“One good thing is she’s coming out of her shell with some of the other juniors,” Pitak said. “She and that Serrano ensign and some others.”
“The young Serrano? I’m not sure that’s a good idea. There were two Serranos at Xavier.”
Pitak shrugged. “I don’t see a problem. This one is too young; those were much her seniors. Besides, they’re not plotting; they’re climbing the Wall and playing team games together occasionally. My thought was that maybe the Serrano arrogance would get through her shell, whatever it is, and release that natural command ability.”
“Maybe. She’s not seeing just him, you say?”
“No. I hear about it mostly from young Zintner, who plays wallball with them. She says Suiza hates variable-G games but is a good sport. I haven’t asked, but she’s told me that two or three young men are pursuing Suiza, without much success. ‘Not really a cold fish when you get to know her, but reserved,’ is what Zintner said.”
Seveche sighed. “She must be hiding something; they always are, the juniors, even when they think they’re not.”
“And we aren’t?” Pitak said.
“We are, but we know we are. The advantages of maturity: we know where our bodies are buried, and we know that anything buried can be exhumed. Usually at the wrong moment.”
“But Suiza?”
“Let her be for a bit; see if she gets somewhere on her own, now that you’ve planted the idea. We’ve agreed she’s not stupid. She’ll be here a couple of years, anyway, and if she hasn’t unstuck herself by the end of the next review period we’ll try again. If, as we said before, life doesn’t give her the necessary kick in the pants.”
Esmay stared at her work, feeling resentful. She knew that was an unsuitable feeling for any junior officer . . . unproductive, not useful, even if justified. In this case it wasn’t even justified. She liked Major Pitak and trusted in her honesty; if Pitak said she didn’t have a technical mind, then she didn’t have a technical mind. She tried to ignore the self-pitying self that wanted to whine about all the hours of study, the diligence, the self-sacrifice . . .
“Stupid!” she said aloud, startling herself and Master Chief Sivars, who had come in to bring something to Major Pitak. “Sorry,” Esmay said, and felt her face heat. “I was thinking about something else.”
“That’s all right, Lieutenant,” he said, in the indulgent voice of the very senior NCO to the very junior officer he tolerates out of misguided affection. Or so it seemed to Esmay, making her even more resentful.
“Chief, how can you tell which junior personnel are going to have a knack for technical stuff?”
He gave her a look that clearly said this wasn’t her business, or his, but then leaned back against the bulkhead and answered. “Some of ’em come in with such a genius for it you don’t have the slightest doubt. I remember a pivot, six or seven years ago, straight out of basic, who had blown the top off the placement exams. Well, we’d had high-scorers before . . . but this kid couldn’t touch something without making it work better. In two days, we knew what we had; in a decad, we were just holding our breath hoping he wouldn’t get crosswise of anyone important, because he did have a way of speaking his mind.” He grinned at the memory. “That was before we were on Kos, you understand; she was under construction, and we were working out of Sierra Station. Major Pitak was a lieutenant then, same as you are now, except she was herself, if you know what I mean. Well, this kid snapped back at her one day, and she went the color of bad polyglue. Then she blinked, and looked at me, and said the kid was right, and walked out. Told me something about both of ’em, though of course I had to give the kid what-for, for sassing an officer. It wasn’t really sass; he just knew what he knew, and didn’t bother to hide it.”
“And the ones that aren’t quite that good?”
“Well . . . I can tell the ones that’ll work hard, of course. That always helps. Anyone with enough smarts to pass the placement exams can learn enough to be useful if they work at it steadily, the way you’ve done. But nothing replaces the knack, the feel . . . I can’t explain it, Lieutenant. Either they have a feel for the material, or they don’t. Some of ’em have it real narrow . . . they may be technical geniuses in scan, say, and useless for anything else. Others have a knack for a lot of things in the technical area—they can work almost any system.”
“Are you ever wrong?” Esmay asked.
He chewed his lip. “Sometimes . . . but usually it’s not to do with their talent. I’ve missed other things about them, things that interfered. I remember a sergeant minor, transferred in from Sector 11, with scores off the chart. That was odd in itself—why would another sector let him go, if he was so good? But we were short-handed, like we always seem to be, and he was awfully good.”
“So what was wrong with him?”
“Pure meanness. Turned out he got his kicks making trouble: on his own crew, in barracks, everywhere. Set people against each other, skinned the truth to the bone but always in ways that he could explain as not really lies. Nothing he did was against regulations . . . he was careful about that . . . but by halfway through his tour we’d have done anything to get rid of him. I would, anyway. I’d just been promoted to master chief; I wanted my section to run smoothly and here he was stirring things up. We finally got rid of him, but it wasn’t easy.” By the tone, he did not want to explain how, and Esmay didn’t ask. “Then there was a kid who was smart enough when he could keep his mind on the job, but he was always in emotional hot water over something. Or rather, somebody. We finally got him to Medical and they had some treatment, but then he wanted to transfer. I heard later he was doing fine over in Sector 8.” He gave Esmay a smile as he pushed himself up and started out. “Just keep plugging away, Lieutenant; you’re doing fine.”
So even he knew she wasn’t that good at this. Esmay resisted the childish urge to throw something at that broad back.
At dinner that evening, she said less than usual, listening to the chat at her table. The self-proclaimed genius of special materials research wasn’t talking either; he had the abstracted expression of someone trying to solve problems in his head. Barin Serrano was describing his attempt to recalibrate a gravscan in which, as he put it, “someone had been tap dancing on the connections.” He sounded happy enough, and the jig at the far end, talking about her current love affair, sounded even happier.
Perhaps it was only lack of sleep that made her want to crawl under the table. She had had nightmares all night, and a confusing and disappointing talk with her commander; of course she felt down. She didn’t eat dessert, and decided to go to bed early.
“Found it,” Arhos said. “It’s a good tricky one, too.”
“Not too different from what we were told, I hope,” said Losa.
“No . . . but apparently the captain’s a bit paranoid, moves it around from time to time. And checks out the circuitry periodically, to make sure it works.”
“So we have to fix it with a built-in test circuit to fake the test?”
“Yes. I’ve got the details . . . amazing how some of these people will talk if they think you sympathize with their problems. There’s a petty-light who’s convinced the captain is down on him because of a practical joke actually concocted by someone else . . . he was so anxious to convince me how unfair and unreasonable Hakin is, that he practically handed me the whole mechanism on a chip.”
“So when can we do it?”
“The captain tested it two days ago. He’s using some schedule of his own devising, but he’s never yet tested it within five days of a previous test. So if we do the main part tomorrow, that should give us a few days to test the test, as it were.”
“I hope this is all right,” Losa said, frowning. “I mean—we’re stuck on this ship now, and we can’t pretend we don’t know what it’s for . . .”