious now!
Like someone struck by lightning, Mergan leapt to her feet, frozen. How long? She couldn’t tell. Then suddenly she transformed her hands into fists and began raining blows upon her own head, and then began hitting her head against the door, over and over.
“You’ve killed her! You’ve killed her! Murderer! You’ve killed my daughter!”
The sound of voices rose from the homes of the neighbors. The voice of a woman, perhaps of Moslemeh: “You brought your misery on yourself, Mergan!”