Monte was careful not to reveal anything about his work or clients. He acknowledged coming from Cleveland and going to school in Akron.
“I was good at languages but otherwise pretty poor in school,” he said. “That’s what brought me to South America in the end.”
After two snifters of cognac Sovereign was feeling warm and fuzzy.
“Tell me about my brother,” he asked their host.
“Jinx lives in the City of God,” Monte said, lifting his glass in a toast to his absent friend.
“What do that mean?” Toni asked in a different timbre than Sovereign was used to.
“A long time ago,” Selfridge answered, “Saint Augustine said that all hope was preordained, that those meant to go to heaven were fated from birth. No matter what they did in life all they had to do was confess at the end and they would be elevated to the heavenly choir.”
“Even murderers?” the girl asked.
“Worse,” Monte acknowledged. “You see, man thinks that he understands sin and evil but he doesn’t.”
“He don’t?”
“No. We are only infants in the eyes of heaven... or at least in the eyes of Augustine deciphering the will of the infinite. For him we were children, the progeny of a parent who had his favorites and his more numerous black sheep. God chooses at the very instant he first sees a mortal soul. He knows the company he wants to keep in the immortal city.”
“What happens to the ones he don’t choose?” Toni asked, an awestruck parishioner from a country hamlet on her first visit to the Vatican.
“They fade from the memory of God and therefore cease to exist.”
Sovereign didn’t realize how closely he’d been listening until the emissary spoke these words. That was when the soft feeling of inebriation turned toward sorrow in his chest.
“That’s just the end for them?” Toni said, echoing Sovereign’s feeling with her tone.
“Yes.”
“What chance do you have to be picked?”
“The walls of heaven contain an infinite space,” Monte told the girl. “But the void outside dwarfs that. Almost all people born and living are destined to disappear in the annals of man and God.”
“But what about my brother?” Sovereign interposed.
Monte and Toni turned toward him, resentment at his interruption fixed on their faces. Then Monte sat back and smiled.
“Jinx is one of the special ones,” he said. “The kind of guy who always gets it right even when he fucks up royally. Excuse my language. He’s the one in a million. When he jumps out of the frying pan he lands on a desert island with a village full of native girls who have been waiting for him but they never knew it.”
“That why you call him Jinx?” Sovereign asked. “Because he’s so lucky?”
“Lucky,” Monte said, “is a guy who wins the lottery and then realizes his life hasn’t really gotten any better. Your brother was born rich. He came to a small village in southern Peru, gave all of his money to a local hospital on a whim, and was adopted by the entire town — protected until he could start an intercontinental import-export business based in Brazil, Rome, and Moscow.”
“So Eddie’s happy,” Sovereign said. “Is that what you’re telling me?”
“Your brother is one of the rare beings in this world who is satisfied with his lot. He’s a good friend, and even when he’s your enemy he holds no animosity or grudge. He was able to leave one life behind him and start a new one without a care.”
“Like a snake shedding its skin,” Sovereign muttered.
“What’d you say, baby?” Toni asked.
“Nothing, honey. Just remembering a talk I had.”
“Where do you live, Mr. Selfridge?” Toni asked their host.
“I move around a lot,” he said. “I have a house near the water in Havana, and wives in Bristol, Jo-burg, and Des Moines.”
“You got more than one wife?”
“They all know about one another,” he explained. “The children are aware of their siblings. I even take them all on vacation sometimes.”
“I didn’t think you could own property in Cuba,” she said. “My friend Pasqual told me that communists don’t let people own nuthin’.”
“Maybe not him. But the rules in every society are always shifting. Maybe one day I’ll go home to Cuba and find somebody else living in my little place.”
“What would you do about that?” Sovereign asked, pouring drinks for both Selfridge and himself.
“I’d sit down and talk with them... try to understand where they’re coming from.”
The bumblebee in Sovereign’s chest had turned into a giant moth. The feathery fluttering scared him but he tried not to show it.
“What about you, Mr. James?” Monte asked.
“What about me?”
“What’s it like going blind and then suddenly getting your vision back?”
Once again Sovereign found himself in the sun-flooded living room with the young man attacking him. Ecstasy and desperation descended upon him but he didn’t say that.
“It’s like,” he said, “you were leaning out of a window to get a better view of a fine young woman like Toni here. She looks up and smiles and you bend farther, not thinking about what you’re doing. And then you fall. Suddenly everything is completely different and you can’t adjust to it because you don’t know the rules. You know you’re gonna die and you accept that reality in a split second. And then your clothes snag on a flagpole or lamp ornament and there you are, suspended above the ground, already dead because you accepted it but still alive because of some crazy serendipity of fate.
“And while you hang there, you’re wondering, should you just let go and hit the ground like you were supposed to or should you climb back into the window and go on with your business like nothing happened?”
Toni took his hand and squeezed it.
Monte smiled and raised his glass.
“It’s getting late,” the admitted bigamist said. “There are rooms downstairs that you guys could stay in. That is, if you don’t want to bother going home.”
“Rooms?” Sovereign said. “At a restaurant?”
“You fell out the window; Alice tumbled down a rabbit hole,” Monte said. “It’s all the same. There’s always a different world out there. Always.”
It was a small dark room that had a window on the Bowery. Toni and Sovereign toppled onto the single mattress, laughing and kissing sloppily.
“I didn’t bring any condoms,” he said while she tugged at his belt.
“That’s okay,” she whispered, now unzipping his pants.
“I’m so drunk I don’t think I could get that far.”
“You can if I help you.”
“I just like lying here next to you, Miss Loam. I like how smooth your skin is.”
“Would you really jump out a windah to see me, daddy?”
“I already did that. I already did that.”
The dream started out normally — a displaced reality far from the province of the world. Sovereign was pushing his grandfather’s wheelchair down the long ribbon of asphalt that bordered the Pacific Ocean. The chair was heavier than usual but the little boy had become a man and so managed with no trouble.
“I’ve been thinking about what you said, Sovy,” Eagle James espoused. “And I do believe you’re right. My son will be hurt by me just shootin’ myself. He won’t know what to do.”
“Thank you, Grandpa Eagle,” the man said with a boy’s deference.
Then the old man, quicker than Sovereign could imagine, pulled out the dark pistol, shoved the barrel up his right nostril with his right hand, and fired. The shot lit up the old man’s right eye like one of the flashbulbs of the boy’s Kodak Brownie camera. Then the blood slithered out, an angry snake chasing the fallen pistol that had disturbed its hibernation.