The sad and miserable look they had.
And then, their despair for the future.
I think that if Kou-sama hadn’t been our partner, then we would’ve gone through such a horrible experience as well. I might be able to endure it but thinking about my sisters, I feel glad that it was Kou-ama
Tsukiko.
And, I understand. To Misuzu-sama and everyone, Yomiko and Luna, the first experience with Kou-sama let them recognize that sex is something beautiful, it frees their minds, and they feel Kou-sama’s love. They only understand the word rape as a spice for enjoying sex, and nothing else, do they?
Misuzu and Ruriko think that way, yes.
Kou-sama also don’t hold the desire to be sadistic towards women
If I were a real sadist, then I’d continue to have sex no matter how much the woman suffers.
But, earlier, when I was forcing Tsukiko to fellatio, she looked like she’s suffering, so I immediately stopped.
In short, my desires don’t scale to SM plays.
To everyone, having sex with Kou-sama is nothing but fun. It’s an enjoyable and safe activity. Kou-sama, you never do anything that would adversely affect our mind and bodies
Yeah, I never want to do anything that would hurt my women.
That is why we couldn’t have sex with anyone but Kou-sama now. The fun we feel doesn’t come from anyone but only from Kou-sama. We trust Kou-sama and feel safe in your arms
I get that.
Therefore, even when Misuzu-sama and others find a partner for Kou-sama to ease up your rape impulse, they won’t feel any dark emotions from it. No matter what kind of form it becomes, having sex with Kou-sama is nothing but fun and safe, -is what their belief would say Yeah, in the end, the other party would trust me that I’d make them happy.
That’ll only increase the family again.
Therefore, Misuzu and the girls try to find women who are cute and have a good personality.
They’re convinced that I hold a fantastic power.
But, Kou-sama, that’s not the case for you, is it?
Tsukiko reads my mind.
Kou-sama, your first experience was a bitter memory
I lost to my desires and raped Yukino.
That was my first experience.
Yukino hates me, so she’d never want me as her partner.
That wasn’t an act of love.
The more I rape her, the more distance it creates between us.
That’s natural.
I’m the rapist, and she’s the raped woman.
Our relationship is nothing but perpetrator and victim.
She’ll never open up to me. We’ll never understand each other.
But that hurts me.
I raped Yukino a lot of times.
I was hoping to quench my thirst from raping her, and yet,
The more I do it, the more I feel the craving.
Then.
Yukino, she. she stole and ate rice from the rice cooker in the middle of the night
She took the pot and scooped the rice from there and stuffed her cheeks with rice.
Seeing that shameful look in her, it made me understand that we can never reach an understanding
Yukino’s life will never overlap with mine.
Having that thought, it made me laugh. It past through despair and I felt refreshed
Yukino and I will never understand each other.
From then on, I keep company with her but with a distance. I can’t do anything on what’s impossible
That’s what I think.
But, in reality, you want to get along with Yukino-san, don’t you?
Tsukiko said.
Well yes, but no, we’re doing okay at least. I can talk to Yukino like normal. It’s just that there’s a deep trench in between us
Either way, I know that we will never understand each other.
I can talk to her without reserve.
That’s how it is.
Is that so?
Tsukikolooks into my eyes and mutters.
Yukino’s not really a big deal
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The problem is that Misuzu and everyone else overestimates me. They trust me that it would be fun as long as I’m their partner in sex, and I have to respond to their trust
Misuzu and Ruriko are both successors of Kouzuki house. That creates insecurity to them.
Agnes and Luna need someone to protect them. Their insecurity is that they can’t live unless someone protects them.
Nei and Edie seek family. That’s their insecurity.
Michi seeks a bond between us. Her relationship with her family isn’t going smoothly.
That’s true for Megu as well. She seeks a bond more than a family or a foster home.
Anyway, the young group all seeks trust and security from me.
One that their real family couldn’t give them.
Therefore, I can’t betray them.
But, Kou-sama
Tsukiko speaks.
You’re so desperate in answering everyone’s expectations, and yet, Kou-sama’s own insecurities aren’t appeased from having sex with everyone
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Kou-sama, if all you do is have sex like it’s work, then it won’t be fun
You’re right.
I’m not having fun in sex.
But I have no choice.
So many girls every day.
If they ask for it, then I have to satisfy them.
But.
That creates distortion in your mind, and that frustration makes you want to have rape-like sex
Is that so?
Rape-like sex means that I care less compared to having ordinary sex.
It’s all to expel the emotions inside of me.
But that doesn’t resolve my problems
I think.
Nei brought Kana-senpai as someone to eliminate my rape impulse.
In fact, I had fun ravishing Kana-senpai. I was fired up.
But.
In the end, I wasn’t able to continue raping Kana-senpai.
I felt that I want Kana-senpai to enjoy sex too.
In the end, Kana-senpai also became my woman.
In short.
Women who trust me, and I have to satisfy desires have increased by one.
Our next sex won’t be rape anymore.
This is a problem
Tsukiko sighs.
Tsukiko, what do you think I should do?
I unconsciously asked this lady who’s a year older than me.
I don’t know. I didn’t understand the meaning of sex until yesterday
Tsukiko and her sisters were raised without knowledge about sex.
Their fate was to become a shrine maiden and become partners of the big bosses of Yakuza.
It’s probably their parents who judged that their children won’t be able to bear it if they have knowledge about sex and love.
I mean, what did Minaho-neesan and Margo-san tell you about my problem, Tsukiko?
Why won’t Minaho-neesan talk to me directly?
Even if Tsukiko reads my mind.
Isn’t it a bit harsh to have Tsukiko as my counselor?
She just lost her virginity last night.
That’s because they judged that I could think together with Kou-sama if it was me
Together?
Kuromori Minaho-sama and her group are already adults. They can give Kou-sama advice as an elder
They’ll show a clear path on what should I do.
Perhaps, they’ll have an answer on how they’ll do it themselves. But they don’t think that they should give it to Kou-sama bluntly
Why?
Minaho-neesan, Margo-san, Katsuko-nee, Nagisa.
I want them to teach me the answer I need to know.
That’s because Kou-sama, your life is your own
Tsukiko?
They must be thinking that Kou-sama must be the one to arrive on the best answer you could have for your life
I see.
Minaho-neesan.
They’re starting a new life because they can’t abandon their past as former prostitutes.
Margo-san, she feels despair that she can’t return home to her Indian settlement.
I’m different.
First of all, Minaho-neesan, Margo-san, and the group were victims of sex crimes.
I’m a perpetrator.
Our premise is different.
I think that my existence is a tool for Kou-sama to find your way to end your suffering
Tsukiko reads my mind.
If I try to fool myself and have a half-baked response, then,
Tsukiko will expose that I lost my way.
As long as Tsukiko looks at me, I should be able to find my answer.
For me too, I think