“Why?” I asked, surprised.
“First, I don’t believe your problems with Rob have very much to do with the war. From the little you’ve told me, Rob’s not acting out of the norm. Most people who have seen horrible things and can’t deal with them, do something to blot them out. Usually, it’s drink. But I knew one fellow who took up tennis because it kept him busy, and he couldn’t concentrate on anything else. He’s got a smashing backhand now.”
“And secondly?” It was amazing how easily he got off track.
“Let me put it this way, if you were my girlfriend, I wouldn’t have returned to the States without you or, if I absolutely had to return to the States, I would have made arrangements for you to follow. He didn’t do either of those things. I’d forget about him and concentrate on me.”
“You must be joking,” I said, laughing.
“Why not? I’m handsome, intelligent, well educated. I have a good job with a promising future. I draw quarterly on a trust fund set up by my Burden grandparents. There’s more. Shall I go on?”
“Geoff, I wouldn’t be good for you at all,” I said in a more serious tone in case he wasn’t kidding. “You need a girl who won’t put up with your nonsense. Someone like my sister Sadie.”
“Is Sadie as pretty as you are?” Geoff acted as if he was really interested.
“Prettier. But she’s tough. If it’s on her mind, you’ll hear about it. She’s the only one who ever had the courage to talk back to my grandfather, and he hasn’t said a word to her since.”
Thinking about my sister, it reminded me of how much I missed all of my family, and with the holidays coming, I was beginning to think it was time to go home. It was too late to get home by Thanksgiving. But if I started making plans immediately, I could give my boss sufficient notice, so that I could be in Minooka by Christmas. The hardest thing would be to leave the Crowells, and now the Alcotts, but without Rob, I was beginning to feel like a woman without a country.
Chapter 37
My decision to return to the States by Christmas was made easier because I would be flying home. AAFES had contracted with charter airlines to fly dependents and civilian personnel between the United States and its bases in Europe. However, because of the unpredictability of Northern European weather, my boss suggested I pick several departure dates because flights were routinely cancelled due to weather.
There was still the matter of my agreement with Beth and the Catons to write a brief history about the Laceys and Montclair. If I was to honor that commitment, I would have to spend less time with Geoff and more time with Elizabeth Garrison.
8 March — Mr. Lacey, Charles, and Jane came to Bennets End for dinner this evening. After our guests departed, Mama said she could think of no reason for Mr. Lacey’s frequent visits to Hertfordshire now that his friend is married, nor does Papa understand why someone of Mr. Lacey’s exalted rank was seated at his dinner table. I have mentioned that both Jane and I believe that Mr. Lacey improves upon further acquaintance, and Papa said it was a good thing, since he is Charles’s friend and, as such, ‘we are stuck with him.’
11 March — Yesterday afternoon, I had a most unwelcome visitor — Lady Sylvia Desmet. Without any attempt at civility, she told me she had news that her nephew was to make an offer of marriage to me and she had come to make sure no such thing occurred. Her objections to the marriage were so numerous I cannot remember them all, but it was clear that she found me to be unworthy of Mr. Lacey’s attentions in every respect, and that he would risk complete estrangement from her if he went forward with such a scheme. She ended by saying that no one in society would receive me, and I would forever be an embarrassment to her nephew and his family. It was impossible to defend myself, as she would not stop talking. Because of infirmities, she walks with a cane, and she kept hitting it against the floor, saying, ‘I honoured you with my notice, and this is how you repay me.’ She departed for Helmsley Hall with the intention of making Mr. Lacey see what an absolute disaster such an alliance with my family would be. I am crying as I write this, for fear of how Mr. Lacey will respond to such forceful arguments.
12 March — Mr. Lacey arrived at Bennets End early this morning to apologize for his aunt’s behavior, and then he drew me to him in a loving embrace. He assured me I had nothing additional to fear from her, as she has severed all bonds between them. His only concern was for Anne.
And then it happened. I am to be Mrs. William David Lacey. I must quickly put into writing what he said to me, as I do not wish to forget a word of it. ‘When I proposed to you last August in Kent, if I had been a wiser and kinder man, you would have accepted my offer, and we would now be man and wife. Your rejection stung, but it provided me with an opportunity to examine my own conduct and the reasons for it. A much humbler man stands before you.’
Having made this confession, he continued with the words I had been waiting to hear. ‘Miss Elizabeth, from the beginning of our acquaintance, I have loved you, and I now ask that you accept my proposal of marriage and agree to be my wife.’ I was so happy, and we hugged and kissed and laughed until we realized he had not spoken to Papa. I will write tomorrow of his response.
Finally, I had arrived at the diary entry for Will Lacey’s proposal to Elizabeth Garrison. I was touched by Will’s newfound humility and his willingness to admit that someone, who was not his equal socially, could be his equal in all other things. He was clearly in love with a woman whom he valued for her beauty, wit, and intelligence.
14 March — Oh what an uproar we have caused! The only person more surprised by the announcement of our engagement than Papa was dear Mama. She blurted out, ‘But, Lizzy, he is most unpleasant.’ When Papa called me into his library, he asked if all the females in our neighbourhood had lost the use of their reason. ‘First Charlotte and now you.’ It took many minutes to convince him that we had become better acquainted at Helmsley Hall, that I had fallen in love with him, and that he was the finest man of my acquaintance. Given time, I assured Papa that he would come to know of the gentleman’s many attributes. Mr. Lacey, noting Papa’s lack of enthusiasm, told him that it was his intention to become the best of sons-in-law — ‘better even than Mr. Chatterton is to Sir William Ledger,’ which he said brought a smile to Papa’s face.
Geoff was looking over my shoulder trying to read the manuscript, which was something he did when he wanted attention. “Do you have something on your mind, Geoff?”
“I believe you are going somewhere. You’ve been typing as if you are possessed or on a mission, or you would not have avoided conversation with someone so erudite.”
“I am a woman on a mission. I’ve had these diaries for weeks now, and yet I haven’t even gotten to the wedding, and I’m going to keep going until I do.”
“If you ignore me, I won’t tell you about James and Angela’s wedding night.”
I turned around and faced him. “Okay. You’ve got my attention.”
“You have to keep in mind that, during their entire courtship, James hasn’t done anything other than give Angela a chaste kiss. Around midnight, all of the wedding guests, including Mike and I, walk with the happy couple through the village to the Paglia house and keep on going right into their bedroom. Some of the old ladies throw flower petals on the bed cover, and then we leave, but we’re all right outside the door.”
“Are you making this up?”
“Hell, no! I don’t have to. James realizes the guests aren’t going anywhere, and it’s been a long six months, so nothing’s going to stop him. While Angela’s getting changed, James had to face the wall, and when he turns around, she’s standing there in a cotton night gown with full sleeves. He said it was so stiff it could have stood up on its own. But it gets better. Angela gets in bed, fully clothed, and points to the bed cover, which has a hole in it exactly where a shorter man than James might insert a certain object.”