“You want to ride the bus? What are you pissed at me about now?”
Quinn slammed her locker shut, making the metal crash echo down the hallway. She flung her trig textbook into her backpack. This was so like Becca. Acting like Quinn was such a drama queen, so let’s laugh off all her problems and treat her like everything is trivial.
And of course all this slamming and flinging was probably driving that point home.
Quinn picked up her bag and started walking.
“Come on,” said Becca, catching up with her. “Would you stop wasting time and tell me what’s wrong?”
“Nothing is wrong.”
“I thought you were all into doing the double-date thing with Nick and Chris. What happened?”
Nick is gay and you kept secrets.
“Forget it,” said Quinn. “Just go back to your perfect life.”
Becca stopped short. Quinn kept walking, but Becca called after her. “Oh, my perfect life? You mean with my father showing up out of nowhere? Or having the entire school know exactly what I did with Drew McKay? Or—”
Quinn whirled. “Shut up.” The worst part was that she did feel badly about all of those things. She marched back to Becca. “If you’re going to start listing your life difficulties, why don’t you start with the truth?”
Now Becca looked exasperated. “Damn it, Quinn, I don’t even know what you’re talking about.”
“I’m talking about how I learned all your secrets from the Last Airbender last night.”
Becca looked almost incredulous. “A cartoon? What? You—wait—you—”
Quinn watched sudden realization dawn on Becca’s face.
“Nick told you,” Becca whispered.
“No shit he told me. Why didn’t you tell me is what I want to know.”
When Becca didn’t have anything to say to that, Quinn started walking again.
Becca caught up to her in a hurry. Her voice was a whispered rush of words, hidden beneath the bustle in the hallway. “Quinn, I couldn’t tell you. Did he tell you everything? About how they’re marked for death? About how the Guides will come for them—”
“He told me all that.”
“Did he tell you about my father? How both Hunter and I aren’t supposed to exist, either?”
“Yes.”
“Did he—”
Quinn shoved her away. “He told me all of it, Becca!” She glared at her, feeling fury pour out of her eyes. “Why didn’t you?”
“I . . . couldn’t.”
I couldn’t.
Quinn could hear the subtext.
Because I couldn’t trust you.
And suddenly, that pinpointed the real problem here.
Becca hadn’t trusted her with this secret. Maybe she thought Quinn was too volatile, maybe she didn’t think Quinn was worthy of knowing. Maybe Becca was genuinely worried and she didn’t want to put Quinn in danger—but that felt like a load of bullshit since her friend hadn’t stopped her from dating Nick.
Quinn felt like such an idiot.
“He told me all about it,” Quinn said, hating that her throat felt thick. “All of it, Bex.”
Then she stood there waiting for Becca to re-categorize the last few weeks, the same way Quinn had done when she’d first learned everything from Nick.
The time Becca had totaled her car on the bridge, but Becca’s father, the Guide, had really been behind it.
The fires in town, the destruction of the school library, the students who were killed at the carnival.
How the kidnapping of a dozen local teenagers had nothing to do with a local criminal, and everything to do with a Guide coming to town to destroy the Merricks. How Calla Dean wasn’t a victim, but a murdering pyromaniac.
Becca knew all of it.
She’d never breathed a word to Quinn.
“You told me you miss your father,” said Quinn. “You cried and told me how much you wished you could trust him. Why would you lie about that?”
Becca looked stricken. “I didn’t lie about that. And now—now he won’t even let me see him—”
“Oh, wait, you can tell the truth when you want something?” Quinn scoffed and walked away. “Need a shoulder to cry on? Forget it, Becca.”
“Quinn, stop!”
“Why?” Quinn stopped and looked at her. “Why, Bex? You don’t give a crap about me. Not really.”
“I do—please, stop, talk to me.”
Becca’s voice was heavy with tears, and Quinn almost broke. She did know what her friend had gone through, and it hadn’t all been sunshine and roses.
Quinn knew because she’d let Becca cry on her shoulder about some of it.
But clearly not all of it.
And Quinn’s life wasn’t exactly sunshine and roses, either. Not like Becca gave a crap.
“I don’t want to talk,” said Quinn. “I’ve got my own secrets to keep.”
Then she burst through the double doors into the chilled air waiting for her.
CHAPTER 7
The job took too long. Good, in a way, because Nick barely had time to shower, much less think about what he was doing. He threw on jeans and a striped Henley before checking himself in the mirror. His hair was a mess of wet clumps, and he could probably stand to spend five minutes with a razor. Five minutes he didn’t have.
Stellar. He was going to show up on Adam’s doorstep looking like he didn’t give a shit.
Gabriel appeared in his doorway. “I thought you had to study.”
“Library. Helping Quinn with trig.” Nick couldn’t meet his eyes. It was easier keeping the secret from Chris and Michael, but Gabriel would see right through him. Now he definitely couldn’t linger.
He grabbed a tube of hair stuff and squeezed some into his hand. He ran it through his hair as he went down the steps, hoping it would be enough. Then the car keys were in his hand and his messenger bag was over his shoulder.
“Nicky—” Gabriel started.
“Later, okay?” Nick said. “I told her I’d pick her up at eight.”
“But—”
Nick shut the door in his face. Then he paused there on the porch, his hand on the doorknob. For an instant, he wanted to pull the door open. Gabriel knew he was hiding something, as clearly as Nick had known it when Gabriel was sneaking into burning houses with Hunter.
As clearly as Nick knew Gabriel was on the other side of this door, his hand on the same doorknob, deliberating whether to come after him.
For an instant, Nick wanted him to. He wanted Gabriel to throw open the door and demand something like what the fuck is going on with you, Nicky? Because then he could tell him, and he wouldn’t have to carry this secret around anymore.
The door jerked open and the knob slipped from under his hand. Nick gasped and tried to hold on to his heartbeat before it bolted straight out of his body.
Gabriel studied him, his expression fierce.
Nick braced himself. Tell him. Tell him tell him tell him.
His lips froze. He couldn’t speak. He couldn’t breathe.
“Hey,” said Gabriel. “You tell Quinn if Tyler messes with her again, I’ll track him down and make him hurt for a month.”
Right. Quinn. His girlfriend.
The air left Nick’s lungs. He turned and stepped off the porch, willing the adrenaline to get the hell out of his body. “You don’t even like Quinn.”
“Yeah, but it’s nice to have an excuse to go kick his ass.”
Nick pushed the button to unlock the car and didn’t say anything.
“Nicky,” Gabriel called from the porch. His voice gained an edge. “Are you mad at me about something?”
No. Yes. Nick had no idea.
“No,” he called back. “Just late.”