“It was the Aktion, which meant a transport of Jews to the death camps. We knew nothing of the liquidation. We were told of a campaign for resettlement in the East, where they would turn Jewish people into productive citizens. We were even ordered to pack bags for the journey. The deceit worked beautifully. We gathered obediently in the empty camp, where they would separate people intended for the transport from those permitted to stay. Anyone who had a permit to stay in the ghetto felt safe, and the others, without knowing a thing, sensed death. People hid out, dug themselves into attics, hollows, anywhere they could. The Germans went from door to door, aided by Polish policemen and local assistants. Whoever was caught was shot on the spot. Women, elderly people, children. The whole ghetto filled with the sounds of screaming and shooting. Bodies rolled down the streets. The Aktion continued for three days. To the credit of this Aktion one could say that it was easy compared to the two Aktionen that would come later in ghetto Bochnia, until the liquidation. I myself saw no more than the first Aktion. I was destined for a transport.
“I stood there indifferently, facing death in the gas chambers but pondering the East, to which we had been promised we were being taken. The rumors about Feiga had spoken of a northern camp, but how could the rumor-mongers know where she had been taken? Why not to the East? Had the Germans who had captured her bothered to show them their orders? People gossip, they want to be considered knowledgeable, and so they embellish. I stood in the large courtyard, around me much grief and chaos, commotions erupting once in a while when people were separated from their families or holders of legal permits were suddenly placed in the transport group, their protests to no avail. In my family too there were many tears and much confusion. My mother fainted and I ran to ask for some water for her, but nothing. Two Jewish policemen returned me by force to the row, humiliated me. Nearby a commotion broke out and someone was shot. I was overtaken by a sense of apathy. I thought about Feiga. Will we meet in the East? Might we have a marriage ceremony there? Set up a home for ourselves?
“Suddenly, my name was called out. I was told to go with a small group being sent to the labor camp at Rakowice airfield. I was simply pulled out of the transport waiting to die in the gas chambers of Belzec, and sent off to live a good long life. Why me? Who was the angel who had put my name on that list? I do not know. Perhaps it was Yanek, your father’s uncle, who was in the Judenrat and had very helpful connections. They were not much help for him, though. In that very same transport he himself was sent away with his family. To the gas chambers. And the same for my mother and father and sister and two brothers. Also my uncles, friends. Everyone. Only me, to Rakowice…”
Grandpa Yosef stops talking. Rakowice pads through the room. An unfamiliar name, its letters tread firmly. Ra-ko-wi-ce.
Grandpa Yosef’s thoughts wander. I assume he is thinking of his family, their last moments together. But he is dwelling on the wonder of his being sent to Rakowice.
“Strange. Craftsmen were sent to Rakowice. A small group of skilled laborers. And me. Why me? Rakowice was not just another camp. Airplanes! An airfield! Engineers worked there.”
He sounds almost boastful. He is short of breath. For a moment he scans his surroundings — me, Grandpa Lolek, the bed, the room. As if only at this moment has it become apparent to him that he has begun to tell his story. He needs to devote his attention to the place, to observe before he opens his mouth, as all good orators do. Here, in a wondrous way, is a coming together of opportunity and the need he has harbored for a long time. In this silence, which only Grandpa Lolek can disturb, we will spread out the story. There is plenty of time, every detail is important. Outside, night has fallen. Silence in the ward, silence in the room. Grandpa Yosef sets the time for his story: evening.
“We arrived in Rakowice in the evening hours. They rushed us into a group of huts. They started yelling. Beating us. What they wanted from our shattered souls, we could not tell. And in the distance was the airfield with the runway lit up. We squinted at the lights, fearful. Everything was too overwhelming, happening too quickly. We wanted just a moment of reprieve.
“Our gazes were drawn to beyond the fence. There, near the ugly barracks that formed the staff housing, was a fancy black car. In the chill of the night, against the backdrop of the runway lights, the body of the car shone like marble. So shiny and black, standing still and demanding our attention. But we were not permitted to look at the car for long. We were soon thrown from the gate area onwards, into the camp. Then there were beatings, searches, shouts. They acted as though they did not understand why we had come, and the whole business of our arrival was an unnecessary nuisance. From their point of view, we could have left. But I say this only jokingly. Leaving, even attempting to leave for just a second, was a death sentence. They hit and yelled just indiscriminately, for no reason. Shouts and lashings that made your mind dizzy with fear. We could not contemplate anything, not even the town we had left, or our families. All we could do was bow our heads and obey orders, ignore what was going on.
“But still, I must admit, once in a while my thoughts strayed to that black car. For some reason I sensed that I would be brought together with that fabulous machine in a few hours. There were beatings, punishments, crazed thoughts, and yet the car took hold of my mind. What was such a car doing in this ugly camp, among the crude trucks and a few simple vehicles parked in the mud? Was a high-ranking official about to take off from the airfield? Was the car waiting to pick up an official about to land here? The soldiers and personnel moving around in the distant airfield seemed unconcerned with the car. Why here, then? All that was happening here was our absorption into this pathetic, wearisome camp, implemented by low-ranking cruel beasts. Yes, this was what I would contemplate as the blows were being delivered, punishments and yelling around me. Still, I was drawn by the idea that the car was there for us. As if the absorption in Rakowice was an exemplary act, an operation to which senior officials were invited to watch and be impressed.
“As I contemplated these nonsensical thoughts, a sergeant suddenly grabbed hold of me, a Scharführer in uniform, and asked me to my face, ‘Speak German, kike?’
“I replied, ‘Yes,’ with terror in my soul. My father, may God avenge his blood, Reb Mordechai Halevi Ingberg, had always admired the Germans. He learned their language and read their books. In the First World War he even served in one of the Austrian army’s regiments. He taught me the language too, and I was fluent. But why did they need my German?
“I was not given much time to think. I was pulled away from the group to an isolated courtyard near a black wall. Did they shoot German-speaking Jews immediately? And for that they had dragged me all the way from Bochnia?
“I was left alone for a moment or two, and then came two prisoners, Jews, servants of the camp. They silently instructed me to strip, so they could wash and disinfect me. I obeyed, saying nothing, but my heart wished to know — what would be my fate?