Everything you had is gone now. You will never leave another trace on this world.
At 7:35 that morning, Fang Mu was awakened by a phone call. It was Tai Wei. He said that Ma Kai had been executed at 2:50 a.m. One shot to the head. He did not suffer.
CHAPTER 11
Teacher's College felt deserted during summer break. Walking through campus with the hot sun overhead, Fang Mu passed familiar sights on either side; dormitories, dining halls, academic buildings and the track and field stadium. But there were unfamiliar ones, too, like brand new dorms where old ones had once stood. He found himself looking around as if it was his first time there, though it wasn't warm nostalgia he felt. It was loss.
Fang Mu had already been on break for three weeks. After returning home to ChanghongCity, he had done his best to be an obedient son. His mom was delighted to have him around, and cooked a different, delicious meal for him every day. There never seemed to be much to do. If he wasn't online then he was watching DVDs with his dad or biking aimlessly through the streets. ChanghongCity had changed enormously. Many of the places that he remembered so vividly now looked completely different, and he often ended up lost in areas that he used to know well. When some of his old high school classmates invited him to a reunion, he found an excuse not to go.
One day, while helping his mom to clean the house, Fang Mu found a bunch of old clothes and toys from when he was young. After much time and effort spent writhing about on the ground, he finally managed to squeeze into one of his old elementary school uniforms. His mom burst out laughing when he showed her. Then, when he was almost done straightening up, he happened upon the cane he had used two years ago. After thinking about it for a moment, he decided to take the bus to Teacher's College.
It had already been four months since he'd last visited. In that time, the school had built a number of new facilities. The old student club was now a four-story recreation center. Although it wasn't finished yet, it still looked very impressive. After standing outside for a while and looking up, Fang Mu decided to head in and check it out, but he was stopped at the entrance by several men wearing hardhats. Feeling a mix of disappointment and relief, he didn't stop to argue. Instead, he turned around and went straight to Dormitory 2.
Dormitory 2 was now a modern, seven-story student apartment building. As usual, Fang Mu sat amid the flower beds on a bench facing the front door and stared up at the huge structure. The faint fragrance of fresh, unknown flowers surrounded him. Occasionally a dragonfly would flit by, the bravest pausing to land on his body. The sun was blindingly bright, forcing him to squint as it flashed off the building's tiled exterior. On the left side of the third floor there had once been two ratty, wood-framed windows. Now these were made of steel and plastic and shut tight like all the rest since the students were away on break. Fang Mu took all this in for a moment, and then stood up and walked over to the building's main door.
The old iron doorway covered in peeling paint had been replaced by double doors of toughened glass. Walking inside, Fang Mu felt cool air wash over him. The floor was marble, shiny enough to reflect his face. Hearing his footsteps, a roughly 40-year-old woman holding a half-knit sweater stuck her head out of the on-duty room. Fang Mu nodded at her like a long-time resident and walked straight for the stairs. She watched him go for a moment, skeptical, but then shrunk back into her room.
He climbed to the third floor. The hallway he arrived at was completely unfamiliar to him. Where Room 352 had once been there was now a stairwell, and all the dorm rooms on either side of the hall were hidden behind heavy antitheft doors. Fang Mu stood for a moment in the hallway, feeling rather at a loss. Suddenly, a door opened behind him and out scurried a shirtless young man wearing shorts and sandals and holding a washbasin. Seeing Fang Mu, he nearly jumped in surprise. Then he frowned and said, "Hey, who you are looking for?"
Fang Mu looked at the room the student had just left: 349.
"Where is Room Three-Fifty-Two?" he asked.
"Three-fifty-two?" said the student with surprise. "There is no Room Three-Fifty-Two on this floor. Look for yourself." He pointed at the rooms on either side of the corridor. "Three-forty-nine, three-fifty, three-fifty-one, three-fifty-three. There's no three-fifty-two."
"Why not?"
"I can't say for sure, but I did hear one of the older students say that in the old Dormitory Two, a bunch of people died in Room Three-Fifty-Two, so after the building was rebuilt they decided to get rid of it." He studied Fang Mu, his expression curious. "Are you looking for someone from that room?"
Fang Mu didn't answer, just turned and walked back downstairs.
One room, one number, four people. All lost to oblivion in the cold solidity of this new building.
They had knocked it down and built it back up, hoping to seal away those memories forever.
If only it were that easy.
Walking back through campus, Fang Mu happened to brush shoulders with a middle-aged woman who looked to be in a hurry. She glanced at him as she passed. Then a moment later she stopped in her tracks and called out: "Fang Mu, is that you?"
Fang Mu looked back. He recognized her. It was Librarian Zhao.
She smiled. "It really is you," she said, looking him over. "You're a little thin, but otherwise you look the same."
Librarian Zhao was the first familiar face Fang Mu had seen that whole afternoon. He too couldn't help but smile.
"How are you, Librarian Zhao?" he asked.
"Oh, I'm fine, I'm fine." She placed a hand on his shoulder. "I've heard you're attending graduate school at JiangbinCityUniversity. How do you like it? Must be pretty exciting."
"It's all right."
As she gave his thin face a longer scrutiny, her tone softened. "I haven't seen you since you graduated," she said, sighing. "Though after what happened I can't really blame you."
Fang Mu looked down and said nothing. He could feel the warmth of her hand on his shoulder.
"By now that whole thing is almost a legend here. People are always asking about it, even over the past few days. Someone even wanted to know about you specifically." Taking no notice of his expression at this point, she continued. "I know it all sounds a little ridiculous, but college students are so superstitious these days; none of them would ever checkout that book anymore…"
Fang Mu frowned. "Someone was asking about me?"
"That's right. It was a man, a little over thirty. He seemed very professional. He even borrowed that book everyone is so scared of and read it for several hours."
Probably Tai Wei. What a snoop.
Seeing the look on his face, Librarian Zhao realized that it would be best not to bring all this up. Suddenly her voice became cheerful. "How about I treat you to lunch? As I recall, I still owe you a meal."
Fang Mu was about to decline when the cell phone in his pocket suddenly rang.
The phone, a gift from his mom, was a newer model Motorola and not cheap. Although this meant she could get in touch with him at all times, he knew that he was still young and she was obviously concerned about him, so he had gone along with it. After all, the thing was pretty cool.
Answering the phone, he heard his mom's voice on the other end. "Fang Mu, where'd you run off to now?"
"Oh, I just went to buy some computer games," he lied. "I'll be back soon."
"Was that your girlfriend?" asked Librarian Zhao with a smile once Fang Mu had hung up the phone.
"No, just my mom. She wants me to head home." The topic made Fang Mu even more uncomfortable.
She laughed. "Then you'd better hurry. Remember to look me up next time you stop by."