The mirror has been lifted off the bureau and put on the floor against the wall.
She walks slowly up and down and looks at the skirt in it.
“I think that’s about right,” says Miss Gurley, down on her knees and looking into the mirror, too, but as if the skirt were miles and miles away.
But, twitching the purple skirt with her thin white hands, she says desperately, “I don’t know what they’re wearing any more. I have no idea!” It turns to a sort of wail.
“Now, now,” soothes Miss Gurley. “I do think that’s about right. Don’t you?” She appeals to my grandmother and me.
Light, musical, constant sounds are coming from Nate’s shop. It sounds as though he were making a wheel rim.
She sees me in the mirror and turns on me: “Stop sucking your thumb!”
Then in a moment she turns to me again and demands, “Do you know what I want?”
“No.”
“I want some humbugs. I’m dying for some humbugs. I don’t think I’ve had any humbugs for years and years and years. If I give you some pennies, will you go to Mealy’s and buy me a bag?”
To be sent on an errand! Everything is all right.
Humbugs are a kind of candy, although not a kind I am particularly fond of. They are brown, like brook water, but hard, and shaped like little twisted pillows. They last a long time, but lack the spit-producing brilliance of cherry or strawberry.
Mealy runs a little shop where she sells candy and bananas and oranges and all kinds of things she crochets. At Christmas, she sells toys, but only at Christmas. Her real name is Amelia. She also takes care of the telephone switchboard for the village, in her dining room.
Somebody finds a black pocketbook in the bureau. She counts out five big pennies into my hand, in a column, then one more.
“That one’s for you. So you won’t eat up all my humbugs on the way home.”
Further instructions:
“Don’t run all the way.”
“Don’t stop on the bridge.”
I do run, by Nate’s shop, glimpsing him inside, pumping away with one hand. We wave. The beautiful, big Newfoundland dog is there again and comes out, bounding along with me a ways.
I do not stop on the bridge but slow down long enough to find out the years on the pennies. King George is much bigger than on a five-cent piece, brown as an Indian in copper, but he wears the same clothes; on a penny, one can make out the little ermine trimmings on his coat.
Mealy has a bell that rings when you go in so that she’ll hear you if she’s at the switchboard. The shop is a step down, dark, with a counter along one side. The ceiling is low and the floor has settled well over to the counter side. Mealy is broad and fat and it looks as though she and the counter and the showcase, stuffed dimly with things every which way, were settling down together out of sight.
Five pennies buys a great many humbugs. I must not take too long to decide what I want for myself. I must get back quickly, quickly, while Miss Gurley is there and everyone is upstairs and the dress is still on. Without taking time to think, quickly I point at the brightest thing. It is a ball, glistening solidly with crystals of pink and yellow sugar, hung, impractically, on an elastic, like a real elastic ball. I know I don’t even care for the inside of it, which is soft, but I wind most of the elastic around my arm, to keep the ball off the ground, at least, and start hopefully back.
* * *
But one night, in the middle of the night, there is a fire. The church bell wakes me up. It is in the room with me; red flames are burning the wallpaper beside the bed. I suppose I shriek.
The door opens. My younger aunt comes in. There is a lamp lit in the hall and everyone is talking at once.
“Don’t cry!” my aunt almost shouts at me. “It’s just a fire. Way up the road. It isn’t going to hurt you. Don’t cry!”
“Will! Will!” My grandmother is calling my grandfather. “Do you have to go?”
“No, don’t go, Dad!”
“It looks like McLean’s place.” My grandfather sounds muffled.
“Oh, not their new barn!” My grandmother.
“You can’t tell from here.” He must have his head out the window.
“She’s calling for you, Mother.” My older aunt. “I’ll go.”
“No. I’ll go.” My younger aunt.
“Light that other lamp, girl.”
My older aunt comes to my door. “It’s way off. It’s nowhere near us. The men will take care of it. Now you go to sleep.” But she leaves my door open.
“Leave her door open,” calls my grandmother just then. “Oh, why do they have to ring the bell like that? It’s enough to terrify anybody. Will, be careful.”
Sitting up in bed, I see my grandfather starting down the stairs, tucking his nightshirt into his trousers as he goes.
“Don’t make so much noise!” My older aunt and my grandmother seem to be quarreling.
“Noise! I can’t hear myself think, with that bell!”
“I bet Spurgeon’s ringing it!” They both laugh.
“It must have been heat lightning,” says my grandmother, now apparently in her bedroom, as if it were all over.
“She’s all right, Mother.” My younger aunt comes back. “I don’t think she’s scared. You can’t see the glare so much on that side of the house.”
Then my younger aunt comes into my room and gets in bed with me. She says to go to sleep, it’s way up the road. The men have to go; my grandfather has gone. It’s probably somebody’s barn full of hay, from heat lightning. It’s been such a hot summer there’s been a lot of it. The church bell stops and her voice is suddenly loud in my ear over my shoulder. The last echo of the bell lasts for a long time.
Wagons rattle by.
“Now they’re going down to the river to fill the barrels,” my aunt is murmuring against my back.
The red flame dies down on the wall, then flares again.
Wagons rattle by in the dark. Men are swearing at the horses.
“Now they’re coming back with the water. Go to sleep.”
More wagons; men’s voices. I suppose I go to sleep.
* * *
I wake up and it is the same night, the night of the fire. My aunt is getting out of bed, hurrying away. It is still dark and silent now, after the fire. No, not silent; my grandmother is crying somewhere, not in her room. It is getting gray. I hear one wagon, rumbling far off, perhaps crossing the bridge.
But now I am caught in a skein of voices, my aunts’ and my grandmother’s, saying the same things over and over, sometimes loudly, sometimes in whispers:
“Hurry. For heaven’s sake, shut the door!”
“Sh!”
“Oh, we can’t go on like this, we…”
“It’s too dangerous. Remember that…”
“Sh! Don’t let her…”
A door slams.
A door opens. The voices begin again.
I am struggling to free myself.
Wait. Wait. No one is going to scream.
Slowly, slowly it gets daylight. A different red reddens the wallpaper. Now the house is silent. I get up and dress by myself and go downstairs. My grandfather is in the kitchen alone, drinking his tea. He has made the oatmeal himself, too. He gives me some and tells me about the fire very cheerfully.
It had not been the McLeans’ new barn after all, but someone else’s barn, off the road. All the hay was lost but they had managed somehow to save part of the barn.