It is this sobering thought that’s going through my mind as I pull down the folding stairs and climb up onto the roof of the store. Every two hours I’m responsible for updating the surf report we put up on our Web site and on the sign that hangs outside our door. That means I get to go up on the roof with my binoculars, check the waves, and read the thermometer and wind gauge. It’s like I’m a TV weather girl, except without the hair spray and a perky nickname.
I’m looking through the binoculars when I hear a voice.
“How’s it looking?”
I turn around and see that Mo has followed me up.
“Not great. The waves are one to two feet, ankle to knee high. Small, clean lines crumbling through. The wind is five to ten knots north-northeast.”
“Oh, to live in Hawaii,” she says, bringing a smile to both of us. “But I guess the struggle makes us appreciate it that much more.”
She’s talking about the fact that Florida waves are nothing compared to their relatives in California and Hawaii. I love it here, but if you want to surf in the Sunshine State you have to work at it and learn how to make a lot out of a little.
“My dad and I have talked about going out there as a graduation present,” I say. “The plan is basically to live in a tent on the North Shore of Oahu and surf until we drop.”
“You gotta love dads who teach their girls to surf,” she says with an appreciative nod. “But don’t forget that these waves gave the world Kelly Slater.” Born and raised in Florida, Kelly Slater is considered by many to be the greatest surfer of all time. I’ve got his poster on my wall.
“What brings you roof-side?” I ask.
“The view,” she replies, “and you.”
“Why me?”
It dawns on me that we’re in virtually the exact same spot that we were standing on the night of the Fourth, when she had tears in her eyes and I got the ball rolling on this whole competition thing.
“The last few days I’ve been out on the pier watching you girls practice,” she says.
“Really? I haven’t seen you there.”
“We’re supposed to be keeping it on the down low, so I’ve been hiding out,” she says with a shrug. “But there’s one thing that can’t be hidden—your talent. I don’t think you have any idea how good you are.”
“Really?”
“Really,” she says.
“How good do you think I am?”
“Beyond slamming. Way better than I was at your age.”
I give her a skeptical smile. “Nice try.”
“What do you mean?”
“You’re trying to build me up for the contest,” I say.
She shakes her head. “No, I’m trying to make sure you appreciate your talent. That you understand that it exists.”
Praise like this coming from Mo means a lot. Other than my father, she’s taught me more about surfing than anyone.
“That’s hard to believe, but thanks,” I tell her. “You don’t know how much that means to me coming from you.”
“That’s the part I thought you’d like hearing,” she says, changing the tone of the conversation. “Now I’m going to tell you something that you won’t.”
I brace myself.
“In a few months Surf Sisters will no longer be here. But you will still only be sixteen years old. You have a future in this sport.”
“What’s the part that I don’t want to hear?”
She pauses for a moment before saying it. “Surf City doesn’t have a single ranked girl on their team. Once they see what you’ve got, they’d be fools not to jump at the chance to sponsor you . . . and you’d be a fool not to take it.”
I cannot believe what I’m hearing. This is like Santa Claus coming down your chimney and telling you that there’s no such thing as Christmas. Mo cannot be telling me to join up with Surf City.
“There’s no way I would ever do that. Not with them. The only reason I’m even competing in the first place is because I want to beat them.”
“Well, that’s too bad,” she says. “You shouldn’t be surfing because of them. And you shouldn’t be surfing because of us. You should be doing it for you. I’ve been watching you and I’ve noticed a complete evolution in your style. You’ve found a spark and you should see where it takes you. You know what I think about their store. But there’s no denying that their team is outstanding . . . just like you.”
“You’re right,” I say, more confused than anything. “I don’t want to hear this.”
I don’t wait for a response. I just walk past her and head back down the stairs.
It was completely out of left field,” I say as I tell Ben about my conversation with Mo. “In a weird way it felt like she was dumping me.”
“Don’t be ridiculous,” Ben says as he tries to scrape the wax off an old surfboard. “Mo loves you. The last thing she’d do is dump you.”
Despite my mood regarding Mo and our conversation, this brings us to the best part of my new daily routine. If I’m not training or working at the shop, then the odds are pretty good that I’m with Ben. We’ve done something together every night this week. We’ve gone bowling (I was pathetic), played putt putt (I beat him on the last hole and was surprisingly obnoxious about it), and just hung out and watched TV. (He’s already got me hooked on British mystery shows.)
We’ve also started basic surfing lessons. For the first few he borrowed Black Beauty, which is what my dad calls his favorite shortboard, and now Ben’s purchased one of his own. It’s an old quad fish that he dubbed Blue Boy in keeping with my dad’s naming tradition. It’s been a while since Blue Boy has been in the water, so I’m teaching him how to strip off the old wax and start anew. He’s got it lying across two sawhorses and is bent over, hard at work.
“How’s this?” he asks as he scrapes the last bit.
“Good,” I say, inspecting it. “Very good.”
I hand him a bar of Mr. Zog’s that I picked up at the shop.
“Now start to apply the base coat. Make straight lines from one rail to the other directly perpendicular to the stringer.” The rails are the side edges, and the stringer is a thin strip of wood that runs down the center of the board and makes it stronger.
“Like this?” he asks as he carefully rubs the bar of wax across the board.
“Exactly,” I say.
I like watching him work. He does this little thing where he bites the left side of his lower lip when he concentrates, and it’s beyond cute. It’s also a sure sign that he is trying to do it perfectly. It’s a total contrast to the goofy way he is around the kids during camp.
“You know Mo was just looking out for you,” he says. “She doesn’t want you in denial. She wants to make sure you can move on after the summer.”
When he says this I realize why the conversation with Mo is bothering me so much. It’s not just the fact that she thinks I would represent Surf City. It’s the fact that she is already encouraging me to find something new after the summer. She’s trying to make it all right for me to replace Surf Sisters. And the problem is, if she can persuade me, then so can Ben.
“Is that something you can relate to?” I ask pointedly.
He starts to answer but stops when he realizes that I’ve set a trap.
“They’re two very different things,” he says, choosing his words carefully. “But, yes, I can relate to worrying about you in September.”
I put my hand on his hand to stop him for a moment, and he looks up at me.
“When the time comes for you to go back home, do not be like Mo. Don’t encourage me to meet another boy and replace you. I knew what I was getting into when I kissed you on the pier. I’m a big girl and I know that September will come. But we said this was going to be like the perfect wave. We’re going to ride it until the very end and not worry about the next one.”
He stands upright and carefully looks at me. I can tell he’s debating what he should say next. In my brain I know that he will go home and find someone new. And, theoretically, I know that I will also find someone. But, in my heart, I can’t bear the thought right now.