And Jay Pittman would be the first asshole to die.
I said, “Don’t forget to bring your dicks.”
I put my hand under your armpit and lifted you to your feet. You felt cold and small, Jack, and you wavered on your feet, but you were coming back around.
You knew what we were being sent outside to do. You had to know. Well, whoever you were, Jack, because you sure weren’t Jack Whitmore from the cross-country team at Glenbrook High School.
So I pulled you along, not so much as glancing at Fent—and to think, maybe just an hour ago she wanted to take me away to some dirty fucking alcove and have a screw.
Fuck that.
I said, “Come on, kid.”
And Pittman hurriedly attempted to get his wet uniform on correctly so he could tag along for the fun.
I had to think.
I was so mad I wanted to scream.
I practically dragged you over the stairs at the front of the station. Sorry, Jack. Halfway down, you stumbled, but I squeezed your armpit so hard you kept on your feet. You kind of yelped a little, too. It hurt. But you still didn’t say a single word.
Pittman kept one step behind us.
“What did you do to end up here, Three-Seven-Three?” I said.
“Deserter,” you said. “I deserted.”
It was your voice.
Jack.
You lunged forward over the last two steps. Pittman gouged your lower back with the barrel of his rifle.
“Get off him, Pittman. I’ll shove that gun down your fucking throat.”
Pittman eased off.
I needed to get as far away from the station as possible, but the morning hadn’t come yet. There would be Hunters out.
Pittman knew it; I thought he seemed a little bit scared. Maybe he was suspicious about me leading you both so far out.
Fuck him.
I kept a tight grip on your arm, but it wasn’t like you were trying to get away. You just stumbled along, Jack, and we walked through the already-drying dust, kicking up chalky clouds with our feet.
I shook you, like I was mad at you. And I was. Why the fuck did you get me into this shit? Sorry, Jack. I just wanted you to snap out of it and show something on your face that meant you knew me, you remembered how close we were.
“Do you know who I am?”
You looked at me. You had a purple bruise under your left eye and a grape-sized bump on your cheekbone. Both of your nostrils were crusted around with dried black blood.
“Am I supposed to?”
“Mind the gap, Jack.”
Your brows twitched. For just a second, you seemed to register something.
“Isn’t this far enough?” Pittman said.
We stopped in front of an ancient strip of shops. Every one of them had been smashed open, with no glass at all remaining in the blackened storefronts. The roof had caved in.
I kicked one of those old swirled-glass Pepsi bottles. A vending machine lay on its side, with thick black power cables trailing like a bruised umbilical cord back toward one of the shattered storefronts.
The thing in the sky hadn’t changed. It hovered overhead like a rip in a sail. It almost fluttered as the dripping flow of light dusted down from the gash through the sky.
You started breathing hard.
I thought you knew you were about to die.
It made me feel like shit, Jack, because you weren’t going anywhere without me.
“Sit here,” I said. I put you down on the side of the vending machine.
You were shaking pretty bad. I wanted to hug you and tell you it was going to be okay.
Pittman stood away, holding his rifle across his waist.
I glanced back at him. It was the only time I’d looked at that asshole since I led you out of the station. Seeing him with his string of penises around his neck made me feel better about my decision to kill him.
“Don’t move,” I told you. Then, keeping my back to Jay Pittman so he wouldn’t see my mouth, I whispered, “Keep your eyes on me, Jack. Remember this: My name is Conner Kirk. If this doesn’t work, there is an old man who lives in a house on Tamarind Street who helps Odds. Tamarind Street. Remember that. Look at me, Jack.”
Then I backed away from you until I was standing just behind Pittman. I imagined blowing a hole in his guts big enough to play basketball. I pictured Jay Pittman, covered with writhing, clicking harvesters. I could almost hear the sound they’d make chewing into his flesh. I dreamed he might be alive while it happened, so I could hear how he would wail and cry.
I put my hand down inside my pocket and found the Marbury lens.
There were only two plans I had in my head: First, I hoped that the lens might get you and me out of this. If it did, then I could only imagine that it wouldn’t matter what Pittman did to us, because you and I would be somewhere else, and no place in the universe could possibly be worse than the spot we were in. If that didn’t work, then Pittman was going to die, and the Rangers would have to hunt me down.
And I knew what they did to Rangers who killed our own.
But nothing worked out the way I thought it would. That’s how it goes in Marbury, anyway.
Pittman said, “What the hell are you waiting for, Kirk?”
I kept my eyes on yours. “Look at me!”
I pulled the broken lens from my pocket and raised it between us.
The shit that happened next made everything else in Marbury seem like a birthday party with balloon animals.
I went blind. It seemed like as soon as I’d lifted the lens to the height of my chest, there was a flash of deep red light that burned a negative impression of everything around me into my eyes. Then my hand went higher, like some magnetic pull tugged the lens upward.
I could faintly hear Jay Pittman, as he stood in front of me.
He was saying, “What the fuck? What the fuck?”
But I could only make out his silhouette in the blaze of red; and his voice sounded so far away, like a freight train was passing between us.
And when my hand rose higher than my head, the broken edge of the lens lined up perfectly, matching like a puzzle piece with the gash in the sky.
Everything went black.
Jay Pittman began screaming. It was insane shit. He sounded like someone who’d been set on fire. His screaming went on and on, so loud and terrifying. I’d never heard anyone who sounded like that.
He began firing his rifle, and I felt certain he was going to shoot me. Round after round fired off. I could hear the bullets whizzing past me, inches from my face at times, and Pittman’s cries began to weaken.
I closed my hand around the lens.
The sky went pale gray again.
I could see.
The hole in the sky closed up, and then opened again, like a mouth, as soon as I tucked the broken lens back inside my pants.
“Fuck that shit.”
I rubbed my eyes, and tried to blink away the stain of red that made everything seem to blur and vanish.
It felt like all the air had been sucked from my lungs, and I gasped, struggling to clear my head and make sense of where I was.
You were gone.
Vanished.
The vending machine where you’d been sitting lay there in the dust.
The sky was getting lighter; morning was coming.
And, in front of my feet, Jay Pittman twitched and burbled small painful whimpers. He had shot himself through the side of his jaw. It looked like his head, from his nose down, was lying near the front of one of the strip-mall storefronts, ten feet away, and he had flung his rifle down behind us.
Jay Pittman was still breathing.
But he was black with the glossy shells of quivering harvesters.
They were eating him alive.
Just like I wished for.
Fucking Marbury.
twelve
I had the glasses in my lap. I didn’t realize how long I’d been sitting there, listening to Conner’s story. I was wet with sweat all over, and I never even once thought to put the windows down.
We had to find the others; had to fix things once and for all.
Fuck that cop.
Sitting with Conner in my truck, we stared at the rip in the sky.
The sun was coming up in the east; the night paled ahead of us.
“This isn’t Glenbrook,” I said.