‘Are you all right?’ Corien asked Orchid. She nodded, rubbing her wrists. ‘Where’s-’ he began, but Orchid signed for silence. He nodded his understanding.
‘Now what?’ she whispered to Antsy.
He sat on a plain stone ledge that might or might not have been intended as a bed. ‘An interview of a kind, I suppose. They either need us or want us, or not.’
‘If not?’ Corien asked.
Antsy shook his head.
‘Well, shouldn’t we-’
Antsy held up a hand. ‘Sleep, for now. There’s nothing else we can do.’
Disbelieving, Corien looked to Orchid for support but she nodded her agreement. ‘Yes. We need to rest. Who knows how long it’s been — or will be?’
Sighing, Antsy lay back and threw an arm across his eyes.
Malazan spy. He didn’t like the sound of that.
CHAPTER XII
A tale is told of a distant city where, when its exalted ruler wishes to travel, it is the custom of its inhabitants to lie down in the dirt before him so that his feet need not be sullied. When travellers ask the why of this custom they are told that the inhabitants willingly and gladly lay themselves down for their ruler as he protects them from the countless threats of raiders and bandit armies surrounding their peaceful settlement.
And these travellers go their way shaking their heads, for all those surrounding the city have no interest in such a wretched place.
Coll walked the empty unlit rooms of his manor house, gloriously drunk. He carried a cut crystal decanter loosely in one hand. It was late in the night, long past the mid-hour, and he was waiting to be killed.
How better, it was his considered opinion, to die than carefree and thus beyond the reach of all pain? For it had always been care that brought him pain. He stopped, weaving, before one particular stretch of empty whitewashed wall. He knew what used to hang here … during that all too short anomaly in his life he knew as happiness.
He wiped a sleeve across his face, sloshing wine. Damn her. Damn him! He’d been such a fool! And paying for it all his life. Was it pride? Masochism? That he cannot forget, cannot let go? He let his arms fall. Well, perhaps that was just the way he was.
He lurched on, inspecting the main-floor rooms. But not upstairs. No, not there! Never there! He leaned against the long formal dining table, pulled the sweaty linen shirt from his chest. Humid tonight. Warm. The summer doldrums when tempers are short and passions run hot.
He could have remarried. Plucked some daughter of a rich merchant house, or respected artisan. Someone grateful enough, or hungry enough, for a noble family name. And yet … he would always wonder: what’s she doing now?
He raised the decanter for a drink. And any smirk or whisper among the young bloods! Gods, he could see the contempt in their eyes now! What could they be insinuating? Did they know something he did not? Eventually, he knew, it would’ve ended in a humiliating mismatch on the duelling grounds.
At least this is private. The blade across the throat or through the back. Quiet and without witnesses. Much better than a ring of uncaring faces. Some shred of dignity may be kept …
Gods. Who am I kidding?
He slammed down the decanter, slumped into a chair. Was that it, then, that kept me alone all these years? Fear? Fear that I could never trust again and would thus make some good woman’s life a misery? Fear of my own weakness? Was that pathetic … or just sadly accurate?
He blinked in the greenish light of the night sky streaming in from the colonnaded walk that led to the rear grounds. Someone stood there, cloaked, tall. Their chosen blade. Fanderay’s tits, they wasted no time about it.
He threw his arms out wide. ‘Here I am, friend. May I call you friend? We are about to share an intimate moment — surely that permits me to call you friend.’ He reached for a tall wine glass, raised it. ‘Drink? No, I suppose not. Well, I believe I will.’ He poured a full glass.
The man walked to the other end of the long table, regarded him from the darkness within his deep hood. Coll raised a hand for silence. ‘I know, I know. Quite the sight. In the old days I understand just a note was enough. Something like “save us the trouble”. We live in a decaying age, so they say.’ He emptied the entire glass in one long pull.
The man closed further, coming up along one side of the table. He ran a gloved hand over the smooth polished surface as he came. Coll eyed him all the way, swallowed his mouthful. ‘Liquid courage, some would say, hey? But no — not in my case. I have courage. What I need is liquid numbness. Liquid oblivion.’
The figure raised a hand to his hood while the other slipped within his cloak. ‘What you need,’ the man growled, throwing back his hood, ‘is balls.’
Coll yelped and flinched backwards so hard he upended the chair and fell rolling. He came up clutching at his chest. ‘Gods, Rallick! Don’t do that!’ He righted the chair. ‘I thought you were … you know …’ He froze, then straightened to eye his friend. ‘You’re not … are you?’
Rallick selected a plum from the table, sat. ‘No, I’m not.’
‘Well … is there … someone?’
‘I wouldn’t know.’ He took a bite of the fruit, threw a leg up on the table. ‘But I suspect not.’
Coll sat. ‘You suspect not? Why?’
Rallick chewed thoughtfully, swallowed. ‘Because you’re old and ineffectual. Useless. Unimportant. Marginalized and sidelined …’
Coll had raised a hand. ‘I get it. Many thanks.’
‘Well, isn’t that just what you’ve been moping around these rooms about?’
Coll would not meet his friend’s gaze.
Rallick sighed. ‘Isn’t it about time you married someone? Sired another generation to carry on the family name? It’s your duty, isn’t it?’
Coll sat back, waving a hand. ‘I know, I know. But what if she …’
‘I assume you’ll choose more wisely this time. And in any case, so what? Life’s a throw of the bones. Nothing’s guaranteed.’
‘How reassuring. And you are here because …?’
Rallick finished the plum. ‘I’m under a death sentence from the guild.’
Coll stared from under his brows. ‘And you come here.’ He gestured angrily to the grounds. ‘What if they’re following you? You’ve led them here! They could be coming any moment!’
Rallick held up his hands. ‘I thought you were expecting them.’
Letting out a long breath Coll leaned forward over the table to massage his temples. ‘What do you want?’
‘I want that thing up on Majesty Hill gone.’
The fingers stilled. He sat back, eyed his friend anew. ‘What’s this? A civic conscience? Rather belated.’
The lines around the lean man’s mouth deepened as his jaws tightened. ‘Think. Who have we done work for all these years?’
‘Baruk. But Baruk has been taken — or has fallen, or failed. There’s nothing we can do.’
‘Then it falls to us. We are all that’s left. Us and Kruppe.’
‘Gods!’ Coll looked to the ceiling. ‘You almost had me, Rallick. Then you had to go and mention that greasy thief.’ He waved to the grounds. ‘Where is he? Have you seen him? The man’s halfway to Nathilog by now.’
‘No, he’s not. He’s in hiding. I’m seeing his hand in things more and more.’ The man looked down, frowning. ‘I wonder now if all along I was nothing more than his hand and ear in the guild. As Murillio was among the aristocracy, and young Crokus may have been on the streets. While you were a potential hand and ear in the Council.’
‘Happenstance only, friend. You’re looking backwards and inventing patterns. You give him too much credit. I grant you he’s some sort of talent — but he uses it to do nothing more than fill his stomach.’