— No, said Carlyle, laughing. We only thought we would be for each other, one day, long into the future.
James and he had begun the walk back to the stairs. He continued laughing.
— You are welcome to try keeping her happy. No one, of course, has ever succeeded in that.
Carlyle was gone. They had parted when they reached the hall. James felt uncertain. He seemed to be staring at a broad sheet of paper spread out upon the ground, and all the letters were wiggling and moving of their own accord whenever he looked closely.
He would go back up to his room and see what the day looked like through the windows of the room in which he had woken with Lily Violet.
In the Pillow
In the pillow no note from Grieve. No notes either upon the shelf.
An hour passed. He fell asleep and woke in the chair. Somehow the maid had been and gone, for in the pillowcase was a note from Grieve.
It said:
No one spoke of you yet today or acknowledged your existence. I shouldn't wonder if they let you go soon.
This was disturbing to James, who, like anyone, did not like being so easily forgotten. After all, he thought, I spoke with the dying McHale. I know the whole plot. They can't forget me so easily. Besides, he thought, Carlyle said they'd been speaking of me. But he thought of McHale's brusqueness on the porch.
You know nothing, came the room's quiet reply. And it was true. What had he found out? If this decimal were to be placed like light in a tube then in what becoming would he have failed? He could name three: the first, his dying trust; the second, that owed those he loved (who did he love?); and the third, his own.
And so in the room James sat and thought how useless the pistol was to him, and how if only he could find his way through these habits and rules to the heart of the game being played. .
He felt a horror at incidental things, at the dust in corners, the folding of cloth, the feel of paper.
James had seen two men die in the space of two days, and both of their dying was partly his fault. He had kept the thought far from him, but it was undeniable. In the brackets and boxes of his voluminous memory were all the impressions, labeled and fitted, of both deaths. There would be for him no easy forgetting.
A Lesson
When James had applied for the work, taken and passed the necessary examinations, been shown to the back room, fitted with a suit, fingerprinted, voice-tested, lie-detectored, he came before a powerful man, the owner of the firm.
— You are young, no? said the man. Younger than we like here. You know, we like a man to have a bit of experience before coming to us. We feel it puts him on better footing with those he will find it necessary to interact with as a professional.
James said then that he certainly had been around, had traveled extensively, and was well versed in the fields adjoining that of this profession.
— But that's the thing, don't you see, the man had said. There's no way to know what will be required. You have to make a study of everything. And, of course, he said, once you put something in, it never comes out. The training is quite effective that way.
He took James by the arm and led him to the window.
— How old are you? he asked.
— Twenty years to the day, said James.
— To the day, said the man quietly, as if musing. To the day. You have to know what you're getting into. It is a strange life, that of the mnemonist. It is most difficult to form relationships. Many of our best find their lives are lonely. Of course, the remuneration is great. You will find the work easy, though the travel is time-consuming. And truly, I mean it. You will hardly forget a thing once you have gone through the training. When are you scheduled?
James said that he was to begin the next week.
— So, you will be twenty-three when the training is done, said the man.
He pressed a buzzer on his desk. A man came to the door.
— Sir?
— This Sim. I would like his progress monitored. I would like to be personally apprised of it.
— That can be done. Certainly, sir.
— Very good.
The owner made an away-with-you gesture with his hand, and the man disappeared through the door.
I wonder, thought James to himself. Will I begin to remember older things more clearly, or just things from now on?
In his exploring, James had somehow managed to enter a locked room. Consternation then among the technicians.
— What are you doing here?
— I'm sorry, said James. I didn't realize.
— But this is the egg room! cried one of the attendants, a young man dressed head to toe in white.
— I can see that, said James. It looks like an egg room. I can't imagine what else it would be.
— You have to leave immediately, said one of the technicians.
The others all nodded their agreement.
— If you leave now, no one will say that you were here. We will all say that you have never been in the egg room.
— Okay, said James. I'm leaving.
And he left the egg room through the door by which he came. It locked after him with a definitive click.
Never again, thought James. Never again, the egg room.
RULE 143
When entering a room one must always wait until one is spoken to to speak if the room is occupied by 3, 5, or 7 people. If there are 2, 4, or 9 (or 8 on Thursdays), one has the right to speak first. Otherwise, 8 is the clouted numeral and one mustn't speak at all until one has slept and woken. This may of course be laid like a trap, like a setting at table, but such deeds will be recorded and rewarded as they are done, whether good or ill. If 1 is in the room, the bell applies. The library is exempt: a rule of silence save between those in love and alone. Never should there be a gathering of more than 9. That room cannot be entered. One would knock, and request, by dint of paper, the leaving of the room by an occupant. OF COURSE, if one enters in a pair, the rules are more complicated. The pair may speak first, save when three are within, but the pair must speak in turn, and each finish the other's sentences. A pair opening a door onto a room of three must bow their heads in shame and one must speak for the other for three days, during which they mayn't be parted. Groups of more than three traveling in tandem through the halls, entering rooms willy-nilly, should consult the appendix for further rules of behavior, as this ought not to be a matter of course and therefore will not be approved of by situational mention here.
Grieve found James where he sat reading a book in the library. He was on a sort of balcony that ran both lengths of the library, and connected across every now and then with a little bridge. She walked up behind him.
— Hello, said James.