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to be returned to) by the iron and fire of civilization;

Which was all your bost (guide) could tell you, since that was all he

knew, inherited, inheritable from the town: which was enough, more than

enough in fact, since all you needed was the face framed in its blonde and

delicate vail behind the scratched glass; yourself, the stranger, the

outlander from New England or the prairies or the Pacific Coast, no longer

come by the chance or accident of kin or friend or acquaintance or

roadmap, but drawn too from ninety years away by that incredible and

terrifying passivity, watching in your turn through and beyond that old

milk-dim disfigured glass that shape, that delicate frail and useless bone

and flesh departing pillion on a mule without one backward look, to the

reclaiming of an abandoned and doubtless even ravaged (perhaps even

usurped) Alabama hill farm-being lifted onto the mule (the first time he

touched her probably, except to put the ring

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on: not to prove nor even to feet, touch, if there actually was a girl

under the calico and the shawls; there was no time for that yet; but

simply to get her up so they could start), to ride a hundred miles to

become the farmless mother of farmers (she would bear a dozen, all boys,

herself no older, still fragile, still workless among the churns and

stoves and brooms and stacks of wood which even a woman could split into

kindlings; unchanged), bequeathing to them in their matronymic the

heritage of that invincible inviolable ineptitude;

Then suddenly, you realise that that was nowhere near enough, not for that

face-bridehood, motherhood, grandmotherhood, then widowhood and at last

the grave-the long peaceful connubial progress toward matriarchy in a

rocking chair nobody else was allowed to sit in, then a headstone in a

country churchyard-not for that passivity, that stasis, that invincible

captaincy of soul which didn't even need to wait but simply to be, breathe

tranquilly, and take food-infinite not only in capacity but in scope too:

that face, one maiden muse which had drawn a man out of the running pell

mell of a cavalry battle, a whole year around the long iron perimeter of

duty and oath, from Yoknapatawpha County, Mississippi, across Tennessee

into Virginia and up to the fringe of Pennsylvania before it curved back

into its closing fade along the headwaters of the Appomattox river and at

last removed from him its iron hand: where, a safe distance at last into

the rainy woods from the picket lines and the furled flags and the stacked

muskets, a handful of men leading spent horses, the still-warm pistols

still loose and quick for the hand in the unstrapped scabbards, gathered

in the failing twilight-privates and captains, sergeants and corporals and

subalterns-talking a little of one last desperate cast southward where (by

last report) Johnston was still intact, knowing that they would not, that

they were done not only with vain resistance but with indomitability too;

already departed this morning in fact for Texas, the West, New Mexico: a

new land even if not yet (spent too-like the horses-from the long

harassment and anguish of remaining indomitable and undefeated) a new

hope, putting behind them for good and all the loss of both: the young

dead bride-drawing him (that face) even back from this too, from no longer

having to remain undefeated too: who swapped the charger for the mule and

the sabre for the stocking of seed corn: back across the whole ruined land

and the whole disastrous year by that virgin inevictable passivity more

inescapable than lodestar;

Not that face; that was nowhere near enough: no symbol

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there of connubial matriarchy, but fatal instead with all insatiate and

deathless sterility; spouseless, barren, and undescended; not even

demanding more than that: simply requiring it, requiring all-Lilith's lost

and insatiable face drawing the substance-the will and hope and dream and

imagination-of all men (you too: yourself and the host too) into that one

bright fragile net and snare; not even to be caught, over-flung, by one

single unerring cast of it, but drawn to watch in patient and thronging

turn the very weaving of the strangling golden strands-drawing the two of

you from almost a hundred years away in your turn-yourself the stranger,

the outlander with a B.A. or (perhaps even) M.A. from Harvard or

Northwestern or Stanford, passing through Jefferson by chance or accident

on the way to somewhere else, and the host who in three generations has

never been out of Yoknapatawpha further than a few prolonged Saturday

nights in Memphis or New Orleans, who has heard of Jenny Lind, not because

he has heard of Mark Twain and Mark Twain spoke well of her, but for the

same reason that Mark Twain spoke well of her: not that she sang songs,

but that she sang them in the old West in the old days, and the man

sanctioned by public affirmation to wear a pistol openly in his belt is

an inevictable part of the Missouri and the Yoknapatawpha dream too, but

never of Duse or Bernhardt or Maximilian of Mexico, let alone whether the

Emperor of Mexico even ever had a wife or not (saying-the host-: 'You

mean, she was one of them? maybe even that emperor's wifeT and you: 'Why

not? Wasn't she a Jefferson girl?)'-to stand, in this hot strange little

room furious with frying fat, among the roster and chronicle, the

deathless murmur of the sublime and deathless names and the deathless

faces, the faces omnivorous and insatiable and forever incontent:

demon-nun and angel-witch; empress, siren, Erinys: Mistinguette, too,

invincible possessed of a half-century more of years than the mere three

score or so she bragged and boasted, for you to choose among, which one

she was-not might have been, nor even could have been, but was: so vast,

so limitless in capacity is man's imagination to disperse and burn away

the rubble-dross of fact and probability, leaving only truth and

dream-then gone, you are outside again, in the hot noon sun: late; you

have already wasted too much time: to unfumble among the road signs and

filling stations to get back onto a highway you know, back into the United

States; not that it matters, since you know again now that there is no

time: no space: no distance: a fragile and workless scratching almost

depthless in a sheet of old barely transparent glass, and (all you had to

do was look

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at it a while; all you have to do now is remember it) there is the clear

undistanced voice as though out of the delicate anterma-skeins of radio,

further than empress's throne, than splendid insatiation, even than

matriarch's peaceful rocking chair, across the vast instantaneous

intervention, from the long long time ago: 'Listen, stranger; this was

myself: this was V

Scene One

Interior, the Jail. 10:30 A.M. March twelfth.

The common room, or 'bull-pen'. It is on the second floor. A heavy barred

door at left is the entrance to it, to the entire cell-block, which-the

cells-are indicated by a row of steel doors, each with its own individual

small barred window, lining the right wall. A narrow passage at the far end

of the right wall leads to more cells. A single big heavily barred window in