He asked questions that never seemed intrusive, but which carried the story along. "Did he seem sad when you were in Spain together?"
"Yes, he did, sometimes. I didn't realise that it was "worry because he was preparing a hiding place. I thought it was because he wanted it to go on for ever ... the two of us there."
"Perhaps it was that," Derry suggested.
And then, later, she was telling him about the numbing shock of reading in the newspapers that he had left people without their life savings. Story after story unfolding of loss and deceit.
"What was the very worst bit?" Derry asked.
"At the start, the worst bit was the papers talking about him and his wife, this close couple which I knew they were not. That hurt a lot. But the very worst bit was my father trying to be brave. My poor, decent, hard-working father, who would never cheat anyone in his life, ending his career in disgrace because my boyfriend gave him some false leads. It was bad enough for him to know that I was having an affair with a married man, that alone was enough to upset him and my mother. But the other. That was unbearable. I literally could not bear to think about it, which was why Nick and everyone got me involved in this project, so that I wouldn't have to think any more."
"And look what you did with it!" He was admiring.
"Ah, that was due to everyone else, and now finally to you helping me. But what thanks do you get? A dog collar for Fennel. And here I am, sitting blubbing away about it, hour after hour."
"No, you're not. In fact, you're remarkably calm."
I am because he loved me. I know that now. For some months I thought that maybe I had only imagined it. Invented the whole thing for myself."
"But he's dead, Ella. You'll never see him again. Isn't that very bleak for you?"
"It's a waste, a desperate waste. But it's what happened and we have to get on with life."
"And when you get back
Til be so busy with the Quentins project, I promise .. ." she smiled at him.
"No, I don't mean that. You will have four major decisions to make about all this and quite soon."
"Four decisions?" She was surprised that he was so precise.
"One . . . whether you'll cash the bank drafts for your father. Two .. . whether you'll hand over the laptop to the authorities. Three ... if you do give it over, "will you erase the information about where his wife and family live? Four ... if you don't hand it over, what will you do with it, throw it away or hang on to it?"
"No wonder you did well in business, Derry. You have a very sharp mind. You can get down to the bones of something in seconds."
"Yes, but those are, as you say, just the bones. You have many other things to think about. It seems that you have good friends. They'll help you."
"I'll keep you informed, Derry."
"You don't need to. There's something sacred about confidences, part of that is you need never follow up unless you want to."
"That's true, but part of a confidence, if it is to be sacred, means that the listener must give as well as the talker."
"What do you mean?"
"I've told you my whole heart and life story," she said.
"You know mine." He tried to be light.
I don't, really. What is so terrible out there that you can't face visiting the country where your father was born? He's dead and as you said to me about Don, you'll never see him again."
"We're not talking the same planet here, Ella."
"I know it's not bleak for you and a waste, like it is for me. For you it's probably a good thing, because you can only hate him and what he did in retrospect. But he had to be born somewhere, and he happened to be born in my country, and that, whether you like it or not, makes you part-Irish."
"You don't understand."
"Well, tell me then."
And slowly he told her. The life of disappointment that this big square man had lived. The blame that he sent in every direction. Towards his native country for not giving him a living back in the early 1960s. To his new country for not giving him streets paved with gold as he had been led to expect. Towards his gentle, hardworking Canadian wife because she looked wistfully backwards to the peace and tranquillity of her country home. Towards his three sons who were never good enough for him, and then too good for him. Derry told the stories of the beatings and how his mother would neither leave him nor report him. His mother believed that if you said "for better or worse", then it was easy to stay when it was better, the only testing ground was when it was worse. And that was when you really did have to stay.
His face was sad and twisted when he spoke of her. "She preferred to stay in that run-down place, that place where he disappeared for days, where he had burned her with a saucepan of hot soup."
"Maybe she was just afraid to go back to her own small town in Canada."
"She'd have had nothing to fear there. She would have had peace, respect, roots .. . far away from all he had put her through."
It was clear to Ella that this woman must have had some happy times with her husband. It had not all been misery. There must have been times of hope .. . hope that they would turn a corner. She wished that she had Derry's clear mind, that somehow she could reduce it all to four main points. But it was more complicated than that. It was a lifetime of hatred and regret.
"So I have no wish to set foot in Jim Kennedy's birthplace and see all the great sights he talked about when he was drunk."
"Jim Kennedy?" she asked.
"My father. You don't think I kept his name, do you? He gave me nothing else. Why should I take his name? I changed it when I was old enough. And amazingly you are old enough to change your name quite early in life. I've called myself Derry King since I was fifteen. Since the day I went out to work." "We were asking Ella what you'd call the baby when it gets born," Maud said to Cathy Scarlet.
"Were you, now? And did she know?" Cathy smiled.
"She said we were trying to get her mind off all the equations," Simon said.
"And was she right?"
"Sort of, but we were wondering. We've thought of some great names ourselves."
Tm sure you have, but it's an oddly personal thing, Simon. Tom and I will think nearer the time."
"You'd want to think soon," Maud said reprovingly. "You never know the day or the hour."
"Well, we know vaguely the day and the hour, and it's not for another two months," Cathy said. "But the day and the hour that Ella is coming here again for a lesson is in two days" time, so I hope you've done all those problems she left you."
"Her head got mended very quickly," Simon grumbled.
"I don't think it was broken at all, to tell you the truth," Maud agreed with him.
Cathy wondered whether to tell them to go easy on her when she came back. The girl had had terrible news while she was away. But that wasn't the kind of information anyone would ever put in Maud and Simon's direction. Ella would be worse off if the twins had been warned to treat her gently. Ella's mother couldn't sleep. And she couldn't talk to Tim about it, either. Only the three of them knew the contents of the letter. Ella had said nothing on the telephone about Don's offer to give back what he had taken. Tim said he couldn't take those bank drafts to clear up his own and his clients" debts. It wouldn't be fair. There were too many other demands on the assets of Rice and Richardson. But if Ella cashed them and gave him the money, then he would have to take it. Barbara Brady prayed that she would manage to keep out of it, as her husband had pleaded that she should. It was just so hard looking at his frailty and realising that it was in Ella's power to sort all that out. "I wish he'd come over with her, could you credit him having an allergy to coming near the place," Nick complained.
"Ella says she has pages of notes," Sandy consoled him.
"And the whole thing about your man has died down," Nick said thoughtfully.