The feel of her neck is so soft. My body is pulsing as I wonder how soft the rest of her body feels, particularly her breasts. I lay her down on the black and white comforter. Her bedroom is dark. I dim the light so I can still see her.
“You can turn it off,” she says.
“I want to look at you.”
“I don't want you to see my body.”
“Your body is beautiful.” I remove her shirt over her head, exposing her purple bra; her breasts peek out of the top. I remove her UGG slippers and yoga pants. She has purple thong panties on to match her bra. I kiss between her thighs.
“This body is mine forever. No other man is ever going to stand in my way again. You are amazing, and I almost let you go because I was stupid.”
“Oh Chase, I have had an attraction to you since high school. I just never felt good enough for you back then, and I guess I put in my head that we could never be. When you came back, I put up a wall because I knew you could hurt me.” She looks away.
“I can never hurt you. I'll be here for you always,” I say moving her face to look at me. “I don't want to know if you'll go to Vegas with me. We can talk about that tomorrow. Right now, I just want you like this tonight, no matter what our future holds” I whisper in her ear, “The only sound I want to hear from your lips is my name as I bring you to the best orgasm of your life.”
I unclasp her bra and maneuver her panties from her body. I toss my shirt off and throw it behind me. I have Hailey in front of me… ready. I grind over top of her as I take her breasts into my mouth and nibble on her nipples. I move my tongue in a circular motion, caressing and licking her. I hear a hard breath escape her lips. I want her to know how special she is.
“Are you ready for me?”
“Yes,” she says holding my face between her hands. “I've been ready.”
Her touch sends chills down my body. “Do you have condoms?” I ask.
“No, do you?”
“No. I haven't been with anyone since Megan.”
“Well, I don't sleep around, so I don't need them.”
“Shit, are you on birth control?”
“No, but I'm due for my period in, like, five days. Very likely I'll get pregnant,” she warns.
As popular as I am, I've only been with five women; two of them were long term relationships. I don't cheat, and I don't sleep around. When I am with someone, I give my everything. The relationships with the other three girls were very short-lived. This thing with Hailey feels right. I have been careful my entire life. I never messed up or taken any risks.
I am about to take my first risk, because I want this. I see it this way: I'm mature enough. I can handle anything that comes my way.
I know Hailey isn’t the kind of person who is trying to trap me. Whatever happens… happens.
I want her, and I'm going to have her.
CHAPTER 38
Hailey
I DON'T HAVE SEX anymore. Sammy cheated on me, and I vowed off men altogether. I hadn't thought about it until Chase came into the picture, and even then I never thought it would happen. Chase asks me if I am on birth control pills or have any condoms. I avoid anything that makes me gain weight unless it’s absolutely necessary.
I’m about to have sex with Chase O’Brien. You can only write this shit in books. Every lick, every touch feels heavenly. I want to stay like this forever. He pulls my mouth to his then pushes himself inside of me, moving slowly and gently. I exhale. I feel like I’ve been holding my breath in anticipation.
My hands grip his biceps, and he stares into my eyes. “I want to be your everything,” he says.
“I need you,” I moan, as I dig my nails into his back.
His mouth caresses my neck. “You smell so good. You're so sexy,” he whispers.
I’ve never had someone say these things to me during an intimate moment. I feel tears begin, but at the same time it makes me hot for him.
“Oh, Chase.” I'm so emotional. Memories flood back. Everything all at once: my pain, my hurt, my happiness, and this moment. No one can take this moment from me… even if we have just this. He is my savior, my hero.
I can't say what's going to happen after tonight, but right now my body feels amazing, being this close to him. As he increases his thrusts, my heart races, and I am brought to culmination along with Chase. Our breathing is elated. Then we are silent.
“Are you okay?” he asks.
“Yeah, you?” Deep down, I'm an emotional mess.
“I’m perfect,” he says, moving my hair away from my face.
He puts his arms around me, and we lie like this for a while before we pleasure each other again.
Safe… two people who need each other.
It feels right, but is it?
CHAPTER 39
Chase
AT ONE POINT during our time together, I saw a tear escape Hailey’s eyes. I wish I knew what she was feeling. I didn't want to ask her; I just want her to know I am there for her.
I put my shirt on. I feel something at my foot. I look down—it’s a black and white kitty.
“You must be Twix,” I say, petting him on the head. He rubs against my hand as I pick him up. “Come on, let's go find your mother. If only you could speak.” I laugh.
Hailey is sitting at the table. She pours coffee for both of us.
“I made you bacon and eggs,” she says, smiling.
“How are you?” I ask as I butter my bagel.
“I'm good.”
“You look like you were in deep thought.” No words are spoken; she just smiles again. Is she embarrassed?
I get up from my chair and walk over to her then kiss her, giving her something to smile about. I walk back to my seat.
“I was thinking—I still want you to go to Vegas with me. Think about it. Tomorrow I'll send a car to pick you up to go to the airport. If your answer is yes, you get in the car, and we head to Vegas. If your answer is no, you don't get in the car, and I go to Vegas alone. We can figure out next steps later, when I come back.”
“Chase—” she starts to say, but I cut her off.
“I don't want to know your answer until tomorrow. I want you to really think about it.”
After I finish my delicious breakfast, I get ready to head out. “I have to be at the pharmacy soon.”
“Okay, I'll talk to you later.”
“I'll call you.” I kiss her goodbye, not knowing if this is for good or not. With the door between us, I walk away, hoping for the best.
CHAPTER 40
Hailey
DO I LIKE CHASE? YES.
Do I want to marry him and spend the rest of my life with him? This is the question I've been pondering since he left yesterday. He made me feel really special the night before. When I'm around him, my heart rate goes up, but “forever” scares the shit out of me.
Today is the day Chase is going to Vegas. He has to go over a business proposition with a man to purchase a pharmacy chain. While we are in Vegas, he wants us to get married. He says it just feels right to him. I'm hoping it's not because of Parker and Megan. I hope he doesn't feel that this will help him get over the situation.
There's a knock at the door. I'm hoping it's not the car to pick me up. Chase said they would be here at four p.m. It's only two o'clock. I still have time to decide. Knowing me, I’ll make my decision at 3:55.
I answer the door but don't see anyone. I look out my condo to the right and see Parker walking away.