.AH
.I see. Oops. Earlier, when Misuzu comforts the depressed Megu. Then Megu was crying. I was sure that Megu’s feelings had settled down but. It did the opposite. Megu’s feeling a strong inferiority towards Misuzu. She’s holding a sense of rivalry for being with me. And with the rival, Misuzu being gentle to her.she cried miserably. I just strengthened the inferiority complex.
Do you hate losing?
Nei-san asks Megu
.I hate it
Then, what do you intend to do? .I don’t know. I’m not an amazing woman like Misuzu-san.I’m can’t be kind to everyone like Misuzu-san.no courage, no strength either!
Megu’s body trembles.
Megu-chan.you’re making a big misunderstanding
Nei-san said.
Mii-chan isn’t as compost as Megu-chan thinks
But.Misuzu-san’s strong. Much more than me Then.are you just going to leave Yo-chan too Mii-chan?
Megu raised her face.
I can’t let that happen
Nei-san smiles
Then.there’s no other way but to struggle!
.Struggle
You see.I also used to think of this. I want to be needed by the one I love. When Kei-chan was alive.I’ve been clinging to Kei-chan, and it saved me
Nei-san recalls her past.
But you see.there was nothing I did for Kei-chan. As a sister, as a woman.I couldn’t do anything. I was really a nuisance for Kei-chan
Nei-san’s lost twin brother.
He was continuously violated by Cesario Viola so he can protect Nei-san. In the end, he killed Viola’s sister and got killed by her.
But you see.Recently, I’ve been thinking. As long as you’re alive, that’s good enough. I’ve got to do somethingorI want to be needed.are just your own desires. Just blow away those thoughts.there’s no need to like me, I don’t care if I’m hated. I just want to live Nei-san laughs lonely.
Kei-chan was Christian you see.did I talk about it already?
Nei-san looks at me.
Yes.I’ve heard about the story of him praying at night with Nei-san when you were confined by Viola
Nei-san back then tried to give her body to her brother.
However the Christian brother refused to have sex.
The two of them prayed to God and let the night pass.
You see, I hate to pray to a God that doesn’t help no matter how hard you try, but.Kei-chan saidGod is always by our side Yeah.just beside us. He won’t come to help
Megu and Mana are listening to Nei-san’s talk.
You see, in Christian churches in the US.you often seeGOD IS LOVEon walls. When you translate it in Japanese, it says神は愛なり.1 Those words often come to my mind!
.神は愛
If the God’s love means staying beside us and not helping.thenloveis just an act of snuggling together. Being needed by the other, helping them out.isn’t that just useless? Just staying by the side.existing.just living.I think that’s enough Kei-chan’s no longer here
Nei-san.I’ll stay by Nei-san’s side forever
I.I promised to be Nei-san’s brother in substitute for Kei-san.
I know! I’ll stay with Yo-chan forever too!
Nei-san smiles.
Megu-oneechan is overthinking.I know how it feels though
Mana said.
Mana also keep troubling Onii-chan. Mana’s the one who’s a luggage to Onii-chan. If Onii-chan hates me and abandons me someday, I won’t make any complains!
Mana leans her body on me
She’s putting my head on my chest.
.There’s no other place for Mana to live other than Onii-chan’s side
.Mana
Therefore, when I give birth to Onii-chan’s child.then I feel like I can have a passport to stay by his side
The wound in her heart is deeply rooted.
Megumi-oneesama and Michimouto is worrying too much!
Michi who’s been silently listening to the two speaks up.
.However Megumi-oneesamais fine but.Mana-imoutowhat?
Master is like a big tree. We should just enter the shade of Master and take a rest.that’s good enough!
.Michi?
I think so too. Just being by Yo-chan’s side heals us. That alone is fine
Nei-san too.
No, but.I can to anything.
In reality.I’m not confident that I’m useful to everyone.
Why? Yo-chan is always listening to us seriously you know? You always think with all your best.you even say that you like me right?
yes I love Yo-chan! Also.Yo-chan likes Megu-chan, Mana-chan, Mii-chan.Katsun, Nagisa-san, Mii-chan, Ruri-chan, Reika-san.Sensei and Maru-chan, Shige-ojii-chan, Seki-san and Yoshiko-san right? Yes.I do Yeah. Everything Yo-chan thinks comes out of his face.he’s someone who doesn’t lie. He’s kind to everyone he really likes.he makes a thorough wall for people he hates Is that so? That’s right.Yo-chan you hate that elitist guys over there right? Well.yeah
More than hate.I’m not good at dealing with them
Those people are basically rejecting Yo-chan but Yo-chan’s also shutting out his heart from them. Really.that’s so easy to understand
Nei-san smiles at me.
With that said.if Yo-chan’s not rejecting us then we can just stay by Yo-chan’s side. We can stay under the shade of the great tree called Yo-chan. Then, if Yo-chan stops accepting us someday.then that will definitely be shown in Yo-chan’s face.then, you can just go away from him Nei-san tells Megu and Mana.
But.I I want to be helpful to Yo-chan
Megu speaks in pain.
I’ve said it earlier. There’s no choice but to struggle desperately. Bet with your life
.Life?
Megu’s surprised from what Nei-san said.
That’s right. When Yo-chan dies.and he saidI’m really glad I have you, thank youthen it’ll be Megu-chan’s win. You just have to stay with him for a long, very long time. Isn’t that the only way?
Nei-san smiles.
I don’t want to have regrets like I did with Kei-chan before. Therefore, I’ll do anything I wasn’t able to do to Kei-chan for Yo-chan. I already know that Yo-chan will accept whatever trouble I give him! So I just have to spend a long life with him!
.Nei-san
If you think you want to do something then do it.Yo-chan will accept whatever it is anyway. If you can’t do it right now then don’t force yourself. Don’t rush, don’t panic.life is long after all
Nei-san promised her virginity to me.
But.that is only until Cesario Viola’s case is resolved. Kei-san’s memorial service isn’t over yet for Nei-san. We won’t be able to embrace each other. Nei-san and I know that. Therefore we don’t rush. We can just take our time slowly
Really.Yo-chan’s a big and splendid big tree. He’s rooted firmly, unmoving. I love you.Yo-chan
Me too.Nei-san
I look at Megu and Mana and Michi
I love you all girls
Michi and Mana smiles
I know.Master
Mana also loves Onii-chan!
.Megu
Yoshi-kun.do you love Yukino?
Yukino who’s been listening to our conversation endlessly turned over here.
Hmm, I like Yukino but look.Yukino doesn’t like me
Yukino’s looking at me.
Therefore.the distance between us won’t shrink anymore. No matter how many times we have sex, even if Yukino gets pregnant with my child.I don’t think it’ll change
Yukino’s the same as during the entrance ceremony
Just the same.woman from far away Back then.everyday, I thought that I could just look at Yukino from a distance. The distance between our hearts, I noticed that it’ll never approach.
.You’re right
Yukino speaks
You see.I don’t understand what you’re talking about at all. Why are you so obsesses with this man? Isn’t he just a disgusting man you don’t understand what he’s thinking!
Yeah
Someone like Yukino will never understand me. Rather than understanding.she doesn’t want to, she feels disgusted.
True, this guy’s good at sex but.that’s not all. He’s head is completely empty, he’s just a stud who’s dick is always erect!
So that’s Yukino’s evaluation of me?