“Thanks.” She smiled at him. “Why don’t we play it by ear and see how I do? Would that be okay?”
“Yup.”
“You are … pretty wonderful, you know that?”
“Not really, but if you think so? All that matters.”
At that, he kissed her the way he always did, taking over, owning her in some indescribable way. But then he was getting out of bed, his naked body gleaming in the light from the hall—
Shoot, the man dressed with disarming efficiency.
She could have used a longer show.
And maybe he was right. After the funeral, maybe getting together was a good idea, a way of taking her mind off things…
All too soon he was standing at the foot of her bed, looming with that body of his, dressed in what she’d taken off of him.
“Can I make you coffee on my way out?” he said.
“I think I might go back to sleep.”
“Oh, man, did I keep you up last night?”
“You don’t sound very sorry about it.”
He came around and ducked down. “That’s because I’m not.”
The kiss was a lingering one, telling her more than words could how much he had valued the night before … and however many nights might be coming for them in the future.
“This is the first time in a long time …” She hesitated.
“What?”
“I just … I haven’t really been looking forward to the future.” As it dawned on her how that could be taken, she rushed ahead. “Wait, wait, not that I’m thinking anything nutty—I swear. It’s … I don’t know. I love my jobs and my life, I really do. I just haven’t been excited about anything for a long while.”
Duke stared into her eyes for the longest time. “Me neither.”
By nine a.m., the sun was rarin’ to go, rising up over the tree line and throwing out the kind of BTUs that suggested winter was well fucked, and summer not just a hypothetical.
Having pulled into work, Duke parked his truck where he always did in the lot beside the Shed—but instead of getting out and moving along to clock in, he just stared through the chain-link fence at that great, rising fireball.
With a slow, deliberate circle, he ran his hand around the steering wheel, even though he wasn’t just in park, his engine was off: nowhere to go, but driving anyway.
After he’d left Cait’s, he’d gone home, and found Rolly out cold, but breathing on the sofa. At that point, he’d listened to a message from his supervisor, left sometime the night before, and discovered he was pulling a full shift in the morning—good news. And then Alex Hess had texted him that she was putting him back on the schedule at the Iron Mask next week—better news.
Ordinarily, he hated free time.
Although … with Cait on the horizon? Wasn’t so sure about that anymore. Especially because nights were when they were likely to see each other.
How much had she slept in? he wondered.
God, how long had it been since he’d thought like that? Since Nicole.
Yeah, and you know how that worked out, a part of him bitched.
“Shut it.”
When his brain didn’t cough up anything else, he smiled harshly. Nice change of pace—you argue with yourself and sometimes you could really get through to the other guy.
… it’s a huge reminder of how easily people’s destinies can get off-track …
Fuck. That one sentence had been banging around his head since he’d pulled away from the curb in front of his woman’s house. Over and over. To the point where it was driving him batshit.
Taking his phone out, he put in the password, went into his voice mails, and just looked at the list. Nicole’s newest had been the third he’d received while he’d been at Cait’s, and unlike the other two, he’d listened to what she’d left a number of times.
As he stared at his phone, he thought, See, this was why you stayed in your comfort zone. You started making a connection with someone, your ice got broken … and then you started doing stupid fucking shit.
He probably would have been okay if Cait hadn’t brought up that student of hers. For some reason, that was hammering in his head, too.
“I’m losing my mind,” he said as he looked out of his truck’s windshield again. “Losing it…”
As with his attraction to Cait, he couldn’t exactly explain why things were so different for him all of a sudden. Well, not completely different. He was still focused on payback when it came to his brother. But it seemed as if some other hand was on his steering wheel, turning him this way. That way. In a circle.
Refocusing on his phone, he watched from what felt like the distance of a mile as his thumb hit … call back.
Just as the ringing started, he caught a flash of movement out of the corner of his eye. It was the blond-haired man who had tailed him yesterday, stepping out from behind another parked truck. With all the nonchalance of someone who held most of the cards, he put a cigarette between his teeth and flicked a Bic, leaning into the flame.
As he exhaled, he lifted his hand in a wave.
“Hello?” came the response through the phone.
Hang up, Duke ordered himself. Hang the fuck up—you don’t want to do this…
“Hello,” he heard himself say.
Chapter
Forty-nine
“So you can understand why we’re curious about where you were.”
As the question came at G.B., he kept his cool, smiling at the detective who was sitting across the interrogation table from him.
First thing this morning, he’d gotten the call to come down to the Caldwell Police Department, and of course he’d complied. He wasn’t stupid.
And he’d watched enough episodes of The First 48 to know how to act.
“You’re just doing your job,” G.B. said with a casual shrug. “But I don’t have anything else to tell you.”
Detective … what was his name? de la Truz? … smiled back. “Well, you could explain why you didn’t think to mention that you and Jennifer Espie had been in a relationship.”
G.B. linked his hands in his lap and was careful to hold eye contact steadily. “That’s because we weren’t.”
“If you want to mince words, fine. But you didn’t tell us you two were sleeping together.”
“It wasn’t a regular thing, Detective. Come on, I’m so busy with work, I have no personal life. She and I have some friends in common, and yeah, sure, we hooked up a couple of times, but it wasn’t anything serious. I just didn’t think it was relevant.”
“The girl was murdered in the theater you both work in, and you didn’t consider the idea that disclosing your past relations might be a good idea?”
“What can I say. I’m a singer, not a lawyer.”
The guy flipped through his little notebook. “I hear you’re an actor, too.”
“Rent’s my first musical.”
Brown eyes lifted. “The director says you’re a natural.”
“That’s really cool of him.”
“He says you’re able to summon emotion on a dime.”
“Well, that’s part of the gig, isn’t it?”
De la Whoever smiled again. “Yeah. It is. Which brings me to another question I have. One of the promoters for that jazz concert you sang backup in … what was that singer’s name? Millicent?”
“Millicent Jayson.”
“Yeah, that’s the one. Anyway, the promoter said before you went onstage that night, he saw you and Jennifer arguing in her office. You know, the one with all the glass?”
G.B. had expected this. “She was upset with me.”
“And why was that?”
“Like I told you, we didn’t have a regular thing going. She wanted that, though. And she got all up in my face.”