I’m not confident.
I don’t think that everyone will love me forever.
There are so many people better than me in this world.
I’ve got nothing good on me, not my face, my brain, nor my muscles.
Misuzu-san says that, and I think of the same. And yet, you still don’t believe us?
Minaho-neesan looks into my face.
Well, I don’t have any talent at all. I’m being desperate to meet everyone’s expectations every day, and yet I can’t do it correctly In the end, your mother’s curse has taken a significant toll on you
My mother.
Your mother placed such heavy pressure on you because she wants you to become the perfect son she wanted
My mother.
She doesn’t even take care of me and yet she forces me to become her ideal son.
She wants me to be on the top 1 in Japan level just in the first grade of elementary.
She wants me to be polite and dress neatly.
Your son is magnificent. It must be a gift from his mother’s education, and such praises coming from teachers are what she wants.
I can’t do that.
Nobody even watches me study.
Since Grandma died, both my clothes and shoes I’m wearing are the same until it’s tattered. It needs to be unwearable, so I could buy a new one.
Even with my hair, it’s bald hill to ruffled, to bald hill and repeat.
Anyway, my mother wasn’t interested in me at all.
She doesn’t even give me a decent life and yet she asks me to become an ideal son.
In the end.
She understood that I can’t be the son she wanted, so she abandoned me.
You’re not my child, she said.
I never forgot that.
Your mother’s curse is what gives you the urge saying that you must become the ideal man for us. That if it doesn’t happen, somewhere in your heart thinks that we’ll abandon you
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Now then, what do you think we should do, Megumi?
Minaho-neesan asks Megu.
I don’t know. Everything’s becoming hard to understand for me
Megu.
Until yesterday, I thought that I’m the one who knows the most about Yoshi-kun in the family. After all, I’m Yoshi-kun’s classmate, I help him out in the bakery, we also have our own house that I made a selfish conclusion that I’m the one closest to him Megu speaks in a dark tone. But, Nikita-san happened, then after that Kana-senpai, then Takakura-san, I, all I did was get angry every time Yoshi-kun had sex with a new girl, but Nei-oneesan and Misuzu-san are thinking about Yoshi-kun and the whole family Tears gather in Megu’s eyes. Everyone thinks profoundly of Yoshi-kun more than me, I just.
The tears fell on the floor.
I feel like I’m just a drag for Yoshi-kun and this family, that I’m not needed That’s not true, Megu!
I say that but,
Be silent for now
Minaho-neesan stops me.
Megumi, sorry but we’re not done with him yet. You can voice all your complaints later. I don’t have time to talk to you right now
minaho-neesan, that’s.
i’m sorry
Megu shuts up.
Also, I need your opinion when talking to him, so I had you come. So, could you not run away? O-Okay
Megu’s opinion is necessary when talking about me? What?
Let’s get to the point
Minaho-neesan looks at me.
Are you aware that you’ve got a loose screw?
Huh?
That’s an easy question. You just have to answer
YES
or NO
That’s natural;
YES
I see. So you know
No, well.
And so, what specific part is crazy?
That’s.
Like, how these many beauties are my women That’s all? That I’m a criminal and yet I live a calm life without paying for my crimes I see. What sin? Be specific
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I raped Yukino and got her pregnant, and that I killed someone
I shot Cesario Viola with my hand.
Oh, putting Yukino-san aside, Viola’s case was legitimate self-defense. If you didn’t shoot him, then someone else would But Okay. That’s your sin
Yeah.
But, it’s too late for a trial anyway.
There’s not even a record of Cesario Viola coming to Japan.
What else?
Minaho-neesan asks me.
What other reason you have to think that you’re crazy?
I look inside my mind.
No, nothing else
Yeah, nothing else remains.
Okay. Then, close your eyes
Eyes?
Just do it O-Okay
I close my eyes.
Imagine your current self inside your head
My current self.
The you right now. Imagine yourself and all the people around you, your relationships with them
I do as Minaho-neesan says.
Inside this darkness.
I see people wrapping me.
Can you imagine it? Yeah Then, first, take out all of your women
Huh?
Just do it, start with Takakura-san Ah, o-okay Take Tsukiko-san, Yomiko-san, and Luna-san away
Tsukiko, Yomiko, and Luna disappear.
Done. Good. Next, take away Nikita-san, and Hoshizaki Kana-san
Take away Anya and Kana-senpai.
The two from Kouzuki SS
Shou-neechan and Rei-chan.
After that, Michi-san and Edie
Michi and Edie also disappear.
The two from Kouzuki house
Misuzu and Ruriko.
Mana-san and Agnes.
The two also disappears.
Katsuko, Nagisa, Mao-chan. Margo, Nei, and then me
Everyone in Kuromori disappears.
Lastly, Yukino-san and Megumi
Everyone disappears inside my heart.
Once you take away Kuromori, Cesario Viola disappears as well, doesn’t he?
Minaho-neesan said.
Everyone’s gone, aren’t they? This is you before you entered high school
That’s right.
Nobody’s on my side.
This is me, a few months ago, in front of the high school entrance ceremony.
Okay, what kind of person are you when you were alone?
Me?
Be specific. How was life when you were alone?
that’s.
Uhm, it’s dark and hopeless
My father was gone at that time, and I felt hopeless.
I’m dumb so I don’t even know what I would do in the future, I don’t have any talent, and I’m just an ordinary high school boy
DOUBT
, I say
Minaho-neesan’s voice was sharp.
That’s the mistake. Your perception is incorrect
Huh?
Open your eyes now
I open up my eyes.
Minaho-neesan sends me an earnest look.
You’re an ordinary high school boy? Don’t joke with me
why are you angry?
You’re not ordinary at all. You’re crazy. You had sex with the girl you liked and came inside her without thinking of consequences. Even though you say that you’re not confident in yourself and that you’re afraid that your women would go to another guy someday, you contradict yourself by saying I’ll protect you forever You’re filled with inconsistencies. You even faked your family register just to please Nei, also, though that’s an enormous crime, you don’t even count that as your sin. You really are half-baked Now that she mentioned it.
I had myself register as Nei’s younger brother, Keito.
I have two family registers right now, that’s indeed a crime.
I’ve even smuggled myself to the US just to commit it.
Yet I didn’t feel guilty at all.
Really, what a crazy man. Even now, you commit crimes without care for the sake of the family, don’t you? Cesario Viola’s case left a sense of guilt on you? Then, if the same thing happens, do you plan on not pulling the trigger? No, you’ll shoot it again and again to those who harm your family. You won’t even hesitate She’s right.
I think I’ll kill someone again.
The next one would be my second time so there won’t be any hesitation anymore.
And what part of that is normal?
My sense of what’s right, what’s normal, is broken.
It wasn’t an influence of Kuromori because you joined in. You’ve been crazy from the start