The cabin crew moved through again, this time horizontally, assessing the state of the passengers, returning Kate’s pen. Later, over the general address, the steward admonished all of them: “Be cautious of releasing hard objects, Nadiin, which might lodge in secret and become missiles during accelerations.”
It occurred to Bren that he wouldn’t want to contest with Banichi’s mass in any free-fall encounter. And he didn’t want to receive Kate’s pen on the return, either.
At a downward tug from Jason on his jacket, he secured a hold on the seat and drew himself back in… just before the senior steward said, in Mosphei’, “Please be seated for the duration.” The stewards had practiced that. “For your safety.”
The Mospheirans did listen. Buckles clicked, instant obedience.
Bren fastened his own. Jason had reacted to the effect of leaves and sunlight on the planet in utter panic. He measured the fear of vacuum, the fear of movement, against other fears he’d suffered, fears of drawn guns, fears of falling off mountains. This was visceral, a war against lifelong experience, the laws of nature overset… as far as his body was concerned. But his senses weren’t skewed, nothing except that tendency to look about in panic. Too many surfaces, he decided: all of a sudden too much change. He calmed himself. Thought of lily ponds on the mainland. A formal garden.
“We shall be braking, Nadiin.”
He wished they’d been able to have windows. He did wish that. The monitors weren’t straight-line forward. The cameras had moved to track the station; he began to figure that out. Of course. They were gimbaled, to track anything outside they needed to. The crew was giving them a view. It was giving him extreme disorientation.
Jase talked to him, small matters, observations: “We brake to overtake,” Jase reminded him. He knew that. Gravity-tied to the planet, they couldn’t catch the station by accelerating: the result would be a higher and higher orbit, missing the equally-bound station. Their path was simply—simply!—to coincide with it and brake slightly, little by little.
That would drop them in the orbital path to line up with the docking stem.
“There we go,” Jase said. Jase knew he was scared.
He’d sweated through this, every docking from the first one; knew this whole docking business was another troubled sequence. He bit his lip and prayed there was no mistake.
“Easy,” Jase said, salt in a wound.
“I’m fine” he said. Jase had used to say that. Jase prudently didn’t remind him.
The image, over a long, long nervous approach, resolved itself from one dot to two connected dots.
Finally into a ring with that second dot against the stem.
Kate pointed to it as the camera suddenly brought it up close, while Jason just said, in a low voice, “ Phoenix.”
Chapter 9
The cameras on close-up, as they glided past, showed a battered surface, not the pristine white Bren had once imagined Phoenixto be. She was sooted, discolored with black and with rust-color, streaked and ablated on the leading edges.
Their ship. The ship. She carried the dust of solar systems, the outpourings of volcanoes on Maudit’s moons, the cosmic dust of wherever Phoenixhad voyaged… and the scars of the first accursed sun where Phoenixhad lost so many lives. Jason’s forefathers. His own.
The whole world had seen the scarred image on the television during the first shuttle flights, and the sight had shocked everyone, moving some even to question whether it was the same ship. Phoenixin all Mospheiran accounts was always portrayed shining white, though every schoolchild also memorized the truth that the earth of the atevi was in a debris-filled, dangerous solar system, that the colonists had rebelled against Phoenix’splans for refueling principally because fatalities were so much a part of mining.
The image of authority. The ark that had carried all their ancestors on two epic journeys, and a third… without the colonists, but with Jase’s fellow crew. Bren felt a chill go over his skin, felt a stir in his heart, an awe he hadn’t entirely expected.
Now the outcome of this last voyage, this run home with hostile observers behind them. The captains had no disposition to die without a struggle, as hard a struggle as their compatriots back in this solar system could make of it, with or without their consent.
Welcome to the space age. Welcome to the universe we’vemade, and the consequences of all we’vedone.
“Stand by, Nadiin, for braking.—Sirs, ladies, prepare your safety belts. Secure all items.”
Bren tugged the belt tight, fastened the shoulder belt as Jason unhurriedly, confidently at home, did the same.
He glanced across the aisle and saw his security belted in, looking as calm as if they sat in their own apartment.
There was no stir from elsewhere. This was the sequence that had fouled on the first flight, nearly ended the mission in a dangerous spacewalk.
“Homecoming,” Jase said.
“Nervous?” he asked Jase.
“As hell,” Jase confessed, and took a deep breath. “I don’t mind traveling in space at all. It’s stopping short of large objects that scares me.”
Bren felt safe enough to retaliate. “Better than skimming the surface of planets, isn’t it?”
The engines cut in. Jase grabbed the armrests. “I hate that, too. I really hate this part.”
Hard braking. Jase was not comforting.
Warnings flashed on the side-view screen in two languages: in general, stay belted, don’t interfere with crew, and don’t interfere with the pilot.
The mechanisms are old, figured in the explanation.
“There’s an understatement,” Jase muttered.
This time, however, the locking mechanism didn’t faiclass="underline" the grapple bumped, thumped… engaged.
“We have docked,” came the word from the pilot.
There were multiple sighs of relief. A buckle clicked.
“Please stay close to your seats,” the steward said. “We have yet to perform various tasks and assure the connection.”
Bump.
Gentle bump.
Second jolt, second crash of hydraulics engaged. Bren told his heart to slow down.
They were in. Locked.
“Made it,” he said.
“Bren,” Jase said, in one of those I’ve got something to saytones of voice.
“What?”
“You think Tabini’s ever advised them yet we’re not the test cargo?”
“I’m sure he has.—Worried?”
“Now that I’m here, I’m worried.”
Second thoughts were setting in, in a way he didn’t have to entertain, because hedidn’t have any options here. “About them—or us?”
“Just—worried.”
“Survival of the atevi, Jase. Survival of all of us. If you’ve got second thoughts about rejoining your crew…”
“I have no choice.”
“I canclaim you as a charge d’affaires, under Tabini’s wing, and I know he’ll back me on it. You can talk to Ramirez from that protection, inside our quarters, if you think you need it.”
“You don’t have quarters here… you don’t knowyou have.”