"You're just fine. Keep your head down. Breathe deeply, you'll be okay in ten seconds."
Ella counted to ten and then sat up. They were both looking at her anxiously. She managed a weak grin. "Textbook lesson on how not to present your case," she said feebly.
"We've all the time in the world. Stop fussing," Derry said. "You've had a shock," Kimberly said.
"But I was fine and suddenly everything tilted."
"Could you be pregnant?" Kimberly asked.
Derry seemed startled by her question, but Ella wasn't at all put out by it. "No, when you consider all the disasters that have happened . .. and there have been many . . . that's not one of them."
"Maybe you had no breakfast?" Derry wondered.
"I can't really remember if I had or not, but that wouldn't be it."
"Your colour is coming back a little," Kimberly said. "Have a glass of water."
"You're both so kind." She sipped the water.
"Would you like us to contact a doctor for you?"
"No, Derry, thank you. It was just a silly faint. Just nerves, I imagine. At all this. And how much depends on me."
"You're not nervous, Ella. We were saying that about you just as you came in. You have no real film-making experience, yet you"re very confident and calm . .." Kimberly was admiring.
"I hope I didn't pretend to have more experience than I do . .." Ella began.
"No, indeed, you've been very open and frank, but you didn't come over as nervous to us," Derry said.
"I was fine yesterday," she said without meaning to.
They looked at each other as if unsure what to say. "And now?"
"And now, if you'll forgive me for collapsing on your floor ... I'll try not to do it again .. . now I'll try to get back to where we were." Ella's eyes were very bright.
"We don't have to ..."
"But we do have to, Derry, or I have to. This is my chance. There will be others who will get their time. Others who won't waste it by fainting on the carpet ... so I must tell you."
"Slowly, Ella, catch your breath," Kimberly laughed gently.
Ella's face was agitated. "No, there's no time for me to go slowly. I've talked to Nick about those release and disclaimer forms you spoke of. He's on top of all that. Apparently they have the same legal standing as here. And I have my notes all here, all ready when you are." She opened her file with shaking hands. She could see them watching as she tried to pull the right piece of paper out. It was protruding from the others but it still wouldn't come out properly. It seemed to take for ever.
Eventually Derry leaned over gently and took it out for her. He placed it on the table. "It's all right, Ella," he said. His voice was very gentle.
So w as Kimberly's voice when she said, "Ella, you've got it, you've convinced us."
"What?" She was confused.
"It's all right," Derry said. "No more pitching, we're going to give you the grant. All we do now is talk about how we make the film."
She looked at them wildly. In the middle of all this terrible nightmare, one thing had turned out as she had hardly dared to hope. "Seriously?" she checked as if they might only be teasing her.
"Very seriously," he said with a smile.
It was the smile that did it. She put her head down on the table and cried until they all thought her heart would break.
Chapter Ten.
Ella could barely remember how she got back to her hotel. She knew Derry and Kimberly stood together smiling at her from the foyer as the yellow cab pulled out into the New York traffic. Somewhere she heard a bell ring. Or a clock strike. It was only ten o"clock in the morning. She got to her room and called Firefly Films.
"How did it go?" She could hear the raw anxiety in Sandy's
voice.
"It's over, Sandy," she said. "It's finished. Would you believe it?"
There was a silence and then she heard Sandy speak to Nick. "Okay, Nick, she did her very best but it didn't work. She says it's over. Nick, she gave it all she could."
Kind, good Sandy, so loyal and supportive. Trying to say something to take the bleak look off the face of the man she loved.
We, Sandy ... no .. . We got it, they're giving it to us. We won, we won the grant."
Ella could hear the gasp and then the phone was handed over. Ts this possible?" Nick's voice was shaking.
"Open up the e-mail in half an hour. They're sending you a confirmation, Nick."
I don't believe you were able to go out and pitch today with everything ... with all you had to cope with. You're a hero, Ella, a bloody hero. How did you do it?"
"Don't ask too much about it. Let's just thank the Lord or someone that it worked out."
"What did you say to them, Ella? Tell us, we want to know every word, every heartbeat."
"You don't want to know."
"But we do. We've been sitting here rigidly for the last hour and a bit . .. now she's going in. Now she's saying this, now that."
"Yes."
"Ella, please, we're only here in a panic, you're there on the spot. You've done it! Tell us!"
"I fainted on the floor first, and then they lifted me back into the chair, and then when I was starting the pitch proper they said we'd got it and I cried for what seemed like an hour but may only have been fifteen minutes
"She's totally unhinged," Nick explained to Sandy. "Probably drunk as well. We're going to get nothing out of her until she calms down." "Brenda?"
"Is that you, Ella? Everything all right?"
"Yes, fine ... I just rang
"I'm so sorry about Don. It must have been a terrible shock to you."
"Yes, it was."
"And of course people who do something as terrible as that don't really know what they're doing
"No, he knew exactly what he was doing, but that's not what I'm ringing about .. ."
"Are you in ... well, where you went?"
"Yes, I'm in New York. It doesn't matter anyone knowing now. He can't send anyone after me. Actually of course he never would have."
"No, of course not," Brenda murmured reassuringly.
"It's just that we've got the funding. We can go ahead with the project now," she said proudly.
Brenda seemed astounded that she could speak of such things. "Well, now. That's wonderful. Well done. And thank God you got it over before you had all this other thing to upset you."
"Well, in fact, I didn't. I did it this morning, just after I heard about Don. I told you I'd call the moment I knew."
"You are remarkable, Ella. That's all I can say."
"No, I'm only hanging in by a thread, if you must know."
"None of us knows what's in people's minds."
"No, I'm okay, because I do know what was in his mind. He loved me. He really did. You know, he wrote me a letter just before he died. Imagine, Brenda!"
"That's ... that's ... extraordinary," Brenda stammered.
"It's amazing," Ella said and hung up. "I think she's having a nervous breakdown," Brenda said in a low voice.
"Well, she's certainly right about the documentary," Patrick replied. "Sandy was in half an hour ago to get me to sign some forms. It's all going ahead."
"But she couldn't suddenly think that guy could have loved her," Brenda said. "She spent over four months getting over him. She can't possibly believe he had a change of heart two minutes before he killed himself. It seems too simple, too easy. And not a word about what happened to Margery and the children, not to mention Ricky Rice."
"I sound more like my old father every day, but it's not over by a long chalk," Patrick said. "Deirdre, she got us the funding," Nick said. "She'd have called you from New York but it's too expensive."
"Proper order," said Deirdre. "If you're going to be tycoons, first step: you must become as tight as ticks with money."