This Little Flea
My acquaintance, Monsieur Keuner, had this little flea. A wonderful little chap not much bigger than a pittance with curly hair and chubby cheeks. To look at you would say just straw and stray, but so full of life and laughter. I got to know them from drinking my first cup of black coffee every morning in the same bistro they stopped at for their café crème and pain beurré on their way to school. Yes, I envied Monsieur Keuner his flea. And so I cultivated their friendship, hailed them with a bouncing bonjour, laughed with their laughing, nodded with their unimportant projects for the future of the day. Until Monsieur Keuner allowed me occasionally to accompany them part of the way, even to carry and fondle the flea. One day, a Saturday just before school, I invited them to come and see where I live. My flat was on the top floor of an old town house only a few numbers down the same street from the bistro on the corner. One entered through the big porte-cochère giving on to the roughly paved inner courtyard with at the other end the broad staircase leading up to the étages. I took them through the green-dark courtyard and at the foot of the stairs I held up the flea in my hand to explain how one climbed and climbed until one reached my front door. Yes, I was tracing all of this with the hope that the flea now laughing in my hand would perhaps remember to come visit me, who knows, all on his own. At that moment the door of the first-floor apartment opened with a black noise and Madame Gasolini appeared on the landing. Ah, the bitch! Always was one, in barren heat, quarrelling, snarling, sniping and snooping. She screamed a stream of words to the effect that she would certainly not allow any flea to enter this building, and many other imprecations. I wanted to stand my ground, should have, felt like telling her to go and have a crap in her best infertile bloomers. But didn’t. Madame Gasolini is an imposing woman with very thick lungs. I found myself back with Monsieur Keuner at the street entrance to the building and to my sudden horror realized that I must inadvertently have dropped the flea among the paving stones. I bent over here and stooped there and all to no avail. I even felt with my fingers along the crack until all at once a hairy red spider crawled out and bit me in the index. Monsieur Keuner had two silent thin eyes. The wonderful little flea was lost and just another flea by now. And yet one knew that it was piteously crying out for succour somewhere near at hand. If only one could see as far as one’s nose!
Book, a Mirror
Bientôt nous plongerons dans les froides ténèbres. .
“During this period the evenings become purple. This phenomenon should probably be ascribed to the fluctuation of seasons — change summed up in a combination of factors: the days longer and ever warmer so that more unused light is left over at the fall of evening; even when day has already died the evening initially has more light and is, apparently, reluctant to confound itself with the pillared portals of darkness; evenings thus have more of a glimmer and the transitions aren’t abrupt or clogged; the heat of the elapsed day causes a partial evaporation more visible above the horizons and the resulting condensation becomes a prism and acts as a refractor of the death-flame’s longer rays; simultaneously the earth is more powdery day by day and languishing dust clouds, as if the planet were a coach on the dusty road of space, contribute to the manifestation of staining; and the plant life and harvests, both cultivated and indigenous, have just about attained the fullness of their growth, leaves and blades are swollen with sap and the green which will fade a lighter shade as the buds burst forth and the small fruits become fruit, develop flesh and cheek and eyebrow and form around the thought-kernel of the stone, are as yet blue with greenness. All of this taken together and being gathered in a larger totality creates the effect of evenings having for a brief transitional period — between day’s sharply outlined depths and night’s approach, but also between one season and the next — a purple cape being dragged lightly over the ridges of the amphitheatre. ‘Cape’ and ‘light’ — words bringing to mind a bullfight, the ‘at five o’clock in the afternoon’, the moment of truth during the
faena, the final quites with the sword cloth, the muleta which is already impregnated with blood and the rosy froth around the nostrils of the bull being driven back, plod-hoofed now in the querencia which no longer offers any protection against the swordbright piercing of death, the eyes also of a light red colour but already glassy and less mobile, and the matador on his toes, with love and respect and arrogance, he is going to do it from the front in a recibir, he takes aim down the silver beam; it brings to mind the dark roaring of the crowd, the handkerchiefs like so many butterflies when darkness descends. But this is no treatise on bullfighting. Hemingway proclaimed: ‘The author should tell us only of that part of the external world which the consciousness of the hero perceives in the moment the two coincide.’ A symbiosis: the mutually beneficial internal relationship between two organisms of different nature. It is all very well, even though the danger exists that this statement, narrowly interpreted, may lead to a blinkered vision. Isn’t the consciousness of the outside world, the non-I, often exactly the explosion point of a boundless stream of associations breaking free in the I? Isn’t Lowry’s consul closer to reality than Hemingway’s Robert Jordan? And the true nature of the observer, that consciousness, cannot be circumscribed by the human mind since that mind knows only of objects: that which I name ‘I’ is in no sense I. With the best comprehension in the world the self remains merely a little bundle consisting of five tendencies, five skandhas or branches — form, emotions, observing faculties, characteristics and spiritual powers or discrimination, also the idea of the self among others. (There must be a new tearing: the hole-in-the-belly experience of such-ness, tathatā̄, which is the void, sunyata, empty of all imaginable things or ideas.) Besides, Hemingway is cheating. It is true that we are being made aware at a given moment, through lean and tense descriptions, of the interpenetrating and mutually complementary protagonist and surroundings, but we become especially attentive to that which is not expressed. And who is the observer? Is the mood in which we are placed or transposed by the description — better still, by the way of describing — experienced by the hero as well? Isn’t one of Hemingway’s ‘manly’ attributes really that we are seldom offered a glimpse of the hero’s way of consciousness or even his perceptions? Unless the telling is unfolding from the point of view of the first person of course, one can say a personal I. Unfolding like the cape before the nose of the snorting bull. . Or should it be argued that Hemingway, in his non-first-person stories, succeeds in creating a certain symbiosis between the invisible narrator (the absent I on the spot) and the indicated third person or hero? Are we therefore served the writer and the writer’s writing writhing in the awareness of the penned-down character? Are we led by a ring through the nose? ‘You can make an ox of the bull but he still remains a beast. . ’ But this here is not an attempt at polemics, nor an analysis nor even an approach to Papa Hemingway’s theories. It is only: a tentative description of the moth chamber which Angelo and his wife, Giovanna Cenami, so much wanted to see. (Concerning the moth chamber more extensively later on.) At the same time the viewing of the moth chamber will give them the chance to spend a few days with Gregor Samsa and Elefteria. Angelo had already developed guilt feelings concerning the companion of his youth. It is true that he had promised repeatedly to go there on a visit… True too that Angelo, pressed by his wide-ranging activities as a writer, only very seldom could find the time-space for going away a few days. And that he shrank from the idea of a trip to the highlands. The heights in more ways than one. But after the telephone conversation with Elefteria of last week a plan will just have to be made. No excuse will let him off the hook concerning his responsibilities to Gregor Samsa. For, according to Elefteria, it is not at all going well with her husband. His work, the demands made upon him — all these, it would seem, are grinding him down. Would it not be possible, Elefteria asked, for Angelo and wife to come spend a day or more with them. . ”