Epilogue – One Year Later – Fran
The sun pours through the pale blue curtains of my bedroom window as I crack open my sleepy eyes. I wake up smiling now, and I have every day since Matt told me he loved me. Turning my head to the side, I stare at the picture of us we had taken two months ago at the beach in Malibu. We’ve been seeing each other every weekend for the past year. Either he comes to New York or I fly out to Los Angeles. It’s amazing how flying doesn’t bother me anymore, especially when I know he’s waiting for me at the other end.
I started seeing a therapist again eleven months ago and I feel stronger than ever. She’s helped me to get to know who I am now, the strong person I’ve become, the strong person I never realized I was, that I’m so much more than just the sum of my scars and my broken past. I’ve finally come to understand that love is a choice for me, not something I need to feel better about myself. The only person who holds that power is me. It makes me smile because it makes me think of Matt. Even though I didn’t realize it at the time, I chose him and he’s the best choice I’ve ever made.
My phone vibrates with an incoming text and I already know who it is before I reach for it. Matt sends me a text every morning with a countdown and a cute message. Today is Tuesday and he’ll be here Friday night, and even without his notes, my own internal clock tells me what day it is.
I won’t deny it’s been difficult. The long-distance relationship thing is draining, mostly because I love seeing him on Friday, but when Sunday comes, it’s really hard to say goodbye. There’s nothing better than falling asleep in his arms and waking up curled into his side, but when Monday rolls around and the other side of my bed is empty my heart aches with longing.
With my back propped against the pillow, I grab my phone and get comfortable so I can soak up his words.
Morning, sunshine! 3 more days until we can have mad, passionate sex. Until then, my hand and your picture are getting quite a workout. Miss you and love you. xo M
“Oh my God!” I snort, laughing so hard that Peyton pokes her head inside the door.
“What’s so funny?” she asks, but then she smiles. “Let me guess. Loverboy?”
I make a popping sound with my lips and grin. “Three more days.”
“You guys are very cute. Nauseating, but cute,” she says, plopping down on the bed, shoveling a piece of a bagel in her mouth.
“So have you talked to Caleb?” I ask, arching a brow and plucking the rest of the bagel from her hand.
“Yeah, we talked about a month ago.” She shrugs. “He said he might be in Manhattan in a few weeks on business.”
“Oh?” I reply nonchalantly, taking a bite of the bagel. “Well, I was talking to Matt last night and he mentioned that Caleb still isn’t seeing anyone…just in case you were interested in that information.”
“Is that so?” Her lips tip up into a wide grin and she sprawls out on the bed with a satisfied stretch of her arms. “Just so happens I’m not seeing anyone, either.”
We burst out into a fit of laughter that makes my stomach hurt. It feels good to laugh. This is what happy feels like and I love every minute of it.
“So do you want to come with me to get coffee? I’m meeting Gabby at The Brew House.” I smile. “You know, Matt’s brother’s coffee shop.”
“Yeah, I know the place,” she retorts, “I can’t this morning, though. I have to meet with the vice president about a new client. Let’s have lunch today, instead. I want to try that new Italian place that opened up near Lexington.”
“Sure, sounds good. All right, I’m hitting the shower. I’ll see you at the office.” I breeze out the door, grabbing the other half of bagel left on the kitchen counter and a quick glass of juice before heading into the shower.
The Brew House is crowded when I arrive, the smell of fresh coffee and cinnamon rolls making my stomach grumble the moment I step foot inside. Brad spots me, giving me his trademark dimpled smile and a wave, instantly making me think of Matt. Emotion climbs up and clogs my throat but I clear it a few times and barrel through the crowd to find Gabby, already waiting for me at a table.
“Hey, you hot, engaged woman!” I say excitedly, and her face beams with happiness as she lifts her hand up to admire her ring. “When the hell is Brad going to make an honest woman out of you? It’s been like…umm…two years!” I drag out the last word for effect.
“We’re getting closer. It’s almost time to shop for your Maid of Honor’s dress.” She takes a bite of her chocolate chip muffin. “Should be tons of fun.” She winks, handing me the coffee she so thoughtfully ordered for me.
“Yes, well, as long as it shows good cleavage and knocks Matt’s socks off, that’s all that matters.” I peel a corner of her muffin off and toss it in my mouth. “Hmmm…that’s good.”
“Speaking of Matt, how is he?” she asks, leaning back in her chair and tapping a finger against her lightly-glossed lips.
“He’s great.” I sigh. “Except, I miss him terribly. But, he’ll be here on Friday so I’m just counting down the hours. And,” I say with a wide smile, “it looks like he’ll be moving here at the end of the year. He’s going to open up an office in New York City.”
“Yeah, I heard something about that from Brad. So since he’ll be here this weekend, maybe we can all go out on Saturday night or something?” she asks with a strange grin on her face and a speckle of mischief in her brown eyes.
“Is that a joke? Because Matt and I won’t be leaving my room all weekend.” I take a sip of coffee and eye her speculatively over the rim of it. “What’s going on?”
“What do you mean?” she asks, attempting to look serious but failing miserably.
“What are you up to?” I narrow my gaze, my mind buzzing with possibilities.
“I’m not up to anything.” She chews on her muffin, but she’s hiding behind her cup. “I just thought it would be fun if we could all hang out.”
“Hmph, how long have we known each other? You’re up to something. I can see the gears churning, the plot thickening inside your brain.”
She laughs, spitting out a piece of muffin across the table. “You’re delusional.”
I’m about to come back with a sarcastic retort when something catches my attention, my ears perking up and my mouth lifting in a smile.
“What is it?” Gabby asks, tilting her head, a question in her eyes.
“It’s silly. I thought I heard something that reminded me of Matt. Never mind,” I say, brushing it off…until I hear it again. “What is that?”
“What’s what?” she asks. “I don’t hear anything.”
I look over my shoulder and see a crowd gathering on the sidewalk. “What’s going on out there?”
“I don’t know. Let’s go find out,” she suggests, setting her coffee down and following me outside.
As I get closer to the door, the music gets louder and my heart beats a little bit faster because I recognize the song. It’s the beginning of “This Love” by Tyrone Wells. The same song that Matt and I first danced to at the hotel. My stomach is hit with the oddest sensation as if a million butterflies are tickling my belly, telling me something in a whisper. I push the door open and my hand flies to my mouth but not before a gasp manages to escape. Peyton and Caleb are hovering together on the sidewalk and Matt is standing on the roof of Brad’s car. I’ve never been happier to see anyone in my entire life. The song is blaring from the speakers, and Matt’s smiling down on me like I’m the only person he sees.
Tears blur my eyes as they lock with his, my knees threatening to collapse underneath me at the sheer sight of him. I don’t know what the hell he’s doing on top of Brad’s car, but I don’t really care. He’s here and that’s all that matters.