In the second that it took Blake to respond, the worst thoughts raced through his mind. What does he want? What does he KNOW? Am I in trouble? What should I do? The rage began to boil within Blake as he knew that only someone who has something to hide would think such thoughts.
“Sure Sheriff, come on in.”
Lonnie walked in and, to Blake, appeared to notice nothing other than the bar stool he sat on. But Lonnie was a trained observer, both in the natural world and in the manmade one. He took a quick inventory of the environment before him, noting nothing unusual. A flat screen TV, a shotgun on the wall and a handmade walking stick leaning next to the sofa. Everything was in order, Lonnie surmised.
“I’m looking for a couple of fellas that live around here, Blake. They’ve been missing for going on a month now and, well, I’m just asking around to see if anybody knows anything that might help.”
“I ain’t seen ’em, Sheriff,” Blake blurted.
“Seen who?” Lonnie asked.
“Seen...whoever’s missing. I assume you’re talking about them boys I heard about.”
“Well, what’d you hear?” Lonnie asked as he watched Blake wrench his hands.
Blake was nervous and was sure the sheriff knew it. He shouldn’t have answered so quickly, so abruptly. He felt out of control, as if he was being interrogated in his own home. SETTLE DOWN! He told himself, the same way he used to when it was late in the game and he needed to lead a scoring drive.
“I just heard at the coffee shop that some boys were missing,” Blake said. “Folks figured they ran off or something.”
Lonnie nodded and reached into his shirt pocket, slowly retrieving a pen and note pad. He opened it and wrote a note reminding himself to stop by the hardware store on the way home. Blake watched the sheriff write and his pulse quickened even more. What is he writing? Blake realized he couldn’t just stare at the sheriff so he surveyed the room, noticing the empty coffee pot. He realized he should offer the sheriff some coffee.
“Would you like me to make us some coffee, Sheriff?”
Lonnie looked up from his pad, and then looked at his watch. “No, thanks anyway. I gotta be heading back. Got some other folks I need to talk to on the way.”
Lonnie stood up and began walking to the door. Blake breathed a quiet sigh of relief, walked ahead and opened the door for the sheriff. Lonnie walked through, stopped in the middle of the opening and turned to face Blake, their faces only a foot apart.
“Do you know them boys?” Lonnie asked. “Jesse Simmons and Shane Dixon?
“No,” Blake said quickly and firmly.
“Hmmm...” Lonnie said, and then stood silently, his nose inches from Blake’s.
Blake thought about what, if anything else, he should say. The moment dragged out just as the sheriff wanted and just as Blake feared.
“What?” Blake asked finally.
“Well...it’s just that them boys don’t live too far from here. Jesse’s folks are dead and he lives with his uncle over on Sarah’s Creek. Shane lives over on Earls Ford Road. His folks said he was doing some work for a farmer up on Hale Ridge, or ’round them parts. Ain’t many folks that mess with farming up this way ’cept you, so I figured you might know ’em.”
“I just deliver stuff for farmers and wineries to restaurants in Athens,” Blake said.
“Yeah,” Lonnie said, looking Blake squarely in the eye. “So you don’t know them boys, then?”
Blake couldn’t remember ever having felt so scared. Oh shit, he knows! But, knows what? What is there to know?
“No,” Blake said.
Lonnie walked on through the door and pulled out his pad again to scribble a note. He glanced to his left at a woman walking up the path.
“Mornin’, ma’am,” Lonnie said as Angelica approached.
Angelica was surprised to see the sheriff, but not alarmed. She was generally happy to see anyone and would never suspect, or dread, that she was in any trouble. “Good morning, Sheriff,” she said with genuine enthusiasm.
Lonnie turned back to face Blake.
“All righty then. Well, good talking with you, Blake.” Lonnie glanced at Angelica before looking back at Blake, making sure she also got the message. “Let me know if you hear anything about them boys, will you?”
“Of course Sheriff,” Blake said. Now please LEAVE! He thought.
Lonnie tipped his hat to Angelica, got in his car, and pulled away slowly.
Blake turned and stormed into the house. Angelica stood in the driveway. The peace and calm she had felt while knitting and watching Ozzie and Tammy gave way to unease. Seeing the sheriff and watching Blake storm off brought her morning nightmare back to the foreground.
She walked into the kitchen and closed the door. Blake sat on the sofa, his chin resting in the palms of his folded hands. His mind was elsewhere, unaware of her presence. Angelica turned on the water faucet, filled the coffee pot, and poured it slowly into the coffee maker. Opening the can of Maxwell House, she put two measured scoops into the filter and turned the machine on.
Angelica stood in the kitchen and studied Blake, feeling in her gut that something was wrong but not sure how to approach him. He had become so distant, so irritable recently, that Angelica felt she had to tread cautiously when approaching him. Yet, at that moment, she realized how much she needed him. She didn’t work or have any way of producing income. Blake provided almost everything. Angelica did inherit some money from her parent’s death that she put alongside the money Blake’s lawyer won him for the car accident. Together it had been just enough to pay cash for the house, furnishings, land, and Blake’s truck. They had a great health care plan that would provide everything the baby needed if there was an emergency, but it was a plan that Nick provided to Blake by putting him on The Federal’s payroll for a nominal salary. Angelica had been thrilled, even proud of Blake, when he explained that Nick had agreed to it as part of Blake doing so much for him. With no mortgage, no car payment, and no health care costs, Blake only had to earn enough to pay utilities, a little bit of food, and minor expenses.
But what if something’s wrong? Angelica thought while watching Blake. What if he’s in trouble? What will happen to the health care? To the money that he makes to pay the bills? What would I do? What would WE do when the baby comes?
Blake sat in silence, fearing the worst for himself. Angelica stood fifteen feet away, in silence, fearing the worst for herself and for her baby. The coffee maker stopped dripping and Angelica took a cup, filling it with black coffee. She walked around the bar and stood before Blake before speaking softly.
“Mornin’ sweetie. Here’s your coffee.”
Blake looked up at the cup before him, at the woman before him. He saw what he had once seen, but had lost sight of. He saw an angel. He stared without expression into her eyes through the smallest of tears that threatened to flood his own eyes. How could I have lost sight of her? Of our baby? Of what’s important? What the hell is wrong with me? Blake was in shock, both at Angelica’s grace and beauty and at his own greed, his own stupidity. How had he gotten himself into this mess?
“Blake?”
He realized that Angelica was still holding the coffee.
“Sorry, sweetie,” he said lovingly. It was all Angelica needed. She seemed to have no capacity to hold grudges, to stay angry. She had only the capacity to forgive, to comfort. To love. She smiled at the first truly kind words Blake had uttered to her in months. As she sat beside him, Angelica placed her left hand on his right knee. She wanted to know what the sheriff wanted but feared it would upset Blake if she asked directly, so she took another approach.
“Is everything okay, hon?”