The last three months had been hell for both of us. Although her parents had disapproved, Ari had decided not to go back to Austin for school this semester. Instead, She was taking a few online classes with Ellie.
I had only talked to Rebecca once, and she begged for forgiveness. She had called a few more times, but each time, I’d ignored it. One more than one occasion, Ari had just about wanted to drive to Austin just to kick her ass.
I heard the thunder rumbling in the distance, and I smiled, remembering how much Ari loved thunder-storms.
If only I could get that Ari back...
Last night, I’d called Ellie, and I’d told her that I thought Ari could really use a girls’ trip into Austin today. She agreed.
As I walked closer to Ari, I could tell she’d been crying. Fuck.
“Hey, baby, have you been up for very long?” I asked as I stepped up onto the porch.
She didn’t even look up at me. She was growing more distant as the days went on. It had been three months since she’d lost the baby, and now, she wouldn’t even let me touch her.
I sat down next to her while it started to rain. She put her head back on the swing and let out a sigh.
“Ari, we really need to talk, baby. I can’t keep going on like nothing is wrong. You’re drifting further and further away from me. I need you back.”
She lifted her head and glared at me. “Maybe you should have thought of that before you walked out on me.”
I felt like I was going to be sick. “I don’t know how many times I have to tell you that I’m sorry, Ari. I’m sorry for making the biggest mistake of my life. If I could take it back, I would. You don’t think I beat myself up every morning and every night? If I could go back and redo it, I would. I’d do anything to make you happy.”
She stood up and walked over to the railing. “I want to be alone for a while.”
“No.”
She spun around and stared at me. “What?”
“I said no, Ari. I’m tired of you pushing me away and not talking to me. I don’t even remember the last time you let me hold you or just touch you.”
“I don’t want to talk about it with you.”
“Bullshit. You won’t talk to anyone about it, not even your mother, Grace, or even Ellie. Everyone is so worried about you. This has to stop, Ari. We got the go ahead last month, baby, if you want to try for another baby….”
“No! Just please stop talking.” Ari stepped off the porch into the rain.
“Where the hell are you going?” I said walking after her.
“I want to be alone, Jeff. That means without you! Please just go back to the house. I’m going to the barn.”
I followed her toward the barn.
She turned and looked at me.
“You’re such a fucking dickwad! Why can’t you just leave me alone? I don’t want to be near you, I don’t want you to touch me, and I don’t want you to make love to me. I don’t want you. Holy hell, how many times do I have to say it?”
It was now pouring rain, and I was shaking from head to toe. I knew she didn’t mean what she was saying; the counselor we had gone to had told me that this might happen. I’d kept doing what the counselor said. I’d given Ari the space and time she’d needed, but now, I was done with this bullshit. I wanted my girl back. I wanted the life we were supposed to have-fuck, the life we deserved to have- back.
When I started to walk toward her, she turned away from me to run toward the barn. I took off after her and grabbed her. She started to scream for me to let her go while she fought me with every ounce of energy she had. I wouldn’t let her go. I just held on to her while she hit me with as much force as she could.
Then, she started to cry.
“I hate you! Don’t touch me, Jeff. You can’t touch me. Please just leave me alone.”
She was crying so hard that I could hardly understand her. I just held on to her. She slowly started to sink to the ground, and I went down with her. The pouring rain and loud thunder surrounding us was unreal, but there was no way I was letting her go.
“I lost the baby, Jeff. I lost our baby. Oh my god...I just want to forget it. Why can’t I just forget it?”
For the first time in weeks, she turned and held on to me so tightly that I thought I was going to burst with happiness and sadness at the same time.
“Baby, you didn’t do anything wrong. It just wasn’t meant to be. She’s up in heaven, looking down on us, and she’ll always be a part of us...always, Ari. There will never be a day that goes by that she won’t be with us. She’s our angel watching over us, baby.”
Ari buried her face in my chest. She was crying so hard. I would do anything to take away her pain. As she slowly pulled away from me, the rain mixed with her tears, both just pouring off her face.
She stared into my eyes and said, “Make love to me, Jeff. Please make love to me.”
Oh dear God. I wanted her so much. It had been so long that I just wanted to just rip off her clothes right there in the rain. I picked her up and walked her into the barn to an empty stall. I gradually slide her down my body as I looked into her beautiful eyes. Those eyes were slowly getting life back into them.
Reaching over, I grabbed Stargazer’s blanket. I bent down and laid out the blanket while Ari just watched my every move. As I started to take off her sneaker, she put her hands on my shoulders while she lifted one leg at a time.
Standing up, I captured her mouth with mine. The moan she let out moved through my whole body.
We hadn’t been together in three months. I didn’t want to rush this. I wanted to show her how much I needed her. I wanted to make her forget for just a little bit.
I started to kiss her neck and then slowly moved up to her ear. “Take off your clothes, Ari,” I whispered as I stood back to look at her.
For the first time in months, I saw a fire in my girl’s eyes. Ari stepped back and started to peel off the T-shirt that was plastered to her body. Slowly, she began taking off her white lace bra. My dick was getting harder by the second.
She dropped her bra on top of her shirt, and then she gave me the smile that I’d do anything for. I let my eyes move up and down her beautiful body.
Stepping forward, I hooked my finger on the belt loops of her jean shorts and pulled her to me.
“Take off all your clothes.”
She unbuttoned her shorts slide them down her wet body. I didn’t think I’d ever been as turned on as I was in this very moment. Just the sight of her had me going insane. I love this girl more than anything.
She stepped back and raised her eyebrows at me. “Do you really think it’s romantic to make love on my horse’s blanket?”
I couldn’t pull my eyes away from her lips. “Yes, I think making love to you anywhere would be romantic as long as we are together.”
With a smile, Ari walked up to me and pulled me closer to her. “It’s your turn to strip, you bastard, if you know what’s good for you,” she said with a wink.
I didn’t think that I’d ever taken off soaking wet clothes that fast before in my life. The moment her hands touched my body, I sucked in a breath of air. Fuck, I’ve missed her touch. I was trying so hard to think of anything other than her touch that was driving me crazy.
She started to kiss my chest from one side to the other. Then, she dropped to her knees and took me in her mouth. I swore that almost came on the spot.
“Ari, baby, I don’t think I can hold off if you keep doing that.”
She let out a small moan that just made me combust.
I reached down and pulled her up to me.
“I want to be inside you. Now.”
“Well, who am I to deny that command, Mr. Johnson?”
Ari slowly lowered herself down onto the blanket. I moved over her and started to kiss her face, then her neck and moved down to her chest where I gave each nipple equal attention.
Ari let out moan after moan.
“Oh god, Jeff. I’ve miss you so much.”
“Baby, you don’t know how much I’ve missed you.”
I continued kissing down her stomach to her hips. She grabbed my hair and pulled me back up to her to capture my mouth with hers. The second she bit down on my lip, I knew I couldn’t wait any longer. Inch by inch, I slowly started to enter her body. All the while, I never once stopped showering kisses on her.