Exhaustion hit me at that point. There was really no getting round the birth issue. The woman had had a baby and any woman who had done so on the islands that summer had to be on my list. She must have visited a dentist privately. Unfortunately, I still had to work till two a.m. and go through the sixty-three records or I'd never know for sure.
The phone rang. This was it then: Gifford summoning me to his office. I considered ignoring it but knew he'd just come and find me.
'Hello.'
'It's Dana. Are you OK?'
'I'm fine, just tired.'
'I have just had the devil of a row with my inspector. I can't believe no one called me last night. You must have been out of your wits.'
'Something like that,' I confessed. 'I was a bit surprised not to see you.'
'I'm supposed to be in charge of this blessed investigation. Can you believe what the official line is? I wasn't called out because there was no direct link to the case. What happened last night was just somebody's idea of a joke.'
Logically, I probably should have been disturbed that Dana took the events of the previous night as seriously as I did. And yet I found myself reassured. I guess, given the choice, most of us would opt for in danger before delusional.
'You don't go along with that theory then?' I said.
'Are you kidding me? What are you up to right now?'
I explained about conning the nurse into giving me the password and my examination of Kirsten Hawick's records. If she was disappointed, she gave no sign. Then I told her about my plans to go through the rest.
'How many more do you have to look at?' she asked.
'Sixty-three,' I told her.
'I'm coming in to help. I don't like the idea of you being there on your own.'
I stood up, peered out of the window. Gifford's car was still there.
'No, you'll be far too conspicuous. I'll be fine. There's loads of people around. I'll call when I'm done.'
'Thanks, Tora, I mean it. Look, let me give you my address and home phone number. Come round, it doesn't matter what time.'
I scribbled the details down and she was gone. I was on my own and, in spite of all my best intentions and the well-meaning advice of those wiser than myself, I called up the first set of X-rays.
15
TWO HOURS LATER, I'D RULED OUT TWENTY-TWO OF THE names on the list. It was all starting to look like a complete waste of time, but I'm one of those people who can never leave a job unfinished. I knew I'd be here for the duration.
First, though: sustenance. I locked my office and went down to the canteen. I piled my tray high with fatty carbohydrates and added a Diet Coke. I ate like a robot, hardly lifting my eyes from the tray, and then went back to my office.
Another hour and a half, another two cups of coffee and either something was going wrong with the hospital electrics or I was seriously in need of sleep, because the room around me had grown decidedly dimmer. I looked up at the neon strips above me. I hadn't noticed any flickering but the light just wasn't what it had been a couple of hours ago. The sky outside seemed unnaturally dark too, even allowing for it not being far off midnight. There must be a storm coming.
I looked back at the screen, but could barely make it out. The sharpness of the X-ray image had blurred into a confused mass of shapes and shading. Words were indistinguishable. I knew I had eighteen more records to check, but it just wasn't possible. I'd print them off, go find a bed and read through them in the morning. I closed my eyes, shook my head and then opened them again. It was no better; if anything, worse: I was staring at a black screen with words that had been bright green. Now, they were no colour at all, just dullish marks of light that seemed to be growing in size.
I selected the print field and pressed the print command. There was definitely a problem with the electricity. Without my noticing, the lights had gone out completely and my room was a mass of shadows. From the printer at the other side of the room came a shrill, persistent beeping sound. Great: as invariably happens when it's important, it was out of paper. I started to get up and couldn't. I just about managed to push the keyboard out of the way before my head hit the desk.
The next thing I remember was my mobile ringing, somewhere in the distance. I raised my head and gasped out loud: there were demons in my skull, beating a tattoo on my brain. And someone had broken my spine; nothing less could cause this amount of pain. As nausea reared up I closed my eyes and counted to ten. Then risked opening them again. I was still at my desk; the room was in almost total darkness. My computer screen was blank but its low- pitched buzzing told me it was still switched on.
Without moving I managed to locate the ringing. My mobile was in the pocket of my jacket, which was hanging behind the door. I got up – oh my, it hurt – and crossed the room. I found the phone and looked at the screen. It was Dana. I switched the phone off. Heading back to my desk I found even walking was an effort, as though every limb had suddenly grown three times as heavy. What the hell was wrong with me?
By the time I reached my desk I felt slightly better. Just the simple act of moving had loosened me up a little. Then I remembered what I'd been doing. I pressed a key and the screen sprang to life. There was nothing there. I was looking at the screen saver. I grabbed the mouse and flicked round the screen, in case I'd accidentally minimized the dental records somewhere. They couldn't have just disappeared.
Except they had. I clicked again on the dental department's section of the site and once again it requested a password. I typed in Terminator.
Access denied.
I tried it again.
Access denied.
I looked round my office, as though the answer might lie on my walls, my desk. The room was tidy, nothing out of place. Except…
My desk was never that tidy. Papers were stacked up neatly. The cup I'd been drinking from was over by the sink. It had been rinsed out, as had the coffee pot. I hadn't done that. I crossed to the light switch and flicked. The lights flickered and flashed and then were fully on. Functioning normally. Which was a whole lot more than could be said for me.
I staggered to the sink and poured a cup of water. In my bag I found some of the painkillers Gifford had given me the other day and I swallowed two gratefully. I leaned against the sink, waiting for the pain in my head to subside, which it didn't, and for the aching in my limbs to fade, which, gradually, it did.
The hospital was silent. Downstairs, in and around the wards, there would be people and movement, noise and bustle; up here, just the faint electronic buzz of the lights and my computer. My watch said 04.26. I'd been asleep, or something, for over four hours.
I started to walk back to my desk and a flashing button on the printer caught my eye. Paper tray empty said the message on the small display. Without really thinking about it, I bent down, took a few sheets of paper from the cupboard beneath it and slid them into the paper tray.
The machine whirred into life and started sending out printed sheets. I picked the first one up. It was an X-ray of the upper left quadrant and the second molar had been crowned.
Stop it, Tora, enough is enough.
I picked up the next sheet. It showed the central and lateral incisors. The placement looked right. I picked up the next sheet. Then the next. I counted the teeth. Then, for the first time, I looked at the patient's name at the top of the page. I reached out and touched it, whispering it softly as I did so.