‘I have my methods,’ Anders replied.
‘Oh yes?’ Helena said.
‘Report her to the police,’ Geir said. ‘Then she’ll realise it’s serious.’
‘Do you mean that?’ I said.
‘Of course. If you don’t do something drastic it’ll just go on and on.’
The music stopped as abruptly as it had started. The door below slammed. Heels click-clacked on the stairs.
‘Is she going to come here?’ I said.
Everyone sat still, listening. But the footsteps passed our door and continued up the stairs. Soon after, they returned and faded as they went down. I crossed to the window and looked below. Wearing only the dress and one shoe, she staggered into the white carriageway. She waved, a taxi was approaching. It stopped and she clambered in.
‘She’s taking a taxi,’ I said. ‘Wearing one shoe. Can’t fault her for effort, anyway.’
I sat down and the conversation drifted into other areas. At around two Anders and Helena made a move to go, wrapped themselves up in their thick winter clothes, hugged us and headed off into the night, Anders with his sleeping daughter in his arms. Geir and Christina left half an hour later, Geir, after returning with a high-heeled shoe in his hand.
‘Like a second Cinderella,’ he said. ‘What shall I do with it?’
‘Leave it outside her door,’ I said. ‘And be off with you now, we need to sleep.’
When I went into the bedroom, after tidying up the living room and putting on the dishwasher, Linda was asleep. But not so soundly that she was unable to open her eyes and send me a drowsy smile as I undressed.
‘That was a nice evening, wasn’t it,’ I said.
‘Yes, it was,’ she said.
‘Did they have a good time, do you think?’ I asked, getting into bed next to her.
‘Yes, I think so. Don’t you?’
‘Yes, I really do. I enjoyed it anyway.’
The light from the street lamps cast a faint glimmer across the floor. It was never properly dark in here. And never properly quiet. Fireworks were still exploding outside, voices rose and fell in the street, cars raced by, more now that New Year’s Eve was nearing its end.
‘But I’m beginning to get seriously worried about our neighbour,’ Linda said. ‘It doesn’t feel good having her there.’
‘No,’ I said. ‘There isn’t a lot we can do though.’
‘No.’
‘Geir reckoned she was a prostitute,’ I said.
‘She is, no question about it,’ Linda said. ‘She works for one of those escort companies.’
‘How do you know that?’
‘It’s obvious.’
‘Not to me,’ I said. ‘The thought would never have crossed my mind in a million years.’
‘That’s because you’re so naïve,’ Linda said.
‘Maybe I am.’
‘You are.’
She smiled, leaned over and kissed me.
‘Goodnight,’ she said.
‘Goodnight,’ I said.
It was difficult to comprehend that actually there were three of us in bed. But there were. The baby in Linda’s belly was fully developed; all that separated us was a centimetre-thin wall of flesh and skin. The baby could be born any day now and this defined Linda’s behaviour. She no longer started anything new, barely went out, kept calm, cosseted herself and her body, took long baths and watched films on the sofa, dozed and slept. Her state was like dormancy, but her disquiet had not entirely left her. Now it was particularly my role in the drama that concerned her. On the antenatal course we had been told that the relationship between the pregnant woman and the midwife was important, and if there were any disagreements, if there was a bad atmosphere of any kind, it was important to say so as early as possible in order that another, hopefully better-suited, midwife could take over. Furthermore, we were told that the man’s role during the birth was primarily that of a communicator; he knew his wife best of all, he would understand what she wanted and, as she was otherwise engaged, he would have to be the person to pass this on to the midwife. This was where I came in. I spoke Norwegian. Would the midwives and nurses even understand what I said? And, much worse, I avoided conflict and was always considerate to everyone in any situation. Would I be able to say no to a potentially awful midwife and demand a new one, with all the hurt feelings that might entail?
‘Relax, relax, it’ll be fine,’ I responded, ‘don’t think about it, everything will sort itself out,’ but she couldn’t settle, I had become the cause of her worry. Would I even be able to ring for a taxi when the moment came?
That she had a point did not make the matter any easier. Any form of pressure knocked me out. I wanted to please everyone, but sometimes there were situations where I had to make a decision and act upon it, and then I suffered dreadful agonies, these were among my most unpleasant experiences. Now I had lived through a series of them over a short period and she had been a witness. The incident with the locked door, the boat incident, the incident with my mother. And the time when I compensated for all this by intervening in a fight one morning on the Metro didn’t do me much credit either, because what sort of judgement had I shown? And, more importantly, I knew it would be more difficult for me to show a midwife the door than to be stabbed with a knife in a Metro station.
Then, on my way home late one afternoon, putting down my laptop case and the two shopping bags to press the button on the outside lift up to Malmskillnadsgatan, I happened to glance at my phone and saw that Linda had rung eight times. As I was so close, I didn’t ring back. I waited for the lift, which was taking an eternity to come down. I turned round and met the eyes of a tramp dozing against the wall in a sleeping bag. He was thin and his face was discoloured. There was no curiosity in his gaze, but nor was it one of apathy. It just registered my presence. Filled with concern about that and the uncertainty Linda’s calls had created, I stood still in the lift as it slowly made its way up the shaft. As soon as it stopped, I tore open the door and ran along the pavement, down David Bagares gata, in the front door and up the stairs.
‘Hello?’ I called. ‘Has something happened?’
No answer.
She must have gone to the hospital under her own steam. Had she?
‘Hello?’ I called again. ‘Linda?’
I took off my boots, went into the kitchen and peeped inside the bedroom door. No one there. I realised the shopping bags were still hanging from my arms and put them on the worktop before going through the bedroom and opening the living-room door.
She was in the middle of the floor staring at me.
‘What’s up?’ I asked. ‘Has something happened?’
She didn’t answer. I went over to her.
‘What’s happened, Linda?’
Her eyes were black.
‘I haven’t felt anything all day,’ she said. ‘It feels as if there’s something wrong. I can’t feel anything.’
I put my arm around her. She wriggled away.
‘Everything’s fine,’ I said. ‘I’m sure of it.’
‘IT BLOODY WELL ISN’T FINE!’ she yelled. ‘Don’t you understand anything? Don’t you understand what has happened?’
I tried to hold her again, but she wormed away.
She started to cry.
‘Linda, Linda,’ I said.
‘Don’t you understand what’s happened?’ she repeated.
‘Everything’s fine,’ I said. ‘I’m sure of it.’
I waited for another shout. Instead she lowered her hands and looked at me with her eyes full of tears.
‘How can you be so sure?’
I didn’t reply at first. Her undeviating stare felt like an accusation.
‘What do you want us to do?’ I asked.
‘We have to go to hospital.’
‘Hospital?’ I said. ‘Everything is as it should be. Babies move less the closer you are to birth. Come on, everything’s great. It’s just…’