It was their ancient feudal right, and in their conceiving he was the earl, the fount of all grace and bounty.
He had grown used to the freedoms he had enjoyed in the open fellowship of the sea, his snug place aboard Kydd’s ship wherever it had taken them both, on deeds of daring or desperation, to adventures inconceivable, of far places in the world where none might visit save they were borne there in a man-of-war.
Could he give this up for ever?
He had at last secured an income by his own endeavours and could deploy it in any way he chose. His studies of an ethnical nature could now proceed …
He strode to a field that had a single gnarled oak at its centre. Here he had faced his father in that fateful confrontation that had led to the break. A clash of wills that he had resolved by galloping away, leaving his enraged father to take his revenge.
It had failed. And with it the power to hurt him.
In that moment something passed on: he saw his father more to be pitied than hated, as the memory of what he had done began to fade. There was now nothing that he had to react against, to withstand … to justify his exile.
In that realisation his emotions ebbed. They were replaced by calm.
And he began to reason. If this was his present situation other moral imperatives must come to the fore. He knew he had a clear duty: to his family first and to society second. To turn on them both for selfish motives was not an act he could easily live with.
Therefore, whether he desired it or no, it had to be accepted that, with his inheritance secure, there was no conceivable reason to decline the honour.
And so, irrespective of every other consideration, the decision was out of his hands.
Turning slowly on his heel, he paced back, letting the logic work its healing on his soul.
A light-headed relief suffused him. It was all settled: there could be no more disputing with his conscience or any more vain reasonings.
He would do his duty.
His mother stood alone, tense and watchful.
He smiled softly at her. “You are right as always, Mother dear. Perhaps it is time. I will return and do my duty.”
She stared at him, then dissolved into tears, hugging him to her until they eased. Then she gently disengaged herself and returned to the chaise-longue, her eyes never leaving him.
“There’s much to do, my son. But first we will have a welcome banquet for my dear Nicholas, returned to his place of honour in the bosom of his family.”
“Thank you, Mama.”
“Henry will be much put out, for his father promised him Eskdale, but take no heed-he’s impetuous and yet to be fully acquainted with the world.”
“I will not take offence, Mama.”
“And then we will throw a ball for all the world to take sight of the new earl. A grand affair-I shall invite noble families from up and down the kingdom. You’ll go to London for the season, of course, and there-”
“Mother. There’s first a matter I must deal with, as we must say, in my former life. It should not take long.”
“Oh. Cannot it wait, Nicholas?”
“I rather think not, Mama. I desire to quit such an existence without detail to be dealt with later.”
“Then do go, my son. I can understand you wish to leave nothing that can cause awkwardness later. When do you think … ?”
Renzi twitched his neck-cloth and settled the sleeves of his plain brown coat: there hadn’t been time to get the tailor to work but he’d managed a pair of more formal breeches and stockings in place of his faded pantaloons. It would have to do: time pressed.
He stepped out of the Angel into the street. No one noticed him as he strode through the Tunsgate market up to School Lane, so named by the citizens of Guildford in honour of the successful establishment run on naval lines by the Kydd family.
It came into view but it was different now. This time he was controlled, calm and knew what he must do.
At the door he drew himself erect, took a breath-and knocked three times.
“Oh! Mr Renzi,” the maid said faintly. “Ma’am,” she called anxiously. “It’s Mr Renzi. Are you at home?”
There was movement and voices-then Kydd himself came to the door.
“Nicholas!” he spluttered. “Where in Hades have you been?”
“I am here, as you may observe. Am I to be allowed to come in at all?”
“Damn it, and you’ve some explaining to do.”
“Inside?”
They went to the drawing room. Cecilia rose guardedly. “Why, Nicholas! It’s been such a horribly long time …”
She tailed off at his stiff bow.
Kydd bristled and threw Renzi a dark look.
Cecilia looked at both men in turn: what was passing between them? They’d always been such true friends.
Renzi’s face was set as he turned to Kydd. “There is something that Cecilia should know. I would be obliged if you would allow us the privacy.”
Kydd hesitated. Then, throwing a warning glance at Renzi, he left the room.
Cecilia sat rigid, her eyes wide.
“I should tell you, Miss Kydd, that my business in London proceeded well.”
She went pale at the distancing. Had she been wrong to hope all these years?
“You will know that my situation and fortunes have until now not been favourable.”
“Yes, Mr Renzi,” she murmured, picking up on his formality. “But it does not-”
“Now they have improved to the point where I believe that decisions must be made.”
“I see …”
“That bear so on the future. Miss Kydd, I have to tell you that I’m now in a position some would describe as of consequence. I would therefore not wish you to be under any misapprehensions as to the reasons for what I have to say.”
“Nicholas … ?” she blurted pitiably.
“Miss Kydd. There has been before an … an understanding, a measure of assumption-of presumption, if I may. However, as I recall, I did write you a letter of release from any implied obligation in this tenor, I believe.”
Her eyes filled.
“Which obliges me to choose my words with care.”
“Nicholas-Mr Renzi-I beg, do know I’ve never felt bound by our …”
He dropped his gaze and when he looked up again there was resolution, and the serenity of a dilemma solved.
With the utmost dignity he fell to one knee. “Miss Kydd. If your situation does permit, then with the most unutterable feelings of tenderness and love I do this day propose marriage to you.”
Her hands flew to her mouth as she stared down at him for a long moment. Then she burst into tears and, with anguished sobs, ran from the room.
Almost immediately Kydd flung in. “Renzi-what the devil did you say to her? I demand to know!”
“I proposed to her, is all,” he said quietly. “It would seem, however, that there is another …”
Kydd took a ragged breath and hurried out after her.
She was in her room, lying on her bed weeping inconsolably.
“Cecilia-sis!” he said, with concern. “Is it that you’ve fallen for someone else? I can understand that, the beggar dithering on for so long.”
“No!” she sobbed. “A thousand times no!”
“I-sis, I don’t understand.”
“I do l-love o-only Nicholas!” she wept.
“Then why … ?”
“I’ve waited and waited for him and now …” She burst out anew with anguished sobbing.
“Ah. Well, if I were you I’d clap on all sail and go back to him before he changes his mind.”
He produced a handkerchief and waited while she composed herself. “Now then, sis, you go to him and say-well, say what you need to.”
They left the bedroom but Mrs Kydd and the maid were standing white-faced outside.
“Whatever is the matter, m’ dear?”
“Ma, Cecilia has something she wants to say to Mr Renzi.”
“If he’s been upsettin’ my darlin,’ then-”
“We wait outside, Ma.”
It was not long: the door opened and the pair stood before them, hand in hand.
“Mama, we’re to be wed!” Cecilia breathed, eyes sparkling.
“Oh! My dear, I never guessed-at all! We’re so happy for you an’ Mr Renzi, you’ve no idea. Why, I thought-”