Chapter 199
I’m weak aren’t I?
Megu said looking down.
The two of us head to the school building. The other first years from the track and field are taking a distance from us.
Until quite recently.I thought that I would be made prostitute through Shirasaka-san’s order. I thought that I have to give up my high school days!
.Right.
Shirasaka Sousuke leftKuromoriand was about to set up his own prostitution ring. Then.he planned to make Megu one of his prostitutes. When Golden Week was over.Megu was supposed to be taken away from Yamamine house.
And yet.I met Yoshi-kun, met Minaho-san again.I felt happy that I got my emotions loosened.I’m no good
.Megu
I myself know it.I’m relying on Yoshi-kun too much. Yoshi-kun is by my side so I can still head to the classroom now. Actually.my heart is throbbing
Everyone in the class knows that Megu is Yukino’s relative.
Shirasaka Sousuke’s blood relative.
What should I do?I might become a girl that can’t live without Yoshi-kun!
Megu holds my hand tightly.
.I
It’s fine.I’ll protect you. I’ll beat up those who say anything strange about Megu!
But.Megu
Don’t do that.Yoshi-kun, that’s not the case!
Megu’s sorrowed eyes look at me.
Then that would just make me useless
.Megu?
I don’t want to be protected by Yoshi-kun. I didn’t like Yoshi-kun from that!
.What do you mean? I want to be the girl that stands beside Yoshi-kun. When I heard about Yoshi-kun’s story at the mansion.I thought I want to stay by Yoshi-kun’s side. And yet!
Megu looks down again.
Before I noticed, I’ve been depending on Yoshi-kun.relying on Minaho-san.I’ve been relying on my Yamamine parents.everyone in the club.and captain Takeshiba. I shiver from my own weak self right now.what a miserable girl I am!
Megu’s hand is trembling.
I really get fed up with my own self. During the club activities, my head calmed down and I felt startled. Ever since yesterday.I’ve been relying too much on Yoshi-kun.
Right now, yesterday is in Megu’s head.
Especially, she remembers the sex we had this early morning. Megu was strange for certain. She was drowning with her sex with me. All of this are just to escape the reality that she’s a daughter of Shirasaka Sousuke!
.I want to become stronger
Megu mutters.
.I What should I say at these times? .To this girl. .This treasuredwoman
.I thought of this but.
Words spill out of my mouth by themselves.
Getting strong.isn’t that troublesome for the body? You have to work hard and spend time training!
What am I saying?
But.in case of your mind. To strengthen your mind.
.What should I do?
Megu looks at me.
.You just need courage
I beat my chest.
.As long as you have courage then you should be able to overcome most things.your mind can be stronger with just courage alone
.Un
Megu pats her own chest.
You’re right.it’s courage
I’m glad.
Megu’s expression calmed down.
Also. I’ve been thinking about this since long ago. No matter how painful something is.it’ll end someday
.Eh? I also experienced various things but I managed somehow. No matter what hardships, sorrow.there’s definitely a time where it would end. Everything will pass away. The night will surely come!
Megu laughs.
Yoshi-kun.isn’t thatthe morning will surely come?
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I hate mornings. Another harsh day would begin again. I’m always waiting for the night time. At night.I can lie down on that sofa in the dark room and I can be alone. At that time, I was always waiting for thenighteveryday!
.When I returned from my dorm life in middle school.
My parents divorced before I noticed. My father disappeared. My gentle grandma died long ago. I’ve always been alone in that house. The darkness at night was my only refugee. If I sleep. I forget everything.
I’ve been enduring until night came, every day, until last week.
Even though it’s just a while ago.
I completely forgot about it. .I’m also no good.
I’ve been depending on everyone. Everyone has been together with me so it has become natural before I knew it.I completely depended on everyone. It’s not just Megu. I’m also miserable
Un.I must not forget the loneliness in that darkness.1
I must not forget my gratitude to Minaho-neesan for scooping me out of there. Those by my side.everyone inKuromoritoo.
Yoshi-kun, you’re not depending at all.because, Yoshi-kun’s been doing his best. You always do your best for all of our sake!
Megu grabs my arm.
She leans her body.
Also.well
I answer.
Everyone has expectations on me so I have to do my best. I want to be useful to everyone
.Yoshi-kun? I’ve always been an unwanted child .Unwanted? Un.for my parents, I was achildbirth regret
I was born so my parents can’t divorce.
.For the sake of appearances.
Therefore.after grandma died, I’ve lived carefully so that my parents won’t see me
.I hold my breath.
Therefore.I’m glad. Minaho-neesan gives me instructions.I can do something for Megu and Mana. Recently.I understand Katsuko-nee’s feelings
.Katsuko-neesan? .Un.Katsuko-nee makes delicious meals for us.I think she’s happy that she affects people like that. I think it’s very blissful to see someone who eats your bread and show a face that it’sdelicious.
Relationship with others.gives an effect.
As long as the effect is positive towards the other. Then there’s nothing happier than that.
Even I am the same.Megu, Misuzu, Mana.sometimes Nei-san too.when you show a gloomy or afraid face.when I touch you.then make your heart calm even a bit, it makes me happy
.What about Katsuko-neesan and Nagisa-neesan? Those two are adults so they will be the one to come when they really needed me.
That’s why.I’m not that worried.
When they really feel uneasy, then they will send an SOS signal properly. I understand that they will
.Right. Katsuko-neesan and Nagisa-neesan are adults
Megu looks down again.
.Yoshi-kun, sorry
.Megu?
.I was very childish
Then.she looks at me.
I never thought about Yoshi-kun at all! I’ve been looking at myself all this time.sorry!
what are you saying?
I don’t know why Megu’s apologizing at all.
Even though I promised to be a good wife!
I clench Megu’s hand.
Let’s just take it easy.let’s grow up little by little, every day. I will do so too
.Yoshi-kun I don’t know a lot about people other than me.I won’t notice it. No, I don’t understand even myself, when it comes to it, I don’t understand at all!
That is the sort of feeling I have.
I was alone every night in that darkness. There was only myself there. I don’t understand the situation around myself.
I want to know about Megu more. Misuzu, Mana, Nei-san.Katsuko-nee, Nagisa too.Margo-san and Minaho-neesan.and even Michi!
.Yoshi-kun? I.I think that I don’t understand everyone at all .That’s not true. No, that is. Because, I discover something new everyday. When I see what its in the mind that I’ve never seen until now.Oh, I didn’t understandI reflect myself multiple times!
Perhaps.human heart is a polyhedron.
When you look at it from the side it’s square.when you look from above then it’s round. But.it doesn’t contradict itself. It certainly exists as onehuman heart Therefore.you have to look at it from various angles.
I know everything about that oneorI know allat he moment you think of that, you feel you’re going to fall to a pitfall. Therefore.you must not stop making effort to know
.Yoshi-kun Then.when you think that you understand the other.you must get to the core of it.with courage
I knock my chest.
Therefore.I won’t stop making efforts to understand Megu.