But it had worked out just fine.
In the last few moments of his father’s miserable life, Matthias twisted the radio knob over to one of the religious stations—and paused for a moment. The sermon was about Hell.
Seemed appropriate.
He watched as the final breath was taken and then the stillness came. So strange, a human being suddenly stepping over to the other side, that which had been animated becoming indistinguishable from a toaster oven or a throw rug or, shit, even a clock radio.
Matthias waited a little longer as the pallor in that face went completely gray. Then he got up, unplugged his radio, and tucked the thing under his arm.
His father’s eyes were open and staring up at the ceiling, much as Matthias’s had done at night over the years.
He didn’t flip the guy off, or spit on him, or give him a kick. He just walked past the body and went down the stairs. His final thought, as he left the house, was that it had been an interesting mental exercise…
And he wanted to see if he could do it again—
“Matthias?”
Letting out a shout, he jumped in his chair, the restaurant rushing back at him, those walls popping into place again, the ambient sounds of people eating and talking filtering into his brain once more.
As other diners looked over at him, Dee leaned in. “Are you okay?”
Her beautiful face was cast in perfect lines of compassion, her lips parted as if his distress was making it hard for her to breathe.
The removal he’d felt in his younger self slipped back into place over the center of his chest, as if the memory had recalibrated his internal hard wiring, tightening him up like a car that had had alignment problems: As he regarded the woman across from him, it was from a vital distance, a chilly objectivity putting space between them even though their chairs were no farther apart.
Emotions could be so easily faked, as he himself knew.
The smile he gave her felt different on his face—but also very familiar. “I’m perfectly fine.”
The waitress came over at that moment with his huge breakfast, and as she put it down, he could have sworn Dee sat back and smiled to herself in satisfaction.
Standing with the maître d’, Mels was through being StalkerGurl. Bad enough that she had come to the Marriott on the hunt, but to have found Matthias with that nurse? Now she had two reasons to feel like crap: She didn’t respect herself, and only a fool would compare anything but Sofia Vergara to that other woman.
As a plate the size of a countertop was put down in front of Matthias, he looked across at his eating companion with a sly smile, and—
His head turned for no good reason just as she pivoted away.
Their eyes met, and instantly, that cynical expression of his changed into something she couldn’t read—and told herself she didn’t care about.
Whatever. This was none of her business.
And she was certainly not going to bother with anything theatrical. Instead, she calmly headed for the lobby’s revolving doors—
“Mels!” came a hiss behind her.
There was no pretending he hadn’t come out after her, and no reason to ignore him.
“I didn’t mean to interrupt your breakfast,” she said as she halted and he came up to her. “And I’m on my way to a meeting. When you didn’t answer your phone, I figured I’d swing by.”
“Mels—”
“That story you asked me to check out was true. Except they spell the last name with an E. Child‘e’. The son died of an overdose, and the father was at the scene when it happened. The daughter is still alive—a defense attorney up in Boston. Father works for the government in various capacities. At least that’s what’s been in the papers. I can’t speak to things that aren’t in the public domain.” As he just stared at her, she kicked up her chin. “Well, what did you expect me to come back with?”
He rubbed his face like his head hurt. “I don’t know. I…When did the son die?”
“Not long ago. Two and a half years, maybe—”
“Your breakfast is getting cold.”
Mels glanced over at the nurse. The woman was focused solely on Matthias as she approached, like he wasn’t talking to anybody.
Okay, the female looked incredible in that dress, her body turning what was quintessentially demure into hot-dayum—
Abruptly, a flashback from the Seinfeld epi with Teri Hatcher shot through her head…yeah, those double-Ds were probably real and spectacular, too. Meanwhile, she herself relied on Wonderbra technology to push her into a C-cup range.
“I was just leaving anyway,” Mels said. “I’ll be late for my meeting otherwise.”
This got her a dismissive look from the nurse, those dark brown eyes not just hands-off, but fuck-off. “Come on, let’s go back to the table.”
Matthias just kept staring at Mels, to the point where she felt as if he were trying to tell her something. But he had cold eggs and hot legs to worry about, so his proverbial plate was full enough without her.
She threw them both a wave and fell into the foot traffic funneling out through those revolving doors.
On the far side, the sunshine was bright and cheerful as she headed for Tony’s car, and the sedan was warm inside. Settling into the driver’s seat, she gave herself a stiff lecture before starting the engine—except it didn’t do any good.
Not even the part about how a man who was mysterious and unavailable was likely to, given her reporter’s instinct, seem oh, so much more appealing than your average schlub—but that didn’t make him a good bet.
Maybe this was why she was still single. It hadn’t been for lack of dating invites. It was more likely the fact that the men who had asked her out had had steady jobs, and nice enough looks…and their memories.
No shadows, no excitement.
Nah, she was into someone with a possibly shady past and a breakfast companion who had Barbie’s body and TV-commercial hair.
Healthy, realllllly healthy.
Starting the car, she nudged into traffic, her rendezvous with Monty the Mouth set for a park about seven blocks from the hotel.
At least the timing of it all was in her favor: If she had to go back to the newsroom and pretend to be working while she stared at her computer screen, she was liable to lose it.
Goddamn men, she thought as she found another free meter, pulled a better parallel and got out.
Following the instructions she’d been given, the whole thing with Monty had shades of spy movies, with her going over to a bench under a specific maple tree. All she needed was a newspaper to hide behind and a secret word and they’d be in total shaken-not-stirred land.
Monty showed up ten minutes later, in plain clothes that marked him as a swinger type. He was in a good mood, the subterfuge clearly giving him the kind of drama injection he needed.
“Walk behind me,” he said in a low voice as he passed by.
Oh, for crissakes.
Mels shifted to the vertical when he got ten feet ahead of her, and she kept his meandering pace, wondering why the hell she was putting herself through this.
After a little stroll, they ended up down at the river’s edge, at the big Victorian boathouse where people launched their canoes and sailboats when the weather got warmer.
Stepping inside, her eyes took a moment to adjust to the dim interior, the diamond-paned windows not letting much of the sunlight in, the racks of rowboats and stacks of buoys and lineups of paddles and rolled-up sails making the place seem crowded. And it was loud in a sense, too—all around, the water clapped in and out of the docking cribs, the slapping noises echoing through the empty slips—
With a sudden explosion, barn swallows shot out of their early nests, dive-bombing them both before escaping into the open air.
As her heart settled back into a normal rhythm, she said, “So what have you got?”
Monty took out a large, flat envelope and handed it over. “I printed these out at home this morning.”