I dialed before I could change my mind.
A brisk secretary answered: “Pfieffer, Smith, and Zemeck. How may I direct your call?”
Jack Smith had searched the house while I slept.
If I hadn’t been in my current obsessive-compulsive, paranoid state, I probably wouldn’t have noticed. But there were signs. The blue and white plastic ice trays in the freezer were stacked in a different color order. Blue, blue, white, white, blue, blue. A drawer in my mother’s room stuck out a quarter of an inch. The contents of my backpack were still messy, but slightly neater.
I stared at myself in one of Nordstrom’s three-way mirrors, thinking I’d dropped at least a size in the last two weeks. A pretty export from Britain named Beatrice was eyeballing me at a 6 and asking whether I thought jade, mint, or celadon would work better with my coloring. I was wondering whether Jack Smith was a professional investigator for hire or a hit man.
Today, though, it was Rosalina Marchetti who was pulling at the strings, the zippers, the snaps, the buttons. Mr. Zemeck, her Chicago lawyer, had been terse in our two back-to-back conversations about my trip tomorrow to see her. He wearily recited Rosalina’s instructions for me.
“Show up at two. Dress for high tea. Wear green. Turn off your cell phone. No perfume.”
“Green? As in the color of the Grinch and dill pickles?”
“There’s no need for sarcasm. She’s eccentric.” And then, a little huffily: “If you have to buy something to wear, send the receipt to my secretary.”
“Money’s not an issue,” I said.
“I’m sure.” A small sigh escaped through the phone, and I pictured a rattled little man with a paunch, ready to retire from a life attached to a mobster’s wife.
Less than an hour later, his secretary had reserved a room for me at a downtown Chicago hotel that she cheerfully described as “the hippest thing” and emailed my ticket with an open-ended return. Sadie consulted me several times by cell, on both fashion and my impending trip. Mama was going to finish out the week at the hospital before returning to the nursing home, probably with no memory of ever having left.
Beatrice handed me a pile of greenery and in a few minutes I ventured out of the dressing room in a mint-colored sundress with so many inside hooks and strap crossovers that it needed a book of directions. But it worked. Oddly elegant. Cinched in all the right places.
Beatrice gave me a thumbs-up.
“I’m going to look for shoes,” she said, glancing at my scuffed cowboy boots. “Back in a sec.”
It was late, almost closing time for the store. She’d left me alone with a three-way mirror and a row of closed dressing-room doors. Ten of them. Taunting me. I fell to my knees and almost stood on my head to check for any feet. My phone buzzed in my purse on the floor, near my ear, and I banged my head hard on the leg of a chair.
“Dammit!”
I wanted to throw the phone through the mirror but that would be bad luck.
I looked at the screen. Private caller. I never used to think of that as a bad thing.
“Tommie, are you alone?” Today Charla’s voice sounded like it belonged to a member of the mouse family: squeaky and barely audible. “You need to get this guard to lay off. I don’t want to be involved in your family shit, OK?”
“You need to stop calling me,” I hissed. “I got the gist the first time.”
“Be nice, will you? I’m under a lot of stress. Last night, the girl across from me hung herself with a pair of silk thong panties her boyfriend snuck in on his own ass. How would you like to wake up to that picture?”
I wasn’t sure whether she was talking about the hanging or the cross-dressing.
Charla carried on her rant, now at opera-level pitch. “The food is starting to make my butt look like a beanbag. Even if I get out, nobody’s gonna want me except some loser with a small weenie who bags at Walmart. And now I got myself an exciting new career working for the mob. So don’t you be a-messin’ with me. Do you want your message or not?”
“Not really,” I said.
“Honey, you better want it. This is scary shit. Word is, your Daddy has some super-impressive connections, inside and out. I’ve been here six months and I can’t even get a guard to bring me an extra piece of pie unless I let him touch a boob. Today, a badass guard showed me a morgue picture of someone they cut in Huntsville two weeks ago. Said it was just to give me a little incentive to do my job with you properly.”
Don’t call him my Daddy.
“Girl, are you listening? Your Daddy wants you to know that quote unquoth: ‘Chicago is a dead end.’ Do you think that’s one of those double entendors or whatever they call them?”
CHAPTER 17
I threw a beat-up old Samsonite of Daddy’s onto one of the double beds and applauded myself for arriving intact in Chicago, for not strangling a hapless man in the airport security line who looked surprised-surprised!-at the order to take off his shoes and remove his laptop from its case, for not succumbing to a panic attack when the plane suddenly swayed fifteen thousand feet above the earth.
The suitcase-hard maroon plastic with a lifetime of scratches-looked anachronistic against an austere modern room, not my taste but high above the noise of Michigan Avenue. The focal point was a sleek floor lamp with a blue neon light shooting up the side that could serve double duty as a nightlight.
Almost everything in the room was coolly neutral-either white, off-white, gray, or black. In $300-an-hour-decorator-speak, the colors were likely something more poetic, like Lovers’ Moon, November Rain, and Midnight. Yep, the smart-ass part of my brain continued to click along. Maybe inspired by staring at the pink-purple OPI polish on my toenails named My Auntie Drinks Chianti. Pedicure by Maddie. You had to drink to make this stuff up.
Three hours to go.
My body had been buzzing like a dying fluorescent light since I woke up. Maybe a quarter of a pill of Xanax would have fixed that if I hadn’t been so rash.
Plopping onto the other bed, I decided I’d rather be sitting on Black Diablo than alone in a hotel room in a strange city, wondering if I might be shot at in the next few hours or poisoned with a cup of high tea. I’d had plenty of time to interpret Charla’s warning about a dead end.
I eased the green dress out of the hanging bag in the suitcase for something to do, wondering how many minutes I should allow to strap it on. It was the only dress I tried, but Beatrice insisted it was the one. Would the girl I had been a week ago have so docilely obeyed Rosalina’s peculiar request?
I opened the mini-bar. No Dr Pepper. I grabbed a Milky Way, a Sprite, and a small can of cashews. When I finished downing that, I took a long shower, carefully applied makeup, pulled my hair off my face with two of Granny’s antique silver hair combs, all while trying not to think about how Rosalina Marchetti could destroy my world with just a few words.
At one-thirty, when my nerves were about to explode, the doorman helped me climb into a cab. I barely noticed the buildings whizzing by, except when my Armenian driver screeched to a halt to deliver a stream of American curse words at pedestrian tourists. He specifically targeted anyone carrying a red American Girl bag. I counted thirty-two of them in one block and then stopped counting. I knew some mothers of Maddie’s friends who thought nothing of dropping two thousand for a mom-and-daughter weekend trip to the flagship store on Michigan Avenue.
We cruised down Lake Shore Drive, the hot wind blowing through the windows, tearing apart my hair. In Texas cabs, air-conditioning was as certain as four tires. In the Windy City, apparently not. Half-moons of armpit sweat now stained the green silk. I stared into the beautiful blue of Lake Michigan on my right, punctuated with parasails and boats, its beaches packed with every skin and bikini color.