I looked to see what had so preoccupied him, when by all rights he should have passed out a dozen times, and understood immediately. It wasn’t over; the fury in the faces of the Pasaedan front line was ample testament to that. That barrier of armed men was moving, not towards us exactly, but swelling and shifting like water tugging at a shore. From all around there came a mounting blare of raised and outraged voices.
Was it only that their commander was dead? Or was it worse that he’d been cut down in so underhand a way? It occurred to me that Mounteban had died imagining he’d saved us, when in all likelihood he’d achieved nothing but to have us torn apart by an angry mob. Even if that rabble might be convinced to honour Ludovoco’s word, they had other officers, and what possible reason would any of them have to let us go? The noise from all around was a rising tide — and I had no doubt that at any moment it would drown us.
Someone broke ranks then, and he’d taken a dozen steps before I convinced my panicked brain that his advance wasn’t the beginning of a massacre. For the man approaching us was Ondeges, and his appearance set my heart on edge between hope and fresh trepidation. From what Gailus had said, Ondeges was an ally, sympathetic to Altapasaeda’s cause, but he was also Ludovoco’s second, and if he chose to pursue his fellow officer’s cause against Alvantes, it would be a short fight indeed.
Ondeges came to a smart halt before our ravaged group. His steady gaze took in us all and settled upon Estrada. Loud enough that the Pasaedan soldiers at his back could hear every bit as well as we could, he said, “The duel is over. One man is dead. The other lives.” He paused to weather a ripple of protest from his own lines and then raised his voice to continue. “By the terms agreed by Commander Ludovoco and as his second, I declare you free to go.”
Estrada hurried towards him, paused only when she saw Ondeges’s look of warning. “Commander,” she said softly, “thank you.”
“Leave now,” replied Ondeges, matching his volume to hers. “I’d find a stretcher for Alvantes, but if you wait I fear it would do him no good anyway. I’ll make sure your dead are brought to the gates before nightfall. Hurry, before they realise how little they care for my word.”
“Captain Ondeges,” Estrada said, “this is…”
“Nothing!” Ondeges hissed. Then, more gently he added, “A gesture… nothing more.” He looked inexpressibly weary. Though his uniform was fresh, unstained by battle, he seemed every bit as exhausted as the most haggard of our party.
And suddenly, I understood. Everything I could have wanted to know about Ondeges was written clear upon his face. I knew how he’d worked for peace, how he’d challenged Ludovoco and even the King himself; I knew he’d risked his own life in doing so. For a moment, his gaze fell upon Kalyxis, and the rage I saw there was the bitter hatred of a man whose every plan had been brought crashing down, without sense or reason.
Then Ondeges looked back to Estrada and said, with perfect calm, “Nothing will make Panchessa change his mind now. Go while you can, pass the night as well as you’re able… because tomorrow this army will be inside your walls, and there won’t be a damn thing you or I can do about it.”
CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
We trooped back through the suburbs of Altapasaeda, less than twenty men and women passing where fifty had set out less than three hours before. There was myself and Estrada, Kalyxis and Malekrin; the remaining few, survivors of our fighting escort, were led by Navare, and bore Alvantes in a sling made hastily from their cloaks. He had slipped from awareness as we left the battlefield, and now his soft, unconscious groans were the only sound anyone made beside the slap of boots in mud.
As for the giants, they kept their distance, Saltlick leading and the remaining four carrying their fallen brother hefted upon their shoulders. Moving together like that, faces void of expression, armoured legs rising and falling in step, they none of them looked alive. I was reminded of a mechanism, like the cranes upon the docks of Altapasaeda, its parts blank and smooth. When they paused, I could only think of some great table rock made formless by the passing of centuries.
We’d survived — a few of us. Ludovoco, foremost of our enemies besides the King himself, was dead. Yet so was Mounteban, who for all my hatred I couldn’t deny had fought staunchly for the city these last days; so, perhaps, would Alvantes be before the day was done. Gueverro had been cut down, along with many of our best fighting men. Not to mention a giant — a creature out of history, out of myth, with no right even to be on a Castovalian battlefield.
I’d lived to see another dawn. But, as the gates of Altapasaeda came finally into view, all I could feel was despair. Thanks to Panchessa and Kalyxis and their decades-old hatred, our last chance of peace was lost.
All that was left, all tomorrow could bring, was war. And as Ondeges had been so good as to point out, it was a war we stood no hope of winning.
Within the city we were met by a small crowd, blank-faced folk of various trades who watched as we struggled through a narrow opening in the northwestern gates. They didn’t react to our arrival, nor did they attempt to question us — and no one, not even Estrada, tried to meet their gaze. As the last wounded man was helped inside, they broke up and began to mill away.
They’d waited to see if there was any hope for Altapasaeda. Now they had their answer.
I might not have fought in any meaningful sense, but I didn’t believe I could have been any wearier if I had. It felt as if someone had removed each of my bones and replaced them with bars of lead. Free of the Suburbs, back in the relative safety of Altapasaeda, my fear was dulling to torpor. We’d tried and we’d failed; now, for all I stood to gain, I might as well lie down in the street and steal a few blessed hours of sleep before the end came.
I didn’t imagine anyone would have cared if I had. Yet, though every step was like hefting a sledgehammer, I kept the pace. On some level I knew it was the right thing, the only thing left to do. Those of us who remained had been through something that would be burned into my thoughts for whatever remained of my life. If I closed my eyes I saw blood and filth and the bodies of the dead and dying. It would be a disservice to their memory to collapse now, when there was so much worse still to come.
I didn’t notice at first when Saltlick and his giants broke from our pathetic column. Though they could easily have outpaced us, they’d been trailing behind, keeping what for them must have been the slowest of paces. Some sound or instinct made me glance sluggishly over my shoulder and I realised Saltlick had already vanished, that the last two giants were trailing into a side street. Given everything that we’d seen and endured over the last hour, I was surprised by how much it stung me that he’d left without any goodbye.
Just then, however, it was only another dull pain amongst others, a drop in a brimming lake; I was quick enough to put it from my mind. I felt as if I was trudging through thick fog, a miasma that hung just on the edge of vision. I took nothing in, paid no attention to the buildings I could dimly discern to either side. I had no idea or interest in where we were going. It was impossible to imagine a reason it would matter, so why concern myself?
Thus, it came as a surprise when I looked up and discovered that Estrada had led us back to the Dancing Cat. As always, there were men on the door, two of Castilio Mounteban’s prized thugs. One eyed us sceptically while the other stepped to block our way.
“Mounteban?” the first asked.
Estrada shook her head.
He looked as if he wanted to say something more — his mouth half formed around it. Instead, he caught his companion roughly by the shoulder and drew him aside, indicating by the barest tilt of his head that we could go inside if we so chose.