“My pleasure,” Hawk said, and reminded himself to smile. “Glad I happened to be in the right place at the right time.” He stopped suddenly, as if the thought had just come to him, and made one last try. “Listen, maybe you should get somebody to go with you when you take that painting in tomorrow. You know, if somebody’s crazy enough to try this…”
“Oh, no, that’s okay, I’ll be fine.” She said it hurriedly, automatically, the usual polite demurral. Then, as she thought about it, he saw her smile slip a little. “Anyway,” she added staunchly, “I’m prepared now. Forewarned is forearmed, right?”
His thought exactly. This time he didn’t give her the smile she wanted. Instead, frowning, he said, “Are you sure? I have a couple of appointments, but I can probably-”
“Oh, no-no, really.” It was firm, final. He heard it in her voice, saw it in the set of her mouth.
“Well, okay then. Be careful.” His hand was on the doorknob. He turned it and pulled. “Lock your door.”
Instead of a reply, he heard a soft, stifled sound, and turning, found that she’d crisscrossed her body with her arms and covered her mouth with one hand. Above it, the eyes that clung to his were suddenly troubled, frightened, confused. He’d never seen such tattletale eyes.
“Oh, I will” Her words came muffled through her fingers. “And I did. That’s just it. I know I locked my door when I went out. How on earth did he get in here?” She shivered.
Hawk tapped the small sign that was mounted on the door near the security bar. “Ma’am. I could tell you about six different ways. That’s why they tell you to put the bar on when you’re in here, and not to keep valuables in your room.”
“But what I don’t understand,” she persisted, her voice low and still shaken, “is how he knew this was my room. It’s not even registered in my name, and anyway, the hotel wouldn’t give out that information. How did he know?” It was hitting her now, he could see that-the sense of violation that every victim of violence experiences. It would probably take some time before she felt safe again.
The door was open now. Hawk held it while they both stood in silence, looking down at the arrangement of spring flowers on the floor.
“Looks like somebody’s sent you a present,” he said in a neutral voice.
She bent slowly and picked up the flowers. “It’s a mistake-it has to be,” she said in a frightened voice. “I don’t know anybody who’d send me flowers. The only ones who even know I’m here are my kids, and I can’t think why-” She broke off as he reached over and turned the little white card on its plastic stake so she could see “Jane Carlysle” plainly written there. Just the name, and nothing else. She whispered, “I don’t understand.”
“Don’t you?” Hawk’s mouth twisted as he touched a sprig of lilac with one finger. “This…is probably how he knew. It’s one of the tricks-call and order something to be delivered to a particular person, then watch and see which room it goes to.” He let the hand drop to his side.
She whispered, “My God.”
He felt grimy, uncomfortable in his own skin. Ashamed. Her stricken eyes clung to his, framed in daffodils and tulips. The smell of lilacs hung in the air between them, making his nose burn and his eyes ache. He hadn’t been prepared for this. Desperately, he hardened himself against the memories, the guilt, and her.
He said thickly, “Well, now you know,” and turned.
He’d taken only a few steps when she called to him. “Mr. Hawkins…”
She’d never know what it cost him to pause and look back, when he knew she’d be standing where he’d left her, with her arms full of those damn flowers.
“Mr. Hawkins,” she asked, her voice steady, her face pale but resolute, “are you with the police?”
For some reason, the question didn’t surprise him. Nor did the fact that she’d said police, not cops. A nice woman… He wondered later if that was why he didn’t simply lie to her.
Instead, he muttered, “Not in this jurisdiction,” and walked away, this time without looking back.
After Tom Hawkins had gone, Jane closed and locked her door and barricaded it with the security bar. Then, for a time. she just stood with the flowers in her arms, struggling to think, to make decisions, to regain some measure of control. Control of herself, her life and her circumstances.
Recent events had shaken her more than she wanted to admit to herself, and certainly more than she’d ever admit to a stranger, especially one as attractive as that enigmatic Mr. Hawkins. After all, she was a full-grown woman-a middle-aged woman, if she was completely honest with herself-and ought to be accustomed by now to dealing with life’s unpleasant little surprises.
Okay, so she’d never been the victim of a violent crime before. These things happened all over the world, to millions of people, every single day.
Grow up, Jane. Join the club. And pull yourself together. You’re always complaining that nothing exciting ever happens to you.
A perfect example, she thought, of “Be careful what you wish for!”
So, okay, first of all, what to do with the flowers? It wasn’t in her nature to blame them for the fact that they’d been used for evil intent. And they were so beautifut-some of her favorites, in fact. She’d always particularly loved lilacs.
Closing her eyes, she dipped her face into the center of the bouquet and inhaled that sweet, familiar scent; she felt the cool touch on her cheeks and eyelids, light as a kitten’s kisses, and felt the tremors of emotions she couldn’t name. Which was something that had been happening to her quite a lot today, for some reason.
But those longings that had come over her at the auction had been vague and restless, a strange, sweet ache for something she’d never known and probably never would know. This was much more specific, and if she didn’t know what it was she was feeling, at least she knew why. Because standing there with her eyes closed and the smell of spring in the air, all she could see was the tall form of Tom Hawkins, walking away from her down that long hallway without looking back. Walking away…and out of her life forever.
Oh, but she couldn’t give in to emotions of any kind right now. And she would not. She even had a formula-how did it go? Oh, yes, she remembered it well. Swallow hard a few times…concentrate on breathing deeply until the weakness passes… Then, do something. Find a job, a purpose.
So, as if it were the most important job in the world, she carried the flowers into the bathroom and gave them a drink of water, then dried the florist’s vase carefully so it wouldn’t leave a ring on the furniture and placed it on the dresser, arranging it nicely in front of the mirror. The fragrance of the lilacs seemed to fill the room.
I should eat something, she thought. From experience, she knew she’d feel better if she did. But, oh dear, how could she leave her room unguarded? What if he was out there somewhere, watching, waiting for her to do just that?
This time the wave of emotion was easier to identify. What it was, was pure panic. Suddenly she could feel it all over again-the sensation of falling, of utter helplessness, the weight on her back squeezing the breath out of her lungs. She felt warm fingers on her neck, the awful, terrifying pressure, the pounding, the gentle darkness…
Trembling, she sank onto the bed, groped for the phone and clumsily punched the Operator button. For a moment, hearing the unexpected words, “Front desk,” her mind went blank. Then her own voice responded calmly, “Room service, please.” The very normalcy of her request helped to quiet her panic, although it continued to roll and chum through her insides.