Then I remembered: Buddy.
Sweet, lovable, adorable, fur-ridden Buddy. Gift from Amy, Eater of Shoelaces, Ripper of Couches, Fearful of Own Shadow, Savior from Heaven. But how could I call him? I couldn't very well do that pss-wss-wss-wss thing as a toilet. No lips. No access to Cat Chow to temp him, either. I had to use a distracting noise, something to stir the bugger's innate curiosity. Then, lure him close enough to look into the bowl itself, the core of my being, where I could summon the powers of vision and lock eyes with him.
I realized what I could do. I started to shake my arm-now, the toilet handle. C'mon Buddy. Come out and be a cat.
I jiggled the handle again. C'mon.
Jiggled it again. And again.
Finally, I could sense tiny pawsteps skittering across the bathroom tile. Right on! I felt padded, furry feet against my bowl. I saw the feline head peek over the water, up at the handle. Good boy, good boy! I wanted to shout.
Then I heard a key fumble in the apartment door. Buddy turned his head, interested in the new sound. I was curious, too, but no matter now. I jiggled the handle more furiously. Buddy looked at it, then spun his head around again.
I jiggled the handle that was my hand with all of my porcelain might. Look at it, you stupid fur-brained… The apartment door opened, full of ear-splitting, rusty squeaks and wood groans… Look! Look!
And then the handle came loose, dropped on to the rim, and flipped over into the bowl. Buddy followed it with his green feline eyes. Through rings of concentric, watery circles, I looked into them.
“Del? You home?"
Well, sort of. It was a terribly strange adjustment. And I thought the toilet was bad. At least it had been a porcelain constant; the brain of a cat was something wholly different. I locked onto its primitive brain structure easily, and established myself as the commander-in-chief, but I still had to surrender myself to cat logic.
Cat logic: Whatever seemed to be the most reasonable course of action at any given moment, do the opposite.
Whenever you absolutely, positively have to accomplish a task, run off and find something else to occupy your attention.
I wanted to see Amy, but Buddy yanked the reins out of my hands and leapt into the bathtub. No, Buddy, I commanded. But he regarded the master's voice inside his tiny cat brain as he did the master's voice in real life: He completely ignored it. Buddy started scratching at the drain, apparently trying to kill tiny droplets of condensation.
“Del?” Amy called from the room.
Come on, Buddy. Go see Amy. Go see Amy.
Did he know who Amy was? Did my thoughts translate into the cat language inside his skull? Didn't really matter, it seemed. Buddy was still fascinated with the drain. I swore I'd keep the bugger out of the bathroom from now on, as punishment.
Fortunately, Amy popped her head into the bathroom. “Hey, Buddy!” she squealed, and then started going pss-wss-wss-wsss.
You should have heard the sirens go off in the cat's Lilliputian brain. Suddenly, there was nothing more important in the entire world than to seek out and identify that alluring sound. I felt our furry, muscular body tense, spin around and hurtle out of the bathtub. It made my stomach-or at least, my own internal concept of “stomach"-flip. We bounded ahead until we encountered our target: the Woman's Shins. Then he thrust our body forward, rubbing our entire length against the Woman.
If I ever say I want to absorb the soul of a cat, talk me out of it. Fast. The only thing more uncontrollable than a cat is the weather.
Amy picked us up, and started stroking our head absentmindedly. “Where's your Daddy?” she cooed, but not looking at us. She still scanned the apartment, as if I would be hidden under my desk, or something.
I'm here! I tried to yell, but it came out as a purr.
She put us down, and Buddy tried to skitter away. But this time I was ready for him. I flexed every last bit of mental energy and clamped down on the scruff of his neck. Buddy jolted forward, then froze. He started to growl, but I cut it off. Then, slowly, I forced his head up to look at Amy.
She was reading something on a piece of notepaper, twiddling an apartment key in her free hand. Then I realized: Hey. That's probably my apartment key. What was going on? What day is this, anyway? Amy sighed, folded the note, put it in her jeans pocket and started for the door.
If I was going to get any answers, I needed to jump into Amy's body. Quick.
Okay, fur lips. Let's move it.
I jerked one front leg forward, then the next. One back leg, the next. Buddy was fighting me the entire way. You know cats can make themselves heavier when they don't want you to pick them up? Well, believe me, they can do the same thing mentally. I'm sure if Amy was paying any attention to Buddy, she would have immediately called a combination vet/exorcist.
Amy was at the door.
Leg, leg, leg, leg…
Amy was unlocking and opening the door.
We were a foot away. Time to go for broke. I summoned every ounce of mental control I thought I had over this cat and sent it to his back legs. It sprung up in the air like a jackrabbit who's had a carrot rammed up his ass.
We crashed into Amy's moving legs and did an ungraceful flop to the floor. Apparently, my presence negated Buddy's ability to land on all four feet.
Amy let out a startled, “Oh!” then looked down at us. Pathetic. Which, apparently, worked wonders. Amy squealed with pity and snatched us up into her arms, stroked our head and ran her knuckles beneath our mouth. Tremors shot throughout our body; our tail flicked wildly, joyously. Oh, don't stop, don't stop. Then I remembered what I had been going for. I lifted our head so it bumped Amy's jaw. “Buddy, slow down,” she said.
I bumped her again, rubbed our head across her cheek, and bumped her again.
“Buddy!"
Amy nudged our head up with a finger. “What's wrong with you, kit…"
We looked into her eyes.
Twenty-Two
Electric Amy
Whammo. The world did a backflip.
By this point, I was feeling like a world traveler. From the Country of Porcelain, to the strange, exotic turf of Feline, right into the uncharted territory known as the Female Mind. Oddly, Amy's mind felt closer to the toilet than the cat.
This is not meant as an insult-honest. The foundations of her psyche were unlike anything I'd ever encountered, and I'd encountered many a psyche.
I/Amy blinked, dimly aware that Buddy had wriggled free, leapt back down to the floor and scrambled away, probably looking for a place to hole up and bathe himself for a couple of hours.
Where am I? I heard Amy ask.
There was no Brain Hotel in here, to be sure. Just an ordinary human mind. Or was it?
No matter the environment, I had to create a suitable meeting place for our two minds. Right now, no doubt, Amy's consciousness was tumbling around in the void of her own brain, wondering how she'd lost her grip on reality so quickly.
I started to slap up a large room with wood-paneled walls, a comfortable rug, a desk, a couch, a few paintings. Then I realized a strange room like that would probably disorient her even more. I needed something familiar. So, I recreated my own apartment the best I could. That way, when I summoned her soul here, she would think she'd momentarily passed out. I could explain it away, without fear of her losing her mind.
When I'd finished, I called out to her. “Amy! Amy, wake up."
AMY IS AWAKE
The voice didn't come from any single location. The voice, for lack of a better description, came from all locations. I was in the voice, right here in the recreation my own apartment. I felt like a mere puff of breath within the voice.