In short, desires, and impulse is switched to another. That is also Kou-sama’s case
Tsukiko looks at me.
I see that Kou-sama has a very strong urge when it comes to sex, but you don’t look like someone who can’t be at ease unless you rape a woman
But.
Kou-sama’s heart has a distortion indeed. I can feel it. But that distortion isn’t what Kou-sama’s thinking
My distortion.
Kou-sama, you treasure your family. You cherish them too much that it crushes your heart
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You’re too considerate of everyone, and Kou-sama, you suppress your desires too much. That’s what causes the distortion.
Tsukiko’s eyes look into my heart.
I’ll ask honestly. Kou-sama, is it fun to have sex with everyone?
That’s.
Margo-oneesama’s worried about that the most
Margo-san?
Kou-sama, you’re becoming more and more desperate that it seemed that you forget to enjoy yourself because you always think of everyone
Fun. I.
Misuzu-sama and everyone else has fun when having sex with Kou-sama. They can show their everything to Kou-sama, and they believe that you can fulfill their desires
That’s right.
Misuzu, Ruriko, and everyone believe in me.
Kou-sama wants to answer everyone’s thoughts, and you are desperate in doing your best
Oh, I.
I can’t betray them no matter what.
I must meet their expectations.
Kou-sama’s already lost the feeling of having fun
That’s.
It’s the same even when making bread
Huh, Tsukiko?
Last night, and this morning, I helped everyone bake some bread
Yeah, I late a lot of bread everyone made for me this breakfast.
It was my first time to make bread from the dough. But, it was interesting a fun experience
Making bread. Fun.
Do you feel that way, Kou-sama?
To me, making bread is.
It’s a way of living in the future.
I’m learning skills to live in the industry.
After all, I.
I have to feed all of my girls.
With this arms of mine.
I have to make them happy.
There’s no time to feel fun at all
I replied.
I’m in desperate times right now
Just like as Minaho-neesan told Megu.
I’m also.
I’m also desperate about the future.
I’m biting through this hardships.
That is Kou-sama’s distortion
Tsukiko said.
It’s not wrong to be hardworking and be earnest, but Kou-sama would break down if this continues
I won’t. I can’t. I’m not allowed to
If I break down, then I’ll trouble everyone.
I can’t allow myself to be an inconvenience.
After all, I.
I understand everyone somehow. Kou-sama, you continue to force yourself. You’re over-strained now
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And that distortion from Kou-sama’s strain is coming out in the wrong direction
Tsukiko’s eyes look to every corner of my heart.
She looks for the source of the distortion.
It’s the same in bread making and in sex. Kou-sama, you’re always concerned about Misuzu-sama and everyone when having sex that your sexual desire isn’t eased up. Your dissatisfaction and anxiety, and your sexual desire turns to a strong desire to rape That’s wrong.
But, I still raped Yukino. I followed my sexual desire and raped Yukino
That night before Golden Week,.
As soon as I raped Yukino, I was unable to stop.
I’ve kept on raping Yukino until morning.
Kou-sama’s environment back then and now are different!
Tsukiko.
Kou-sama, you keep on fussing about Yukino-san
That’s obvious, I raped Yukino forcefully
Wrong. Kou-sama, you wanted to make a way to contact Yukino-san
That’s.
That’s why you don’t need to be considerate of her compared to everyone else
If I recall, I.
I find it easy to talk to Yukino. I don’t hold back when talking to her.
You’re making a proxy inside your head, Kou-sama
Hearing that from Tsukiko who can read through my heart, I feel like I can’t excuse myself from it.
Kou-sama, you like Yukino-san. You feel a familiarity with her. But, you feel massive guilt towards her
I’m always preoccupied with the sins I did on Yukino.
Oh, I see
I want to get along with Yukino.
Even more than before.
But
But, most of my women don’t like me getting along with Yukino.
Minaho-neesan and Katsuko-nee still fill hate on Yukino.
Mana. Her distance with her has shortened, but still.
Megu, she’s on all-out when antagonizing Yukino.
It’s not allowed
You treasure everyone else more than your own heart
But I can’t do anything about it
That’s one of the distortions
Ah.
Kou-sama, if you continue to hold back, then nothing will continue. If you let this distortion grow, then you’ll break down
Breakdown.
And as for the other problem, Misuzu-sama and everyone can’t help but feel fun when living with Kou-sama. Therefore, they want you to enjoy yourself too
Yeah.
They all are considerate of me.
That’s another one of Kou-sama’s burdens
What do you mean?
Misuzu-sama and everyone likes Kou-sama to let loose. And, Misuzu-sama and everyone believes in Kou-sama having a very strong urge to rape
Therefore, they offer someone for me to rape.
Do they think that if I do, I can enjoy having sex with Misuzu and everyone?
My strained heart loosens.
I think so too
Tsukiko said.
From my conversation with Kuromori Minaho-sama and all the other senior members, from Margo-oneesama’s psychological study, and now, from reading Kou-sama’s mind, I will do this
Tsukiko, the shrine maiden who sees everything tells me.
You mean?
I’m shocked.
You mean that I’m in a worse situation than I think?
Yes. That’s what I think
The distortions accumulate inside of me.
If this goes on, everything will collapse.
But, Misuzu and everyone looks for rape partners for me,
All of it just to fix my distortion.
But, if I do that, the distortions would only increase.
But I have to meet their expectations.
That’s right. Misuzu-sama and everyone trusts Kou-sama
They all believe they can let loose everything to me.
Therefore, they can release the darkness in their minds.
I’m not allowed to run away or give up.
Geez, what should I do!
Chapter 715
Chapter 715. Tsukiko’s counseling sex (Part 3)
Margo-oneesama told me this:
A room with just two of us. We sit down on the bed and talk.
Tsukiko gently caresses my hands and continues her talk.
First experience is the most important in sex. The first experience sets the standard in sex, it becomes a benchmark
First sex.
Misuzu-sama, Ruriko-sama, and everyone else had Kou-sama as their first experience, and they don’t see a bad image in sex as a result
It’s the women I had sex with.
Naturally, that applies to Yomiko, Luna, and me. Kou-sama’s sincere and warm heart is shown through sex, and it soaks into our minds and bodies. We were a bit scared and puzzled, but after having sex with Kou-sama, we feel nothing but refreshed. It made us feel glad that we did it with Kou-sama Tsukiko said.
As Margo-oneesama said, sex with Kou-sama is about an act of love
Act of love.
Yes, as said, an act of love wouldn’t make you feel fear from sex.
Minaho-neesan, Nagisa and the other seniors’ first experience were Shirasaka Sousuke raping them.
If our first experience were something scary then I don’t think we would be smiling as much as we do now. Maybe, we’d be trembling in fear and never want to have sex again
Looking at Tsukiko’s earnest face, I noticed something.
Tsukiko, you saw Minaho-neesan and the seniors’ past, didn’t you?
Yes, they showed me a bit of their memories in the past
The fear of a man raping them.