“I thought I heard the baby.”
She was sitting more or less upright, her pillows flattened back behind her, the front of her nightdress buttoned to the neck. A paperback book, a guide to Greece, a country Debbie had never visited nor expressed any desire to visit, was folded open on the bedside table. It had been there for four nights, five, exactly the same position.
“I’ll just go and check,” Kevin swung his legs around beneath the duvet.
“Stay there, I’ll go.”
“It’s all right …”
“Go back to bed.” He was on his feet but Debbie was already over by the door. Her face looked small and severe; her lips were slightly parted and the overbite at the front of her teeth was visible. “Go to sleep.”
More definite this time, a half-whimper, half-cry from the next room.
“Maybe she was dreaming,” Kevin said.
Debbie laughed.
“Likely she’ll turn over, go right off again.”
“No, Kevin. That’s you. That’s what you do, remember?”
“That’s not fair.”
“It’s true.”
“It’s still not fair.”
“So you say.” She was glaring at him, the folds of her cotton nightdress clutched at her waist. The crying was becoming more insistent, higher pitched. Kevin moved towards the bedroom door but she stood in his way.
“Come on, Debbie.”
“No.”
“Come on.”
“No!”
Kevin stepped back, looked at the carpet, the way Debbie’s toes curled down into the pile. The noise was shrill and angry.
“You still think it’s just a dream?”
“No. I don’t know. A nightmare, perhaps. I don’t know.”
“No, you don’t. You don’t. You can’t.” With the insides of her bunched fists she was beating against him now, driving him back, slowly, across the room. “You can’t! You can’t! You can’t!”
Sometimes he caught at her wrists, her arms and held on until he felt whatever it was dissipate inside her, other times he backed off against the wall and allowed her to hit him, over and over, until her strength had gone and the tears came in its place. Tonight the noise from the cot was too urgent for either.
Kevin side-stepped around her, so that she was striking at air. She made a flailing grab for him, easily avoided.
“Kevin, come back here!”
He carried on through the bedroom, towards the baby’s room, not looking back.
“Kevin! Don’t you dare! Don’t you dare!”
The baby had got herself all twisted round inside the cot, white lacy covers kicked into a corner, finally, one leg trapped inside the bars. Kevin reached carefully down and freed her, easing her up into his arms. Her face was plump and red from crying; he held her high against his chest, her head on his shoulder, patting her back softly, saying, “Sshh, sshh.”
But she wouldn’t shush: not yet.
He began to walk around the room with her, round and around the cot. Sometimes that worked, but not tonight. Once he thought it had happened; the noise cut off suddenly, but it was no more than punctuation, breath caught in the throat and held. This time when he walked he came face to face with Debbie standing in the doorway. She had been crying too, she was paler than before, her hair had a peculiar quality, seeming to have neither color nor shape, to be just hair.
When Debbie held out her arms, Kevin placed the baby inside them and by the time he had lain back in the bed she had stopped crying.
“Oh, God, Jack! She could have AIDS, anything!”
“Not this way, she couldn’t.”
“Yes. All those teenagers living rough. You saw that program. That’s how they catch it.”
Skelton smoothed his hand along the inside of his wife’s arm; her eyes widened and startled, as if caught in a sudden light. “Not without injecting.”
She looked back at him, uncomprehending.
“You have to inject.”
“But you said drugs. You said Kate …”
“The HIV virus, you catch it from the needle, a dirty needle. It’s not the drug itself.”
“What are you saying, then? She’s just been smoking pot, cannabis?”
Skelton shook his head. “LSD. Sometimes amphetamines. Mostly LSD.”
“And you believe that’s all? You believe her?”
Skelton could still see his daughter’s face and understood that talking to him downstairs, telling him all that she had in that neat and perfect kitchen, had been the most difficult thing in the world for her to do. There must have been times, he thought, when she had longed to throw it all in my face, like a fist. But this had not been one of those times.
“I believe her,” he said.
“What I don’t understand, where did she get her hands on these drugs? It sounds as if she only has to walk in somewhere off the street and there it is. LSD. Whatever you said it was called.”
“Ecstasy.”
“What?”
“The particular drug Kate’s been taking. Been buying. It’s called Ecstasy. Apparently, the group she goes around with, it’s pretty prevalent. The done thing.”
“But where …?”
“Where not? The clubs she goes, some of them. Coaches off to Sheffield, Manchester. Something to keep them going, keep them awake.”
“And that’s why she was stealing?”
Skelton nodded. “She could hardly come and ask us for an increase in her pocket money, could she?”
“Jack.”
“I know.”
It was hard for them to look at one another; Skelton touched his wife’s arm again; held, for little more than a moment, her hand.
“You’re cold,” he said.
“What will happen?” she said.
Skelton didn’t know. He couldn’t be certain what would happen about the stealing, and anyway, that was the least of it. What he didn’t know about was addiction, how possible or difficult it would be for her to stop, always supposing that was what she wanted. And other things. No matter what he had said to his wife, Skelton couldn’t wipe his mind free of AIDS. All right, so she was unlikely to have caught it from using a dirty needle. But that didn’t rule out other ways. No matter how hard he tried to close off his mind to those, it wasn’t yet possible.
Kate.
“They’ll crucify you, won’t they?” his wife said, standing close beside where he was sitting on the edge of their bed. “Not just the local ones. All of them. They’ll love it.”
Skelton leaned his head against her hip. “That doesn’t matter,” he said. “It’s not important, what anyone says about me.” Wanting to mean it: knowing that it wasn’t true.
Thirty-one
By the time details had filtered back from the hospital, Resnick had left his house for the station. Millington greeted him at the entrance to the CID room with a concerned face and a strong tea. It took less than five minutes to convey everything that was known.
“He’s going to pull through, Furlong?” Resnick asked.
“Looks like it, sir. Wouldn’t have stood much chance if they’d just done a bunk, that’s for certain.”
“No identification?”
Millington shifted his weight across on to his other foot. “Too early for that. Still, I don’t think there can be a lot of doubt, do you? All things considered.”
Resnick nodded agreement. The briefing was due to start in a quarter of an hour. Jack Skelton wasn’t going to be too happy that he’d pulled Patel off watch and not replaced him, beyond asking one of the night patrol cars to report the presence of Grice’s vehicle. Then that wasn’t all the superintendent was going to be unhappy about. Poor bastard! Resnick wondered if he should try and take him to one side, say something; then, what did you say, situations like that?
“Sir.” It was Naylor, face like a bleached sheet in need of ironing. He was waving a piece of computer printout close to Resnick’s nose. “Don’t know why it didn’t show before, probably asked the wrong questions; sorry, sir.”
“Come on, then.”
The DC stopped fanning the paper and held it across his chest like a shield. “I was just checking burglaries, that’s what it was, I suppose. Break-ins, security, that was the angle. I …”