“The thing is,” she had whispered, shamed by the tremor in her voice, “I’ve never … you know.”
Lilith gave her a closer look. “You a virgin”
Was there empathy in the question “I’m fifteen,” Ally said, thinking perhaps a connection had been made.
“Fifteen,” Lilith echoed. “That’s only two years younger than me.” Her face turned hard, any illusion of tenderness instantly erased. “So what’s your problem, baby You frigid or something”
Ally looked away, her last hope crushed. “I’m just not ready,” she murmured.
Lilith mimicked her with cutting accuracy. “I’m just not ready.”
Tyler produced a heartless chuckle as he knotted the binding.
“Cain had me when I was thirteen,” Lilith added. “Practically busted me open, he was so frigging big. Hurt like hell.” A delicious shiver racked her. “Sister, you don’t know what you missed out on.”
Tyler had pushed her into a chair and tied her wrists to the armrest, winding additional strips around the vertical arm support.
“What are you going to do to me” Ally asked desolately as the two of them departed.
Tyler paused in the doorway, a wide grin cracking his face. “Let’s just say this ain’t exactly ladies’ night.”
Then he and Lilith had strolled down the hall, toward the sound of wreckage in the living room. Not long afterward her father had been marched past, the door pulled shut before she could do more than call out to him.
She couldn’t guess what they wanted from her dad. But their intentions toward her she understood fully.
She was to be killed. It was the only explanation for why Tyler and Lilith hadn’t worn masks, why they’d spoken so freely. To them she was dead already.
Staring at the closed door, waiting for Cain’s heavy footsteps. Ally thought about her future, the future she wasn’t going to have.
It had seemed so clear and tangible, more real than everyday life. Three more years, and she would be in college-someplace far away, maybe New England-far from the brooding tension and explosive outbursts of the Kent household.
Things would make sense in college. She’d been quietly certain of it. Nothing made sense here, not anymore. Her mom would be smiling one minute, in tears the next. And through her tears she would insist everything was fine, while her dad’s mouth worked soundlessly and his left eyelid twitched.
The hostility between them, so chronic yet for the most part so carefully suppressed, was more unsettling than violent fights would have been. She had often wished they could just get it out in the open, talk to each other, instead of simmering in this hothouse of mistrust and hate.
It got to her sometimes. Like at the Carltons’ Christmas party, when her folks kept needling each other with sharp, hurtful barbs, smiling sarcasm, cutting wit, until finally she couldn’t take it any longer and she yelled at them to stop it, just stop it, stop it, stop it, and of course the party had frozen, everybody staring, her parents mortified, and the long, silent ride home-God, what a joy that had been….
Oh, yes, it was great fun growing up rich and spoiled in the Kent household.
College, though, would be her sanctuary. She would study anthropology, her chosen field. Hearing of her ambition, people always assumed she hoped to become the next Margaret Mead. Ally thought Mead had been a sentimental fraud, romanticizing life in Samoa. That wasn’t the kind of anthropologist she intended to be. No lies for her, no cover-ups, no smiling through tears.
She would do field work, teach, write books, make documentary films, run a museum. Okay, realistically she might not be able to do all of that, but pieces of it were possible.
Or had been. Now nothing was possible, and her future had turned out to be only another lie.
For some reason she thought of Officer Robinson, remembering her in the moment when her eyes-amazing eyes, electric blue, their hue distinct even from across the room-had been focused on the gun in Cain’s hand.
Cain hadn’t shot her. He’d drowned her in the lake.
But on Ally he would use the gun. She’d seen him lightly touch the holster while saying, “I’ll do the honors.”
He would point the pistol at her, maybe put it in her ear or her mouth, and squeeze the trigger-perhaps one instant of unbearable pain, then nothing-and she would be as dead as Officer Robinson, as dead as her best hopes.
Damn. She wished she’d let Cain rape her. Wished she’d shut her eyes and just let him stick it in her. Anything was better than being dead at fifteen.
Don’t cry, she told herself. Not again. But she couldn’t help it.
She must have cried in the delivery room, when she was spanked into this world, and she would cry now as she was ushered out.
29
Staying low, Trish crept around the gazebo, past a thicket of olive trees.
A flagstone walkway, lined on both sides by three-foot hedges of fragrant lavender, slanted diagonally toward the patio. Head down, knees bent, she followed the path, using one row of bushes for cover.
Chills crawled over her skin. Fear Maybe just cold. She was still wet all over, her hair plastered to her forehead, her underpants groping her like clammy fingers.
On the patio now. To her right, a canvas porch swing and a scatter of redwood lawn furniture. To her left, the open door.
The tinkle of wind chimes covered the squish of her shoes as she crossed the patio to the whitewashed stucco wall.
Fast along the wall to the door frame. She took a breath, then spun inside, assuming the Weaver stance.
Nobody was there.
Into a hallway, narrow and bare. A glow from the rooms ahead guided her as she crabbed forward, her gun held close to her chest. The steel cuffs glinted faintly below the spots of dried blood on her knuckles and the bruises swelling her wrists.
From the front of the house came rare, desultory noises of destruction-shattered glass and slashed fabric. Someone was trashing the place but doing it in a strangely half-hearted way.
As the dining area and the living room came into view, she saw the extent of the wreckage in the weird patchy light of the one remaining lamp. Nearly everything breakable was in pieces.
Two of the killers, their backs to her, were methodically sweeping glazed earthenware pitchers and crystal vases from the glass-and-steel divider.
Both had taken off their masks. One was the woman, the other a blond ponytailed man.
At the intersection of the rear hall and the east wing she paused. The kitchen lay behind the wall to her right. To get inside, she would have to pass through the dining area.
A major risk. At any moment the killers might turn. But she had no choice.
Now.
Balancing speed with silence, she pivoted through the kitchen doorway and ducked behind the wall.
They hadn’t seen or heard her. The carpet’s thick pile had muffled her steps.
She looked toward the west end of the house. Past a laundry nook was a side door. She could exit that way.
First the keys. She holstered the Glock to free her hands. After a rapid inspection of the key rings, she chose the most complete set, cramming it deep in her pants pocket.
Got it. All right, get going, move.
She almost stepped away from the noteboard but hesitated, her gaze drawn to the phone on the wall. For a bewildered moment she had no idea why she was looking at it. Impossible to call from inside the house; the risk of being overheard was too great.
But this phone was cordless. It could be operated anywhere within range of the base unit-even in the backyard.
She might not need a boat after all.
Heart pumping, she lifted the handset and wedged it under her gun belt, hard against her hip.