I put down an ace of spades and reach out to pick up the cards scattered on the small green baize mat in the middle of the table, and, as I do so, I brush Francisco’s hand. That almost imperceptible contact evokes an image. In the dark of the movie theater, Leonor nibbles my ear, licks it, pokes her warm, firm tongue inside, where it echoes, half-crackle, half-murmur. That damp, moving warmth tickles the cartilage, and that warm, vibrant, sticky feeling spreads like a shudder through the rest of my body and makes me catch my breath, or to be more precise, gives me a hard-on, it’s true, and I am panting like a steam engine. Francisco laughs at something he has just said, and which I didn’t even hear, as he throws down his two remaining cards, admitting defeat. This evening he has spoken with unusual frankness. Normally, if he criticizes someone, he avoids naming names. He says “him” or “that guy.” He leaves an apparent freedom of interpretation to his listener who he has just injected with a dose of poison. He places the burden of guilt on him: it’s up to the listener to put a name or a face to “that guy,” and thus become the thinker of evil thoughts, the betrayer. He merely provides the clues, much as one buckles on one’s seat belt in the car — just in case. Or as if he were speaking with the knowledge that someone has turned on a tape-recorder or placed a microphone in a hole in the plaster ceiling or underneath the table. He must have learned these linguistic precautions at the courses he attended when he was a member of the JOC or the JEC.
Justino stubbornly returns to the leitmotiv I’m trying hard to avoid:
“Tomás’ problem has always been his wife, but then that goes for all of us.”
And looking thoughtful, like someone who has just made a discovery and is pondering what exactly it might mean, he goes on:
“The clifftop house with the infinity swimming pool must have cost him a fortune, and then there’s the designer furniture, and the Gucci and the Prada. I’m not just saying this, I’m not inventing it. She herself tells you when you meet her.”
“She tells you? Amparo tells you that she’s wearing clothes from Prada? Are you buying them for her?” asks Bernal.
More laughter.
“No, of course she doesn’t tell me, because I don’t talk about clothes with her (I’d like to, but she won’t), but she tells my wife. She does it very casually, while she’s talking about something else, dropping a name here and there, and if you were to ask my wife what all those bits and pieces were worth on The Price is Right, she’d win hands down. You know what women are like. They see a woman wearing a nice blouse and it’s, Minuccia, silk, three hundred and twenty euros, from Vanités, Avenida Orts in Misent; or Marqués de Dos Aguas in Valencia; or Madison Avenue in New York. Ah, but those shoes are fake Blahnik, only a hundred and fifty euros. Identical to the real thing and, if you press me, I’d say they were better finished too, but they’re as false as Judas.”
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“He’s nuts about her and has simply let her spend, spend, spend.”
Justino:
“She must be forty-five if she’s a day, and when she wears one of those blouses showing off her nice, firm, perky tits, you just know they must be silicone, because they could be the breasts of a twenty-year-old; but when she wears those skin-tight jeans, her ass still looks like an apple you’d like to bite into.”
“If you had enough teeth left.”
“Oh, I’ve none of my own, but my implants have given me back my adolescence. I do have to be careful, though, because when I bite, I can’t always tell how hard I’m biting.”
“But what exactly are you biting and whose whatever-it-is are you biting into?”
More laughter.
Time to hear another fragment from Francisco’s hidden — and falsified — autobiography:
“Women are always man’s main obstacle.” I’m sure this isn’t what he thinks of Leonor, who was hardly an obstacle in his life. I don’t think he’d ever have gotten to the second rung on the ladder without her. “They’re the main brake on our actions. Fall hopelessly in love, and you’re lost.”
Who could he have fallen so hopelessly in love with? While Leonor was still alive? After she died? I don’t mean did he fall in love with her corpse, like an Edgar Allan Poe protagonist, but did he fall in love with someone else when Leonor was already dead or while she was still alive, or has he perhaps fallen in love more recently? When he shuts himself up in his house for the night, does he receive calls from that woman, do they talk dirty on the phone, does he invite her out on his yacht on those days when he disappears from Olba and all the shutters on his house are closed? Or do they lock themselves up in the house for weeks on end? I don’t know that he was ever in love with Leonor, the marriage suited him — it suited them both — he used her — they used each other — economically, socially, eugenically. All right, their son didn’t quite turn out the way they wanted, but they certainly can’t complain about their daughter, an economics whiz. He says he finds her coolness toward him wounding, but I figure she’s intelligent enough to know that if she does talk to him, he’ll only start nagging her. He and Leonor were business partners, like Tomás and Amparo, but Tomás is mad about Amparo: theirs is clearly a sexual relationship (I know this, you can tell), they share a taste for sex, vice, luxury and doubtless even drugs. Pedrós is always touching his nose when he talks, and I imagine she’s the same, the kind who lets someone else put the powder on the mirror, then, apparently reluctantly, sniffs it up, just to be polite of course, but if no cocaine is on offer, she’ll be sure to mention it, in case someone else is willing to share theirs. And they’ve accumulated money together, which is how they’ve managed to live the way they do; I can’t imagine Francisco and Leonor sharing any vices; I’ve always had the impression that his vices occupied a separate, clandestine world, although who knows? And what about her?
Bernal has now stopped playing with his cell phone, having missed the last part of the conversation. He says:
“It’s hard to be really in love with a woman and do anything useful in life. Anxiety eats away at you. There’s no point getting hooked up with a woman who’s hard to get, that’s tantamount to spending the rest of your life climbing Everest. You should marry a woman you can keep without too much effort. You can always pay for the company of a real beauty if you want to. For a few euros you can have an eighteen-year-old Russian girl who’s better-looking than any movie star. You fuck, you pay and you go back home to have supper with your family, with your wife, who’s a good cook, but lousy in bed, and who would never dream of leaving you, because, quite apart from anything else, no one is interested. She goes to parents’ night at school, is a leading light of the PTA or whatever they’re called — you know, all that social-democratic garbage that the Partido Popular gleefully copies because it fits their modern-responsible-happy-family image with just a touch of Opus Dei — plus she keeps the children in line and knows which is the best detergent to buy and the best cheese and the best local foie gras. She irons your shirts and sews on your buttons, or can tell the maid how to do it, having first put her through more trials than an Olympic athlete. That’s what a man needs, because it takes a lot of courage to live with a woman who’s your equal and makes you cook the vegetables and hang out the clothes, as well as being insatiable in the sack and screwing you dry. Hard work. No man could stand that.”