"An easy road, for we've nowhere else we need to be," Pony answered. "Just as I prefer."
Roger's expression was curious for just a moment, but his smile soon returned. " No one built upon the foundation of the old Howling Sheila," he explained. "We knew that you'd return."
"Olwan Wyndon put down that foundation," Pony answered, her voice somber. How well she remembered that particular place! When the monsters came to sack Dundalis, when Pony was but twelve years old, she had crawled under that foundation to escape the swords and spears and fire. She had emerged after the carnage, to find that all of the town, all of her family and all of her friends, were dead or missing. She and Elbryan alone had survived the catastrophe.
But Dundalis had been rebuilt, and that foundation had supported yet another structure, Bolster's Howling Sheila tavern.
And then Dundalis had been sacked again.
The memories showed Pony the best of human spirit, the resilience, the ability to fight on and on. Why wasn't she now feeling that way? Where was her fighting spirit, her willingness to accept the losses and rebuild everything?
Perhaps some things could not be recovered, she mused, staring at the foundation and wondering if perhaps she should not have come back to this place. Here was the legacy of the Howling Sheila, a foundation of cold stone; and out there, not so far away, was another legacy, a cairn of cold stone.
"Are you all right?" she heard Roger ask, but it seemed to her as if his words came from far, far away. "Pony?"
She felt his hands on her shoulders, and only then understood that her shoulders were trembling, and that she was clammy and weak.
Then Belster was there beside her, holding her arm to support her.
Pony reached deep inside and shook away the fit. "I should have eaten more at breakfast," she said to Belster, smiling sheepishly.
The innkeeper looked at her and politely nodded, but Pony knew, of course, that he had seen right through her little lie. Belster had come to know her so very well over the last year, and he understood the source of her distress.
"Fetch some food!" Roger called to the townsfolk. "As fine a meal as we can prepare." He started to point out a couple of men to set to the task, but Pony put her arm on his and held it low. "Later," she said.
"Nonsense," Roger argued. "We will prepare the finest-"
"Later," Pony said again, more forcefully. "I have something I must do."
"Are ye sure, girl?" Belster asked, and Pony turned back to face him, took a deep breath, and nodded.
"I'll start setting up, then," Belster said.
"Roger will help you, I am sure," Pony, who wanted to do this thing alone, replied, and she looked to Roger again and patted his arm, smiling.
Then she went to Greystone and pulled herself into the saddle. She headed out of town at a swift trot, up the north slope, then walked the horse slowly down the fairly steep incline into the pine groves and the thick white caribou moss.
When she came out the other side of that dell, she had Greystone at an eager canter, running through the forest.
"She's knowin' the woods as well as any," Bradwarden insisted when a frantic Roger came to him later on, wailing that they had to find Pony. "As well as any human might," the centaur corrected with a sly wink.
"She's been gone for hours," Roger explained.
"And I'm thinkin' that she'll be doin' many o' these little rides out alone over the next few weeks. Can ye no' guess where's she's gone to, boy, and can ye no' be figurin' why she wanted to go there alone? "
Roger looked at him curiously at first, but finally a light of recognition came over him.
"You are sure that she's all right? " he asked.
"I'd be worryin' about any monsters that might've found the girl," Bradwarden said with a hearty chuckle. "Ye gived her back her gemstones, didn't ye?"
Roger's expression spoke volumes to the perceptive centaur.
"What're ye thinkin', boy?"
"I don't have them," Roger admitted.
Now it was Bradwarden's turn to wear the confused expression. "Ye said ye did," the centaur protested. "Ye even showed 'em to me!"
"I did have them, but they're gone!" Roger tried to explain.
"Gone?"
"I had them a few days ago, but I woke up one morning to find my pouch empty."
"Ye're sayin' ye lost a clutch o' magic that could flatten a fair-sized town? " Bradwarden cried. "Ye lost a clutch o' gems that a hunnerd merchants'd willingly give over all their gold to get their hands on? "
"I had them, and then I did not," Roger insisted.
"And ye didn't think to say anythin' when the thief might still be about? " Bradwarden roared at him.
"I think I know who took them," Roger replied quietly. "Well, we'll go and have a talk with the…" The centaur stopped, catching a hint of what might be going on here. "When d'ye say ye lost the damn things?"
"Three mornings ago."
"The night after…" Bradwarden paused and shook his head. It made no sense. Juraviel? Their elven friend stole Pony's gemstones?
"Either Juraviel took them or someone else stole up the hillock that night after we had gone to sleep," Roger insisted.
Truly, Bradwarden had no answers for that. He knew well enough that no one had come up that hillock to steal from Roger. And yet, unless the man was lying, those gemstones had disappeared on that very night-the very night Belli'mar Juraviel made his hasty retreat from the region.
"It might be that them monks found a way to magically come and get the damn things," the centaur said unconvincingly, for both he and Roger knew well that if there was such a manner of retrieval, Father Abbot Markwart would surely have discovered it and used it to get the cache of stones back a long time ago.
"I don't even know what to tell Pony," Roger admitted.
"Has she asked for them? "
"No."
"Is she even knowin' that ye got the damn things? "
"I don't think so."
"Then tell her not a thing until she's askin'," Bradwarden advised. "I'm thinkin' that the girl's got enough weighin' down her heart at this time."
"More than you know," Roger replied. "I was talking with Belster earlier and he told me all that Pony walked away from in Palmaris. They offered her everything, the barony, the abbey. Everything. And she just walked away."
Bradwarden eyed the man and marked well his tone. "And ye're thinkin' she chose wrong? "
"After all we went through?" Roger replied, his frustration creeping into his voice. "After all the fighting and all the dying? After Elbryan gave his very life for a better world? And we could have that world, we-Pony could make it all worthwhile."
"I'm seein' a new side o' ye, to be sure," the centaur remarked, and that set Roger back on his heels a bit.
"I fought alongside everyone else," the man protested when he got his bearings back.
"Never said ye didn't," Bradwarden replied. "But by me own thinkin', ye was fightin' more for Roger than for any paradise in yer thoughts."
Again, the man had to pause for a bit to consider any response he might give, for Roger understood that the centaur spoke honestly and accurately. All through the early days of the war, Roger had indeed been a selfish warrior, considering every action based mostly on what fame it might bring to him. Elbryan had shown him the error of his ways, as hadJuraviel, with typical elven bluntness. Only now, however, with Bradwarden so clearly pointing it out, did Roger begin to understand the depth of the change that had come over him. Only now did he consciously recognize that Elbryan had died for a reason, for something bigger than his own life and bigger than Pony's life. And, to Roger's complete surprise, he found himself frustrated and disappointed that Pony had chosen to run away when all the city was being offered up to her, when, with a few words and a few actions, she could have made a profound change upon Palmaris, a change for the better, a change that would give meaning to their sacrifices made in battling first the demon and its minions and then the demons that had infected the Abellican Church.